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Silent_Runner

07-25-2011, 09:44

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Went to a picnic in honor of Skidoo's one year of surviving his stroke. A bunch of his friends and family were there and of course they couldn't have been nicer to me.

You can guess my chest made it's usual complaints, and for a little while I thought it was going to keep me from going to the picnic. Finally the extra meds I took kicked in and I just had to deal with the nausea and usual effects from the meds. Skidoo's sister and BIL stayed close by me until the worst of that passed and I could move around and talk to people some. I'm glad I was able to go, and his family all seemed glad too.
That was good that you both got to enjoy the day in spite of your chest pain. Remember that none of it would have been possible if not for you.

Your wish is my command Gorgeous One.:hearts::iloveyou:
Am I reading what I think I am?:faint:

Anyone care to make bets on how soon he comes to regret these words? :tongueout:

Yep, it was no picnic. And Skidoo thinks you wouldn't dare hit him. He doesn't know you very well..............
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I doubt it will take very long.:rofl:

No it seems he does not know me.:psycho:

BobInTX

07-25-2011, 10:47

^^^ Ohhhhhhhh. Why else do you think I married her? You should see it down.

That could be arranged, you know

Well, this will just have to do until you see it in person. It's not all the way down, but you can get the idea.

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/ZachGGgofishing.jpg

okie

07-25-2011, 11:53

Love you, and keep your chin up sweetheart:smootchie::hearts::hugs:

Lone_Wolfe

07-25-2011, 23:33

Love you, and keep your chin up sweetheart:smootchie:: hearts:: hugs:

Love you too, okie. :smootchie:

Well, this will just have to do until you see it in person. It's not all the way down, but you can get the idea.

Wow! :faint: That's some beautiful hair, how long did it take her to grow it?

That was good that you both got to enjoy the day in spite of your chest pain. Remember that none of it would have been possible if not for you.
That's what they keep telling me.

Am I reading what I think I am?: faint:
If you are, than so am I.

No it seems he does not know me.: psycho:

He can't say we didn't warn him. :supergrin:

Well, unfortunately, it would appear that our plans have been foiled yet again, as I'm on my way home as I write this.

Got my job in K-town done in 1 day instead of the 2 weeks they'd planned, so I'm grabbing the little black and yellow handle and punching out!

:wavey:

See you on the free side of the grass one of these days.

Crap! I was hoping we'd finally get to tip a near-beer together! :crying:

Oh well, we'll find a way eventually. Have a safe trip home and don't get too drunk on your first night.

Welcome home, AK.
^^^ This.

Glad you're having a good time, Wolfe. You've got a lot of living yet to do.

That's the theory, anyway. I'm just chilling here, not doing a damn thing except listen to my chest ***** like it always does. I'm kind of anxious to get back to where I have a doc nearby, but kind of worried too. I'm trying not to think about that for a few more days, since I can't do anything about it. Yeah, I know, I need to find a way to apply that to all the other crap in my head, don't I? I know I can't do a thing to undo what happened, but I can't just not think about it, either. I'm working on finding a place to put it, though. I'd also like to find a place to put the nightmares I had last night too. Like in the trash.

BobInTX

07-26-2011, 07:35

It was long when we met. She cut it all off short short when our son was a baby because he kept pulling it. It looked awful so she grew it back out. It took 17 years to get that long. Our son will be 30 in a month. That pic is a couple years old. She cut it off about 6" a while back.

Just chillin' is exactly what we want you to do here now.

Are you back to your house or still at Skidoo's, or are you in other parts?

Silent_Runner

07-26-2011, 11:08

He can't say we didn't warn him. :supergrin:

That's the theory, anyway. I'm just chilling here, not doing a damn thing except listen to my chest ***** like it always does. I'm kind of anxious to get back to where I have a doc nearby, but kind of worried too. I'm trying not to think about that for a few more days, since I can't do anything about it. Yeah, I know, I need to find a way to apply that to all the other crap in my head, don't I? I know I can't do a thing to undo what happened, but I can't just not think about it, either. I'm working on finding a place to put it, though. I'd also like to find a place to put the nightmares I had last night too. Like in the trash.
We tried.:whistling::rofl:

It sounds like you are getting to rest and relax which is what you need. Are you sleeping? You just relax and try to keep all the crap out of your head for now. You will have time to work on that with your new shrink when you get back to Iraq.

It was long when we met. She cut it all off short short when our son was a baby because he kept pulling it. It looked awful so she grew it back out. It took 17 years to get that long. Our son will be 30 in a month. That pic is a couple years old. She cut it off about 6" a while back.

Just chillin' is exactly what we want you to do here now.

Are you back to your house or still at Skidoo's, or are you in other parts?
That hair is beautiful but I could not imagine taking care of it. I keep mine short. If I tried to grow it like that some of the patients at my work might pull it out.

Wolfe is still chilling at 23skidoo's house. She told me she spent yesterday camping on the couch.:supergrin:

smokeross

07-26-2011, 12:39

I wish L_W could relax like S_R's cat.

Lone_Wolfe

07-27-2011, 00:50

I wish L_W could relax like S_R's cat.

I wish I could too!

It was long when we met. She cut it all off short short when our son was a baby because he kept pulling it. It looked awful so she grew it back out. It took 17 years to get that long. Our son will be 30 in a month. That pic is a couple years old. She cut it off about 6" a while back.

Just chillin' is exactly what we want you to do here now.

Are you back to your house or still at Skidoo's, or are you in other parts?

Wow, she's got some patience. Well worth it though, and I'll bet she gets comments anywhere she goes.

That's about all I can do. Chill, have nightmares, drink beer...... :drink: I'm still at Skidoo's for one more night, them I'm headed for the sand again.

We tried.:whistling::rofl:

It sounds like you are getting to rest and relax which is what you need. Are you sleeping? You just relax and try to keep all the crap out of your head for now. You will have time to work on that with your new shrink when you get back to Iraq.

Wolfe is still chilling at 23skidoo's house. She told me she spent yesterday camping on the couch.:supergrin:

I've been making sure I sleep, if you get my drift, but I'm damn sure having my share of nightmares and then some. :steamed: The good thing is that most of them are the less intense type, like I'm just watching instead of living them. I'd much rather watch myself get shot than feel it any day.

New shrink and doc are just a few days away, I'm worried, but hopeful at the same time. Both my old doc and shrink emphasized that they'd make damn sure their replacements knew of me and my needs, and I think they both meant what they said.

For my last night here Skidoo and I went out to dinner and had steaks. I told the waiter that I'd screwed up by eating a good steak, now I won't be able to go back and eat DFAC steaks. He gave me a semi-sarcastic "I'm sorry". I laughed and told him "No, you're not. Enjoyed a good meal, now I'm tipping one last beer before I pack up and leave..........

BobInTX

07-27-2011, 08:13

Wow, she's got some patience. Well worth it though, and I'll bet she gets comments anywhere she goes. Just about every day. Most of them start with "how long did it take you to grow your hair"? :supergrin:

That's about all I can do. Chill, have nightmares, drink beer...... :drink: I'm still at Skidoo's for one more night, them I'm headed for the sand again.

I'm headed for the sand, too, on Saturday. Maui. :woohoo:

That's if my FIL let's us. He had a relapse yesterday and became unresponsive for a couple of hours again. Then he woke back up and was like he was on Saturday. BP was fine this time. Cat scan good. Weird.

I've been making sure I sleep, if you get my drift, but I'm damn sure having my share of nightmares and then some. :steamed: The good thing is that most of them are the less intense type, like I'm just watching instead of living them. I'd much rather watch myself get shot than feel it any day.

New shrink and doc are just a few days away, I'm worried, but hopeful at the same time. Both my old doc and shrink emphasized that they'd make damn sure their replacements knew of me and my needs, and I think they both meant what they said.

For my last night here Skidoo and I went out to dinner and had steaks. I told the waiter that I'd screwed up by eating a good steak, now I won't be able to go back and eat DFAC steaks. He gave me a semi-sarcastic "I'm sorry". I laughed and told him "No, you're not. Enjoyed a good meal, now I'm tipping one last beer before I pack up and leave..........

:sigh: I imagine you're in the air right now, so I'm praying for safe travels and that your bod makes the trip okay. Also for patience and wisdom for your new docs.

23skidoo

07-27-2011, 10:18

:sigh: I imagine you're in the air right now, so I'm praying for safe travels and that your bod makes the trip okay. Also for patience and wisdom for your new docs.

Hey Bob! She hasn't left yet; we're getting ready to go to lunch,:snoopy: big plus one about her docs; I hope your FIL does fine and is home soon. Miss Lone expects pics from Hawaii, enjoy your trip my friend.

smokeross

07-27-2011, 11:22

23skidoo

07-27-2011, 14:57

Sigh.:crying: The Gorgeous One is on her way back to Iraq.<<<<<<Kicks the dirt. Come home safe Babe.:iloveyou:

Lone_Wolfe

07-27-2011, 16:02

"Happy Trails to Youuuuuu, Until We Meet Againnnnn." Have a safe trip L_W. We all look forward to your posts after you get settled in.
How do you like my singing? Pretty good, huh? BTW, I have a gun, looks like Roy Rogers could have carried. Built 1885. Has elephant ivory grips.

I like your singing just fine, wish I was hearing it in person instead of over my internet connection from the corner of a bar in DTW (Detroit Metropolitan Wayne County Airport for you lucky ones who don't know). Got a couple hours to waste, so I'm wasting some beer too. Renting it, I should say. :drink:

And thank you, I hope for a safe trip too. So far, so good, although I think Mr Sulu was doing evasive maneuvers with the plane during the descent into Detroit. :rofl:

I just thought about something when I wrote the Mr Sulu comment. I'm actually in Romulus, MI right now. :trek:

Sigh.:crying: The Gorgeous One is on her way back to Iraq.<<<<<<Kicks the dirt. Come home safe Babe.:iloveyou:

Kick some for me too, wouldya? Back to physical terrorist that makes me cry, a new shrink and doc that hopefully help me like the last ones did, and Hajji bastards that keep trying to blow mw up. But it takes a few days to get there. If only the traveling weren't so hard on me, it could be more fun. Yeah, I'm grumbling. PLease forgive me. I know I need to go back, and I need to do what I can to get as healed as I can in the time I have left over there. Wish me luch, say a prayer, and stick with me if you will, it's going to get better. That I have to believe, God can't be done with me yet.

engineer151515

07-27-2011, 16:06

< sigh >

69Charger

07-27-2011, 16:08

Semper Fi. From an old Marine to you. Stay safe. :)
Dave

Glock26girl

07-27-2011, 16:23

Bob, I LOVE your wife's hair!!

Wolfe, it sounds like overall you had a nice time in the States, all things considered. We're praying for your new doc and psychiatrist to be wonderful, sympathetic types. Safe travels!!

23skidoo

07-27-2011, 18:01

Yor wish is my command Miss Lone<<<<<<<<going outside to kick some dirt. We know how hard traveling is on you Sweetheart, no need to apologize; and the cough was still hanging on today, but was getting better, which is good. I like your outlook!:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou::grouphug:

BobInTX

07-27-2011, 18:24

I like your singing just fine, wish I was hearing it in person instead of over my internet connection from the corner of a bar in DTW (Detroit Metropolitan Wayne County Airport for you lucky ones who don't know). Got a couple hours to waste, so I'm wasting some beer too. Renting it, I should say. :drink:

And thank you, I hope for a safe trip too. So far, so good, although I think Mr Sulu was doing evasive maneuvers with the plane during the descent into Detroit. :rofl:

I just thought about something when I wrote the Mr Sulu comment. I'm actually in Romulus, MI right now. :trek:

Kick some for me too, wouldya? Back to physical terrorist that makes me cry, a new shrink and doc that hopefully help me like the last ones did, and Hajji bastards that keep trying to blow mw up. But it takes a few days to get there. If only the traveling weren't so hard on me, it could be more fun. Yeah, I'm grumbling. PLease forgive me. I know I need to go back, and I need to do what I can to get as healed as I can in the time I have left over there. Wish me luch, say a prayer, and stick with me if you will, it's going to get better. That I have to believe, God can't be done with me yet.

You've been waiting a long time to use that Trek smilie, haven't you?

Detroit? Don't you need to be going east?

No, God is not done with you yet. You still have a lot of smiles to give away.

Lone_Wolfe

07-28-2011, 02:45

< sigh >

Yeah, I know. :sigh:

I only got a couple minutes before this connection times out, but I wanted to :wavey: Hello from Amsterdam. Time for a last fer :drink:s before I'm back in the sand. I may get back on later before I fly to Kuwait.

BobInTX

07-28-2011, 08:06

Yeah, I know. :sigh:

I only got a couple minutes before this connection times out, but I wanted to :wavey: Hello from Amsterdam. Time for a last fer :drink:s before I'm back in the sand. I may get back on later before I fly to Kuwait.

I had a dream about you last night. First one ever. You came to see me. But we weren't at my house. The only thing I really remember now is that we were in a convenience store way out on a desert highway and some Zeta cartel guys came and were marking the store as their territory and were preparing to fight a rival gang. We escaped out the back door. You'll be happy to know we got away before the AK's came out.

Dang! Now I can't remember what you looked like.

Lone_Wolfe

07-28-2011, 18:04

I had a dream about you last night. First one ever. You came to see me. But we weren't at my house. The only thing I really remember now is that we were in a convenience store way out on a desert highway and some Zeta cartel guys came and were marking the store as their territory and were preparing to fight a rival gang. We escaped out the back door. You'll be happy to know we got away before the AK's came out.

Dang! Now I can't remember what you looked like.

:phew:! Thanks for getting me out of there before the AK's showed up!

Do you mean to tell me you've never see a pic of me? Just so you know, you're not missing much.

You've been waiting a long time to use that Trek smilie, haven't you?

:supergrin:
Actually I think I used it once before, a while back. Just can't remember when or why. But hey, it fit the moment, right?

Detroit? Don't you need to be going east?
Yeah, but those puddle jumpers that fly out of Yeager don't exactly have the range to go across the pond, so I had to get on a bigger plane in Detriot.

No, God is not done with you yet. You still have a lot of smiles to give away.

I hope so, on both counts. I like the idea of making other people happy somehoe, and I REALLY hope God isn't finished with my healing yet.

Bob, I LOVE your wife's hair!!
So do I, and probably most women who see it. :drool:

Wolfe, it sounds like overall you had a nice time in the States, all things considered. We're praying for your new doc and psychiatrist to be wonderful, sympathetic types. Safe travels!!

Definitely better than the trip in January 10. I know I still had the nightmares, sleeplessness, pain, etc, but maybe now I'm just more resigned to it. I did enjoy parts of it, and think part of it was because I didn't try to do too much. I wasn't up to driving most of the time, so I only drove a little. I was wishing I could get around and do more, but then I'd have been hurting even worse than I was. Of course the URI didn't help in that department. I did enjoy getting to spend some time with a couple of friends.

Thank you for the prayers, I hope they all come true.

Semper Fi. From an old Marine to you. Stay safe. : )
Dave

Thank you, and stay safe yourself. And thank you for your service. :patriot:

Yor wish is my command Miss Lone<<<<<<<<going outside to kick some dirt. We know how hard traveling is on you Sweetheart, no need to apologize; and the cough was still hanging on today, but was getting better, which is good. I like your outlook!:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:: grouphug:

Thanks, it's kind of hard to kick dirt on a plane. And I'm going to refrain from going into detail about just how bad my chest is screaming, but I'll just say I had to tote my carry-on a lot today. :yuck:

I’d been wishing for a layover in Amsterdam, but now quite like this. Today’s flight to Kuwait was cancelled after 4 hours of trying to fix the plane, so I’m laying in a hotel outside of town. The airline had to put us all up and pay for our meals. I don’t envy them, that plane was packed full. I think I even say a few children packed in the overhead bins. I’m just glad as hell I grabbed the rest of my meds out of my checked bag at the last minute, or I’d have a problem. I don’t have a change of clothes, so I washed the ones I was wearing and rigged the hotel’s hair dryer to stay on and they’re drying. The airline gave us all little travel kits with things like the little tube of laundry soap, toothbrush, a temporary change of clothes, etc. Not a bad deal, although it was too late to do any sightseeing and I’m not in town.

BobInTX

07-28-2011, 19:27

:phew:! Thanks for getting me out of there before the AK's showed up!

Do you mean to tell me you've never see a pic of me? Just so you know, you're not missing much.

Sure I have. Hands. Feet. Cat. :whistling: You gonna remedy that for me?

I hope so, on both counts. I like the idea of making other people happy somehoe, and I REALLY hope God isn't finished with my healing yet.

Nah, he's still working on it.

Definitely better than the trip in January 10. I know I still had the nightmares, sleeplessness, pain, etc, but maybe now I'm just more resigned to it. I did enjoy parts of it, and think part of it was because I didn't try to do too much. I wasn't up to driving most of the time, so I only drove a little. I was wishing I could get around and do more, but then I'd have been hurting even worse than I was. Of course the URI didn't help in that department. I did enjoy getting to spend some time with a couple of friends.

I think your expectations were lower this time, but I think you actually wound up doing more.
Thank you for the prayers, I hope they all come true.

Me too.

Thank you, and stay safe yourself. And thank you for your service. :patriot:

Thanks, it's kind of hard to kick dirt on a plane. And I'm going to refrain from going into detail about just how bad my chest is screaming, but I'll just say I had to tote my carry-on a lot today. :yuck:

I’d been wishing for a layover in Amsterdam, but now quite like this. Today’s flight to Kuwait was cancelled after 4 hours of trying to fix the plane, so I’m laying in a hotel outside of town. The airline had to put us all up and pay for our meals. I don’t envy them, that plane was packed full. I think I even say a few children packed in the overhead bins. I’m just glad as hell I grabbed the rest of my meds out of my checked bag at the last minute, or I’d have a problem. I don’t have a change of clothes, so I washed the ones I was wearing and rigged the hotel’s hair dryer to stay on and they’re drying. The airline gave us all little travel kits with things like the little tube of laundry soap, toothbrush, a temporary change of clothes, etc. Not a bad deal, although it was too late to do any sightseeing and I’m not in town.
Hey, at least it's green there. Yeah, don't put your RX's in your checked bags.

Safe travels. We are going to DFW tomorrow to spend the night and catch a 6 am flight out to Maui. The FIL is stable and the evil brother and 1/2 sister can help for a change.

23skidoo

07-28-2011, 22:05

Lone_Wolfe

07-29-2011, 00:53

Sleep well Sweetheart, no demons to trouble your sleep. An uneventful flight back to Iraq tomorrow and a helpful gentleman like the one at Yeager who offered to carry your bags. Her checked bag is HEAVY! :hugs::hearts:: smootchie::iloveyou::grouphug:

Kuwait. I only fly to Kuwait today. It'll be a couple more days before I get to Iraq. And my checked bag isn't really heavy, we're just wimps! :rofl: Unfortunately porters don't exist in the sandbox. :sad

smokeross

07-29-2011, 09:33

Kuwait. I only fly to Kuwait today. It'll be a couple more days before I get to Iraq. And my checked bag isn't really heavy, we're just wimps! :rofl: Unfortunately porters don't exist in the sandbox. :sad
I would carry your bag for you.:wavey: Saw a lady struggling getting off a plane in Anchorage. She had a carry on bag, diaper bag, and a baby. i offered to assist her. She let me carry the baby.:innocent:

Silent_Runner

07-29-2011, 12:22

I would carry your bag for you.:wavey: Saw a lady struggling getting off a plane in Anchorage. She had a carry on bag, diaper bag, and a baby. i offered to assist her. She let me carry the baby.:innocent:
:rofl:

I wish you were in Iraq to carry Wolfe's bags for her. That would do her good not to have to carry them herself.

Kuwait. I only fly to Kuwait today. It'll be a couple more days before I get to Iraq. And my checked bag isn't really heavy, we're just wimps! :rofl: Unfortunately porters don't exist in the sandbox. :sad
Have you made it to Kuwait yet? I hope the remainder of your trip is safe and uneventful.

Hey, at least it's green there. Yeah, don't put your RX's in your checked bags.

Safe travels. We are going to DFW tomorrow to spend the night and catch a 6 am flight out to Maui. The FIL is stable and the evil brother and 1/2 sister can help for a change.
I think your expectations were lower this time, but I think you actually wound up doing more.
Wolfe really did spend a lot of her time just laying down because of the pain. That was probably the best thing for her too. She needs time to just rest and heal without the need to get up and worry about some computer equipment in Iraq. She also knows better than to put her meds in her checked bag.

I hope you and your family have a safe and enjoyable flight. Please keep in touch.

23skidoo

07-29-2011, 13:18

Hi Sweetheart! I hope the extra day of rest makes all the travel easier on you.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou::grouphug:

Lone_Wolfe

07-29-2011, 16:55

Hi Sweetheart! I hope the extra day of rest makes all the travel easier on you.:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:: grouphug:

I doubt it made any difference, but it did put off having to tote my checked bag for a day. The other side is that I had to tote my carry-on all over Amsterdam. Plus I meet my new doc and shrink a day later. Oh well, nothing I can do about it.

Have you made it to Kuwait yet? I hope the remainder of your trip is safe and uneventful.
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I'm now at the craphole known as Ali Al Salem. Too bad AK_Stick already popped smoke on this place. :sad:

Hopefully tomorrow I'll get a flight to BIAP, then 'home'.

I would carry your bag for you.:wavey: Saw a lady struggling getting off a plane in Anchorage. She had a carry on bag, diaper bag, and a baby. i offered to assist her. She let me carry the baby.:innocent:

If I had a baby I'd let you carry it too. :rofl:

And thank you.

Hey, at least it's green there. Yeah, don't put your RX's in your checked bags.

Usually if I'm carrying a month supply I'll put most in my checked bag and about a week's supply in my checked bag. This time I'm packed all but 2 days worth in my checked bag for some reason, then luckily I reconsidered.

Nah, he's still working on it.
Any chance you could convince him to speed up the healing process?

Sure I have. Hands. Feet. Cat. You gonna remedy that for me?
And that weren't even my cat, unfortunately. So what do you want to see next, my kneecaps? :rofl:

I think your expectations were lower this time, but I think you actually wound up doing more.
Actually I spent most of the time laying around, like Silent_Runner said, because my chest hurt so bad. That allergy/infection just made it worse. This time around I drive very little, too. I did drink a couple beers most every night to help the pain meds along, if that counts.

Safe travels. We are going to DFW tomorrow to spend the night and catch a 6 am flight out to Maui. The FIL is stable and the evil brother and 1/2 sister can help for a change.[/COLOR]

So how long will you be in Hawaii, and why didn't you invite me? Seriously, safe travels and I hope you all have a great time and get a rightous sunburn to show for it.

BobInTX

07-29-2011, 19:20

^^^^ How about your pretty face?

We'll be gone a week.

smokeross

07-30-2011, 00:21

I would carry you, L_W, and call you 'baby.':embarassed:

Lone_Wolfe

07-30-2011, 14:48

^^^^ How about your pretty face?

We'll be gone a week.

Skidoo may disagree with you, but you'll have to look elsewhere for that. I'm OK looking, but not really pretty.

Hope you're having a great time on vacation. :wavey:

I would carry you, L_W, and call you 'baby.':embarassed:

Oooooh, baby. :supergrin:

But I'm not a lightweight, carrying me won't be easy. :embarassed:

Another night in this Kuwaiti craphole. I sure hope I can get to Baghdad tomorrow. I can't slepp much at all here in this tent.

engineer151515

07-30-2011, 15:09

Skidoo may disagree with you, but you'll have to look elsewhere for that. I'm OK looking, but not really pretty.

I wonder, if that is how Helen of Troy described herself.

BobInTX

07-31-2011, 00:23

Skidoo may disagree with you, but you'll have to look elsewhere for that. I'm OK looking, but not really pretty.

Hope you're having a great time on vacation. :wavey:

Oooooh, baby. :supergrin:

But I'm not a lightweight, carrying me won't be easy. :embarassed:

Another night in this Kuwaiti craphole. I sure hope I can get to Baghdad tomorrow. I can't slepp much at all here in this tent.

Well send me a pic anyway, will ya?

We got to Maui on time and in one piece, so we broke our streak of bad flying luck. We met some friends this afternoon and did some ziplining. It was awesome.

It's been a loooonnnnggg day. First some room service and then some shuteye.

23skidoo

07-31-2011, 00:55

Lone_Wolfe

07-31-2011, 18:32

Hey! :rant: Stop that! You are gorgeous!:hearts:

Sez who? :tongueout:

Yeah, I know you think that, but I don't and never have. I'm OK looking, but nothing special.

Well send me a pic anyway, will ya?

We got to Maui on time and in one piece, so we broke our streak of bad flying luck. We met some friends this afternoon and did some ziplining. It was awesome.

It's been a loooonnnnggg day. First some room service and then some shuteye.

I suppose I could be convinced. :sigh:

:rofl:

Glad to hear the flight went well amd you'e having fun. I'm sooooooo jealous! Speaking of pics............

Well, I'm officially back in Iraq now. Got into BIAP this afternoon after sitting in a 200+ degree C130 most of the day. At least if felt like it was over 200. :faint: I was so tired I got a ride to the DFAC, ate a little, went back to the room and layed down and actually slept for almost 4 hours with only Xanax to curb the nightmares. Kinda odd that that happened on my first day back, but I was SO tired, both mentally and physically. That kind of heat really drains me physically. Now it's 3AM and I'm going to take my meds and try to get a few more hours in before one more flight to get 'home'. Cross your fingers that all goes well and I get to meet new doc and shrink tomorrow.

BobInTX

07-31-2011, 22:38

Sez who? :tongueout:

Yeah, I know you think that, but I don't and never have. I'm OK looking, but nothing special.

I suppose I could be convinced. :sigh:

:rofl:

Glad to hear the flight went well amd you'e having fun. I'm sooooooo jealous! Speaking of pics............

Well, I'm officially back in Iraq now. Got into BIAP this afternoon after sitting in a 200+ degree C130 most of the day. At least if felt like it was over 200. :faint: I was so tired I got a ride to the DFAC, ate a little, went back to the room and layed down and actually slept for almost 4 hours with only Xanax to curb the nightmares. Kinda odd that that happened on my first day back, but I was SO tired, both mentally and physically. That kind of heat really drains me physically. Now it's 3AM and I'm going to take my meds and try to get a few more hours in before one more flight to get 'home'. Cross your fingers that all goes well and I get to meet new doc and shrink tomorrow.

Check your email.

It's nice and windy here. Much cooler than the 100+ we left.

If your new shrink tells you we're not good for you get a second opinion!

23skidoo

07-31-2011, 22:42

Hi Sweetheart! I hope your new docs pick right up where the old ones left off and further your recovery.

Am I going to have to invite Bob to my house to see The Shrine O Gorgeous One?:tongueout: Bob, I have several pictures of her on the wall across from my recliner forming The Shrine, she truly is gorgeous, inside and out.

Welcome 'home' Babe. Sleep well.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

Lone_Wolfe

08-01-2011, 17:02

Check your email.

It's nice and windy here. Much cooler than the 100+ we left.

If your new shrink tells you we're not good for you get a second opinion!

Nice pics, thanks! You could post them here and have half of GT jealous. Me included. :supergrin: And I'd love 100 degree weather right about now. It was 130 here today.

I'll be sure to tell my shrink that if he makes that mistake. My old shrink probably told him about all of you.

Hi Sweetheart! I hope your new docs pick right up where the old ones left off and further your recovery.

I do too.

Am I going to have to invite Bob to my house to see The Shrine O Gorgeous One?:tongueout: Bob, I have several pictures of her on the wall across from my recliner forming The Shrine, she truly is gorgeous, inside and out.

Sure, you can invite him over. But it has to be next time that I'm also there, I want to meet him too. I really doubt he wants to see your 'shrine', though. :rofl:

Welcome 'home' Babe. Sleep well.:hugs::hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

I'm not 'home' yet, hopefully tomorrow. I really need to see my doc soon, my damn chest is driving me nuts and I'm getting low on pain meds. Other meds, too. :yuck:

Silent_Runner

08-02-2011, 05:54

I'll be sure to tell my shrink that if he makes that mistake. My old shrink probably told him about all of you.

I'm not 'home' yet, hopefully tomorrow. I really need to see my doc soon, my damn chest is driving me nuts and I'm getting low on pain meds. Other meds, too. :yuck:
I would be very surprised if your new shrink does not know quite a bit about us and what we are trying to do for you. I certainly hope he wants our continued help because we plan to give it anyway.:tongueout:

I got an email from Wolfe and she is still trying for her last flight but it was canceled again. It seems military flights have a worse record than Jet Blue.:rofl:

Hi Sweetheart! I hope your new docs pick right up where the old ones left off and further your recovery.

Am I going to have to invite Bob to my house to see The Shrine O Gorgeous One?:tongueout: Bob, I have several pictures of her on the wall across from my recliner forming The Shrine, she truly is gorgeous, inside and out.

Welcome 'home' Babe. Sleep well.:::
You made a shrine to Wolfe?:wow: You are smitten!:rofl:

Silent_Runner

08-02-2011, 10:38

Well, I'm officially back in Iraq now. Got into BIAP this afternoon after sitting in a 200+ degree C130 most of the day. At least if felt like it was over 200. :faint: I was so tired I got a ride to the DFAC, ate a little, went back to the room and layed down and actually slept for almost 4 hours with only Xanax to curb the nightmares. Kinda odd that that happened on my first day back, but I was SO tired, both mentally and physically. That kind of heat really drains me physically. Now it's 3AM and I'm going to take my meds and try to get a few more hours in before one more flight to get 'home'. Cross your fingers that all goes well and I get to meet new doc and shrink tomorrow.
Wolfe I meant to ask earlier if anything like this happened again or if there has been anymore changes to your sleep since you got back there. I hope that you might be having a breakthrough here. I should know not to get on the internet when I first wake up because I forget everything.:rofl:

Lone_Wolfe

08-02-2011, 17:23

I wonder, if that is how Helen of Troy described herself.

Good question, especially since I have no idea what she looked like.

:hugs:

I would be very surprised if your new shrink does not know quite a bit about us and what we are trying to do for you. I certainly hope he wants our continued help because we plan to give it anyway.: tongueout:

I got an email from Wolfe and she is still trying for her last flight but it was canceled again. It seems military flights have a worse record than Jet Blue.: rofl:

You made a shrine to Wolfe?: wow: You are smitten!:rofl:

Considering my old shrink told me he was going to make sure the new one knows about all of you, I'm sure he does. Who knows, he may have already visited this thread and be thinking about how he's going to put us all to work. :supergrin:

I finally made it 'home'. For such a short flight it sure can be a pain in the ass getting on it. :steamed: But I should meet my new doc and shrink tomorrow. For now I'm so tired I feel like I could sleep for a week. Heat and toting my bags tends to do that. It also makes my chest scream some real nasty things. It feels like hell right now, I could lay here for a week and not move and hope it feels better. I'm so tempted to go to the hospital for a needleful of Dilaudid.

One of Skidoo's family took several pics of me when I got to the airport last year and put 7 of them in frames. Hr has those pics on his living room where he can see them. That's his 'shrine'. Him, smitten? Dunno, you'll have to ask him. :rofl:

Wolfe I meant to ask earlier if anything like this happened again or if there has been anymore changes to your sleep since you got back there. I hope that you might be having a breakthrough here. I should know not to get on the internet when I first wake up because I forget everything.: rofl:

You'd for get your brains if they weren't glued in before you have a pot of coffee.:tongueout:

A little bit of change in the nightmares, hard to define. A couple nights ago I was asleep when we were getting rocketed and I woke up and thought I'd dreamt the explosions. I heard another and it took me a few seconds to comprehend they were real. By then the attack was over. I'll bet I sleep some tonight though, I'm so whupped I can barely stand up.

23skidoo

08-02-2011, 18:08

<<<<<<<<Smitten.:hearts:

BobInTX

08-02-2011, 19:47

:wavey:

Glad you made it.

engineer151515

08-03-2011, 08:21

Good question, especially since I have no idea what she looked like.

:hugs:

.......

I've heard, she too was quite the beauty.

You know, Helen had a twin sister.
But that's a different Odyssey . . .

smokeross

08-03-2011, 08:38

So you are there. Wish I could send you some of the rain we have been getting this week. But hey, I just reseeded part of my lawn, so I guess it works for me.
My back is hugely improved, and I'm off the meds. Just took my last steroid last night. They make it hard to sleep, especially if taken too late in the day.
Discovered we have TWO bears in the neighborhood. Have a blackie in addition to the brown I've seen twice. I pack a revolver when I take the dog out to pee, get the paper, or start the KW in the morning.
You be good over there, and keep up with the posting. Do you need anything from Alaska, besides the aforementioned rain or some cooler temps?

Lone_Wolfe

08-03-2011, 18:00

<<<<<<<<Smitten.:hearts:

^^^ Nuts, too. :shakehead:

:rofl:

: wavey:

Glad you made it.

I was too, until I got to work today. To say the guy who covered for me left a mess would be an understatement. :upeyes: I was so tired last night I fell asleep for a couple hours without my meds, and bet I could do the same tomight. I'll make damn sure I take my Xanax though, you don't want to hear about how I woke up last night. Mandy's none too happy with me right now either. :crying:

I've heard, she too was quite the beauty.

You know, Helen had a twin sister.
But that's a different Odyssey . . .

You got me stumped there.....

Oh, and :hugs:

So you are there. Wish I could send you some of the rain we have been getting this week. But hey, I just reseeded part of my lawn, so I guess it works for me.
My back is hugely improved, and I'm off the meds. Just took my last steroid last night. They make it hard to sleep, especially if taken too late in the day.
Discovered we have TWO bears in the neighborhood. Have a blackie in addition to the brown I've seen twice. I pack a revolver when I take the dog out to pee, get the paper, or start the KW in the morning.
You be good over there, and keep up with the posting. Do you need anything from Alaska, besides the aforementioned rain or some cooler temps?

I wish you could send me some of that rain, too, and some cooler air! It's HOT here, but the heat isn't really bothering me that bad if I'm not carrying stuff around because the humidity is a lot lower than the eastern US.

Glad to hear your back's doing better, and you need to get some pics of those bears. That's just too cool. Except the part about having to carry a gun to walk the dog, that is.

OK. I'll keep posting if you folks do too. I had another long day today, but I did get to the hospital to meet my new doc. He seems pretty good, and didn't throw a fit about having me as his patient, so it should work out OK. I went in and was sitting in the exam room when he walks in and just stops and looks at me for a minute. He finally says "I've heard of you". I asked him if that was good or bad and he said it depends on how you look at it. Then he said he'd gone all through my records and could see why I was called Cat. He also told me that he had some thoughts on which direction he wanted to go with my treatment, and he's having another MRI done on me to check some things. He made the comment that he thinks he might have done some things different than my old doc, but made sure I knew he wasn't criticizing. I told him I was open to some new ideas if it helped my chest quit hurting so much.

23skidoo

08-03-2011, 19:56

I am nuts for you my dear.:hearts: I'm sorry the dude covering for you left you such a mess. Your new doc sounds okay.:thumbsup: I hope it cools down soon.

Zonny

08-03-2011, 20:03

Yeah!! I was hoping for a different opinion as to your injuries and treatment. This may be just what you needed. :woohoo:

BobInTX

08-03-2011, 21:53

Well, its nice to know you're needed on the job. Be sure and return the favor.

I'm with Zonny. A new pair of eyes might help. Cat.
:tongueout:

engineer151515

08-04-2011, 09:06

You got me stumped there.....

Oh, and :hugs:

Goes back the Homer's the Iliad and Odyssey and before the Trojan wars.

Before Paris swept Helen-of-Troy off of her feet and carried her off to Troy, the kings of the different Greek states were fussing and fighting over who would have the honor of marrying the beautiful Helen. It was a political showdown - because the king that married Helen would invariably be jumped upon by the other kings and fuss and fight among each other. So they tried to build alliances - in order that Helen's groom would not be beaten up by the others.

Sly as a fox Odysseus basically offered front-runner Menelaus his support if Odysseus would receive the same for marrying Penelope (Helen's twin sister - not being fought over at that moment). Deal done and Odysseus married Penelope - taking her off the market - so to speak.

Turned out, Penelope was not only a beautiful catch, she was a very loyal wife - fending off suitors for 10 years while her husband got lost trying to make his way back from Troy. There is a happy ending. That story is the Odyssey.

All this relates the discussions of your beauty and your personal Odyssey.
Probably would have made more sense had we talked over several beers.
:)

Silent_Runner

08-04-2011, 11:51

I was too, until I got to work today. To say the guy who covered for me left a mess would be an understatement. :upeyes: I was so tired last night I fell asleep for a couple hours without my meds, and bet I could do the same tomight. I'll make damn sure I take my Xanax though, you don't want to hear about how I woke up last night. Mandy's none too happy with me right now either. :crying:

OK. I'll keep posting if you folks do too. I had another long day today, but I did get to the hospital to meet my new doc. He seems pretty good, and didn't throw a fit about having me as his patient, so it should work out OK. I went in and was sitting in the exam room when he walks in and just stops and looks at me for a minute. He finally says "I've heard of you". I asked him if that was good or bad and he said it depends on how you look at it. Then he said he'd gone all through my records and could see why I was called Cat. He also told me that he had some thoughts on which direction he wanted to go with my treatment, and he's having another MRI done on me to check some things. He made the comment that he thinks he might have done some things different than my old doc, but made sure I knew he wasn't criticizing. I told him I was open to some new ideas if it helped my chest quit hurting so much.
These changes in your sleep sound like they are starting to happen more often and for the better. Please let us know if it keeps happening.

We intend to keep posting so you may as well plan to also. I would like to hear more about what your new doctor is thinking. Does he plan to do any more than change your meds? Have you met your new shrink yet?

Well, its nice to know you're needed on the job. Be sure and return the favor.

I'm with Zonny. A new pair of eyes might help. Cat.
:tongueout:
You called her Cat.:wow::couch:

All this relates the discussions of your beauty and your personal Odyssey.
Probably would have made more sense had we talked over several beers.
:)
I think Wolfe plans to make sure you have that chance.

Lone_Wolfe

08-04-2011, 19:20

I am nuts for you my dear.: hearts: I'm sorry the dude covering for you left you such a mess. Your new doc sounds okay.: thumbsup: I hope it cools down soon.

Yep, nuts..... I knew it and now I have proof. :tongueout:

Yeah!! I was hoping for a different opinion as to your injuries and treatment. This may be just what you needed. : woohoo:

I just hope he doesn't think he has to go in and redo any repairs already done. :scared: I did see him today, but just for long enough to get some meds for breathing problems I was having. He was on his way out, but he stopped in to see me before he left. He asked me a few questions and looked me over a little before leaving me in the hands of the evening crew.

Well, its nice to know you're needed on the job. Be sure and return the favor.

I'm with Zonny. A new pair of eyes might help. Cat.
:tongueout:

Considering I'm responsible for this AO, who would I return the favor to? I don't want to make my job any harder than it is right now. Although I've been really lucky, this job has been easy for me and gives me the time I need for all my appointments usually. These last couple days have been the exception.

Who's this Cat you're talking about? :whistling:

All this relates the discussions of your beauty and your personal Odyssey.
Probably would have made more sense had we talked over several beers.
: )

Hmmmmmm, interesting. Glad you think I'm beautiful, too. Silent_Runner is right, I sure hope conversations over several beers can be arranged. :hugs:

These changes in your sleep sound like they are starting to happen more often and for the better. Please let us know if it keeps happening.
That can be arranged.

We intend to keep posting so you may as well plan to also. I would like to hear more about what your new doctor is thinking. Does he plan to do any more than change your meds? Have you met your new shrink yet?
Doc hasn't said anything more specific about his plans yet. I did meet my new shrink today, just for a minute. I'm supposed to see him tomorrow.

You called her Cat.: wow:: couch:
Yeah, and just because he got away with it don't think you can. I know where YOU live. :psycho:

I think Wolfe plans to make sure you have that chance.

You're right.

Peace Warrior

08-04-2011, 19:22

Doc8404

08-04-2011, 21:18

IF i'm reading this correctly, you still have some significant medical conditions, yet they sent you back to Iraq???

Lady Glock

08-05-2011, 07:54

IF i'm reading this correctly, you still have some significant medical conditions, yet they sent you back to Iraq???

She gets a level of care there that they don't feel she could get in the states. She would most likely be an outpatient in the states, and that wouldn't be good because she could possibly have an emotional breakdown and not be close enough to assistance to see her through it. So, they keep her there in a civi job and give her care as though she were still enlisted

Silent_Runner

08-05-2011, 11:06

I just hope he doesn't think he has to go in and redo any repairs already done. :scared: I did see him today, but just for long enough to get some meds for breathing problems I was having. He was on his way out, but he stopped in to see me before he left. He asked me a few questions and looked me over a little before leaving me in the hands of the evening crew.

Doc hasn't said anything more specific about his plans yet. I did meet my new shrink today, just for a minute. I'm supposed to see him tomorrow.

Yeah, and just because he got away with it don't think you can. I know where YOU live. :psycho:

It does sound like your new doctor wants to help you. How has your chest been feeling? I hope your new shrink really wants to help too.

Yes you know where I live but you also know that I have guns. So how are you doing today Cat?:tongueout::supergrin:

IF i'm reading this correctly, you still have some significant medical conditions, yet they sent you back to Iraq???
Yes they did. She gets more and better care there than she could get from the VA in this area. I was completely opposed to the idea at first but have softened my stance since then.

Doc8404

08-05-2011, 13:01

Dang! Haven't heard that before. Our VA system generally sucks...medically speaking.

Lone_Wolfe

08-05-2011, 19:15

Hey LW,

The 'shrimp are running' around here. Gonna either force my brother to go 'shrimping & fishing' this weekend, or I'm gonna have to go by myself. If you were here, we could fool some speckled trout into eating live shrimp with hooks just past the breakers off the pier at JAX BCH.

Even so, depending on what you like, fishing around here is pretty much year round. Give me a couple two or three days head's up before you get here and we'll go fishing somewhere regardless of the time of year.

Stay on top of things girl.

Your friend,

PW

Now that sounds like a plan, my friend. :wavey:

IF i'm reading this correctly, you still have some significant medical conditions, yet they sent you back to Iraq???

You're almost correct. I was in Afghanistan when I got hurt, then they sent me to Iraq.

Dang! Haven't heard that before. Our VA system generally sucks...medically speaking.

No kidding! And the VA in my area is among the worst in the country. I'll take getting shot at some more and rocketed to avoid them. :faint:

It does sound like your new doctor wants to help you. How has your chest been feeling? I hope your new shrink really wants to help too.

Yes you know where I live but you also know that I have guns. So how are you doing today Cat?:tongueout::supergrin:
.

He does. He did MRI, X-Rays, etc today to see where I am now and how much the traveling set me back. My chest felt kinda rough today, although the last couple days haven't been near as bad as the first few days after traveling before. I went in and got something for the pain that really did the trick, but I'm stoned posting.

I had my appointment with my shrink today, and we talked for a couple hours. He asked me all kinds of stuff about what happened, about Greg and how I felt about that, about things that have happened since then, about things my previous shrinks have done, etc. He started asking if I still felt suicidal at times, and when, and what brought it on. The biggest change there is now the only times I really consider that is when my chest is giving me hell, but not so much when the mental pressures and guilt get to be too much. He seemed pleased when that came out. He actually seemed pleased about a lot of what was said, but told me he needed to sort it all out and compared it to the records he had on me, which he said he'd skimmed though and would read some more.

23skidoo

08-05-2011, 20:13

Hi Sweetheart! I'm hoping the extra rest helped ease the normal pain caused by travel. It sounds like your psychiatrist is cool too.:thumbsup::hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

BobInTX

08-05-2011, 20:34

Still the night owl, I see. You're 13 hours ahead of me.

Lone_Wolfe

08-06-2011, 19:44

Still the night owl, I see. You're 13 hours ahead of me.

And I'm still jealous! :suntan: Hope you're all having a great time over there.

Yep, still the night owl, but I've changed my TT a bit. I've been so tired from everything since I got back that I've been taking my Xanax alone and laying down before midnight, and have actually been falling asleep for a couple hours before waking up, usually from a nightmare. Then I take the rest of my cocktail and try to get a few more hours later in the night. So far it's been working some, I'm getting around 5-6 hours a night instead of 3. Still not enough, but better then before. I may start taking a muscle relaxer earlier too, because I thrash coming out of the nightmares sometimes.

Hi Sweetheart! I'm hoping the extra rest helped ease the normal pain caused by travel. It sounds like your psychiatrist is cool too.:thumbsup:: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

I don't know what did, but something helped some. Yes, I still hurt like hell, but not quite so bad. I'll take any improvement, no matter what the reason. I think I'm going to be able to work with this shrink OK. I'm supposed to see him again tomorrow. Speaking of cool, my physical terrorist definitely wasn't today. He had me :crying: right from the start. He hadn't been this hard on me before. The last time he even came close was before I had my last arthroscopy. Bastard! :steamed:

I got this in a PM and asked if I could post it here in honor of the men who died in Afghanistan today when thier chopper was shot down. May they all rest in peace. :patriot:

To those who serve,
Many don't have the nerve.
Risking life and limb,
Survival is dismal and slim.
They willfully gave their all,
So evil & tyranny may fall.
Of bodies so bent & broken,
Many prayers of love are spoken.
To hear of men falling from the sky,
Truely brought many tears to my eye.
To those heroes that died today,
Living in our hearts forever you stay.[/B]

Rest easy Gentlemen.........:patriot:

faawrenchbndr

08-06-2011, 19:55

......I don't know what did, but something helped some. Yes, I still hurt like hell, but not quite so bad. I'll take any improvement, no matter what the reason. I think I'm going to be able to work with this shrink OK. I'm supposed to see him again tomorrow. Speaking of cool, my physical terrorist definitely wasn't today. He had me :crying: right from the start. He hadn't been this hard on me before. The last time he even came close was before I had my last arthroscopy. Bastard! :steamed:

Remember a few things.

A. You volunteered to go back to the dirt & to the PT
B. No pain no gain
C. Pain is weakness leaving the body
D. You have the support of more than you realize.

:hugs:

Silent_Runner

08-07-2011, 13:00

Yep, still the night owl, but I've changed my TT a bit. I've been so tired from everything since I got back that I've been taking my Xanax alone and laying down before midnight, and have actually been falling asleep for a couple hours before waking up, usually from a nightmare. Then I take the rest of my cocktail and try to get a few more hours later in the night. So far it's been working some, I'm getting around 5-6 hours a night instead of 3. Still not enough, but better then before. I may start taking a muscle relaxer earlier too, because I thrash coming out of the nightmares sometimes.

I don't know what did, but something helped some. Yes, I still hurt like hell, but not quite so bad. I'll take any improvement, no matter what the reason. I think I'm going to be able to work with this shrink OK. I'm supposed to see him again tomorrow. Speaking of cool, my physical terrorist definitely wasn't today. He had me :crying: right from the start. He hadn't been this hard on me before. The last time he even came close was before I had my last arthroscopy. Bastard! :steamed:

The way you are getting your sleep seems unorthodox but if it gets you more sleep than you were getting then keep it up. I hope you get to where you can stay asleep longer without all the drugs in you. Have you talked to your doctor about the change in your pattern? He would probably like to know about it.

The fact that your physical terrorist pushed you harder this soon after yuo traveled may be a good sign. It sounds like he thinks you recovered from that much faster than before. The change in your suicidal thoughts sounds like a huge improvement also. Hopefully soon you can banish that demon forever.

smokeross

08-07-2011, 13:50

Glad to hear you are improving. You should smile to yourself about that. I know it got a smile out of me.

Lone_Wolfe

08-08-2011, 06:15

I tried to post this last night, but connectivity issues made it a pain...

Glad to hear you are improving. You should smile to yourself about that. I know it got a smile out of me.

I smile some, but it's hard when that darn physical terrorist is abusing me. Thank you

The way you are getting your sleep seems unorthodox but if it gets you more sleep than you were getting then keep it up. I hope you get to where you can stay asleep longer without all the drugs in you. Have you talked to your doctor about the change in your pattern? He would probably like to know about it.
I mentioned it to my doc. He noted it, but didn't comment. Last night I took my meds as soon as I woke back up and was able to go back to sleep faster than usual. That might have also been because of how tired I was from yesterday, plus the extra pain meds I had in me.

The fact that your physical terrorist pushed you harder this soon after yuo traveled may be a good sign. It sounds like he thinks you recovered from that much faster than before. The change in your suicidal thoughts sounds like a huge improvement also. Hopefully soon you can banish that demon forever.

My doc told my terrorost to turn up the heat, he told me today. He said that this time around although I hurt like hell, I didn't undo much of my healing when I travelled. He compared this time to my records from my previous trips and how each time I'd lose a lot of my gains each time I traveled. He said he went all through my records and looked at the things my old doc said right before he left and he thinks I've gotten to the point that I can handle more therapy and stuff in general, that even though it hurts like hell it doesn't do any more harm like it did for a long time. We talked about things like the trouble I had driving when I was Stateside and other things I couldn't do or hurt really bad to try and he said a lot of things would probably always be painful for me, but I should be able to do more things than I can now.

He also said he thinks the pain meds I take aren't doing as well at releiving my pain as they should. He tested that theory a little by pinching and poking me some (with my permission) and watching my reaction and asking how it felt. He seemed to have a good point, because even though I'm on Oxy 24/7 it doesn't block out lesser pain completely. I think he's going to try switching out my pain meds, hopefully back to Fentanyl or something that does me more good. It may also be a case of me having to get used to being in this much pain all the time, but I hope not.

Remember a few things.

A. You volunteered to go back to the dirt & to the PT
True there. Better than not getting any better

B. No pain no gain
I don't think you're referring to the kind of pain I've had for the last 2 1/2 years, that's a different kind of pain. I hope what my physical terrorist is doing is the good kind if pain now.

C. Pain is weakness leaving the body
No wonder you think I'm Wonder Woman!!! :wow: I must have had a hell of a lot of weakness leave my body in the last couple years! :crying:

D. You have the support of more than you realize.

:hugs:

I thank you for that, very much. :hugs:

23skidoo

08-08-2011, 07:15

Sweetheart, I think the fentanyl would do more harm than good, it interferes with your sleep cocktail and has stopped your breathing in the past. Be careful what you wish for Babe.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou::grouphug:

okie

08-08-2011, 07:17

Love you LW sweetheart. Keep your chin up honey:smootchie::hearts::hugs:

faawrenchbndr

08-08-2011, 07:50

......I thank you for that, very much. :hugs:

You're a smart cookie, you know what I meant.

The bad part about this whole deal is that it happened.
The good part about this whole deal is that you survived.
You've been through a lot, you still have a bumpy road ahead. But, just think
of wht you have accomplished and how far you have progressed since last year.

Major traumatic injuries do take time to heal, longer for some.
Now that you're 26 the body needs a bit more time to heal than a 21 year old.

:hugs:

BobInTX

08-08-2011, 09:04

I tried to post this last night, but connectivity issues made it a pain...

I smile some, but it's hard when that darn physical terrorist is abusing me. Thank you

My doc told my terrorost to turn up the heat, he told me today. He said that this time around although I hurt like hell, I didn't undo much of my healing when I travelled. He compared this time to my records from my previous trips and how each time I'd lose a lot of my gains each time I traveled. He said he went all through my records and looked at the things my old doc said right before he left and he thinks I've gotten to the point that I can handle more therapy and stuff in general, that even though it hurts like hell it doesn't do any more harm like it did for a long time. We talked about things like the trouble I had driving when I was Stateside and other things I couldn't do or hurt really bad to try and he said a lot of things would probably always be painful for me, but I should be able to do more things than I can now.

He also said he thinks the pain meds I take aren't doing as well at releiving my pain as they should. He tested that theory a little by pinching and poking me some (with my permission) and watching my reaction and asking how it felt. He seemed to have a good point, because even though I'm on Oxy 24/7 it doesn't block out lesser pain completely. I think he's going to try switching out my pain meds, hopefully back to Fentanyl or something that does me more good. It may also be a case of me having to get used to being in this much pain all the time, but I hope not.

I thank you for that, very much. :hugs:

Sounds like that little surgery you had might have done you some good. I'm like Skidoo, I thought the Fentanyl was causing some of the stopping breathing problems.

Work hard on your PT, and if you need to just cuss out those Afghanis who did this to you.

Well, I'm back in the real world now. Unfortunately, our old problems are still here. My wife's dad is still in the hospital and is still confused. He has also started eating less in the last two days.

I'm going to post some pictures of our trip here in a bit.

BobInTX

08-08-2011, 09:10

Here is the sunset the first night we were in Maui

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo1-3.jpg

Here is the view from our Lanai

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo2-3.jpg

This is our view from Bubba Gump's restaurant in Lahaina

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo2-4.jpg

BobInTX

08-08-2011, 09:16

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo3-3.jpg

These next two are at Haleakala Crater

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo4.jpg

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo1-4.jpg

And one last time by the beach before we had to come home...

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo3-4.jpg

Glock26girl

08-08-2011, 18:05

It is so good to hear that you made it back in one piece...and that you like your new doctors. I'm in agreement with SR that it would be great if you didn't have to work so much and irritate your injuries. It sounds like being able to go more at your own pace while stateside helped you physically. It is super encouraging that you could just fall asleep without your cocktail! That could never have happened a year ago. Despite the constant pain, it sounds like you are in such a better place emotionally and physically, Wolfe. As ever, we all love you. We won't stop praying for your full recovery and for God's wisdom for your new docs in their decision-making concerning every facet of your treatment. Gentle hugs...where are the emoticons?

engineer151515

08-08-2011, 18:13

Nice pics, Bob
Thanks for sharing
Gives us all the opportunity to dream away for just a moment.

Lone_Wolfe

08-08-2011, 19:42

Love you LW sweetheart. Keep your chin up honey:smootchie:: hearts:: hugs:

Love you too, okie. :smootchie:

Sweetheart, I think the fentanyl would do more harm than good, it interferes with your sleep cocktail and has stopped your breathing in the past. Be careful what you wish for Babe.: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou::grouphug:

You mean I can't still wish sometimes that I WOULD just stop breathing permanently? Actually it was the steroid injections that caused a lot of my breathing problems, and the Fentanyl only reacts with one of the sleep cocktails I use in rotation. For a while it was one that worked good, but not so much anymore. I'd gladly quit using that one to get back on the Fentanyl.

You're a smart cookie, you know what I meant.

The bad part about this whole deal is that it happened.
The good part about this whole deal is that you survived.
You've been through a lot, you still have a bumpy road ahead. But, just think
of wht you have accomplished and how far you have progressed since last year.

Major traumatic injuries do take time to heal, longer for some.
Now that you're 26 the body needs a bit more time to heal than a 21 year old.

:hugs:

26, eh? I'd love to have that time capsule!

I sure wish there was a way to smooth out some of the bumps, they hurt! Literal and figurative bumps. You're right about making progress. I know I still got a long way to go that it seems like I'll never get there, but at least I'm not still completely incapacitated like I was 2+ years ago. In fact it was 2 years ago this month that I found out I was allergic to the anti-depressants and phychotic because of them. Ugh, what a nightmare. Pun intended.

Sounds like that little surgery you had might have done you some good. I'm like Skidoo, I thought the Fentanyl was causing some of the stopping breathing problems.

Work hard on your PT, and if you need to just cuss out those Afghanis who did this to you.

Trust me, I do that already. Cuss those Afghani bastards, that is. Skidoo writes funny stories of taking revenge on the ****stain that shot me. Too bad they aren't GT-safe for the most part, because those Afghanis usually end up wishing they'd never even seen me, let alone shot me!

Well, I'm back in the real world now. Unfortunately, our old problems are still here. My wife's dad is still in the hospital and is still confused. He has also started eating less in the last two days.
Glad you made it back safe. Sounds like we need to ramp up the prayers for your FIL.

I'm going to post some pictures of our trip here in a bit.

Great pics, thanks for showing them to us! Now how about posting the full-size version of your avatar? :hearts:

My doc agrees that the repair seems to be holding good this time. Too bad it didn't the first time, but they had to do a lot more extensive repair the first time, and I haven't exactly been able to just rest and let it heal. That's one thing my doc doesn't like at all, but he seems to understand why I'm here. At least he hasn't threatened to yank my medical clearance.

It is so good to hear that you made it back in one piece...and that you like your new doctors. I'm in agreement with SR that it would be great if you didn't have to work so much and irritate your injuries. It sounds like being able to go more at your own pace while stateside helped you physically. It is super encouraging that you could just fall asleep without your cocktail! That could never have happened a year ago. Despite the constant pain, it sounds like you are in such a better place emotionally and physically, Wolfe. As ever, we all love you. We won't stop praying for your full recovery and for God's wisdom for your new docs in their decision-making concerning every facet of your treatment. Gentle hugs...where are the emoticons?

You, me, Silent_Runner, my docs and everyone else agree that I’d heal much faster if I could just lay around and not have to work. I know I’d be way ahead of where I am now if that was an option, but I also need the medical care I’m getting here, so here I stay. For a couple more months, anyway. Doing almost nothing during my leave had to have helped, although getting sick and coughing so much sure didn’t. I was really worried that I was going to tear something loose, especially where I’d just had more repair work done. I got lucky and it held, that made all the difference.

I noticed that when I first started actually feeling the thing I couldn’t for a couple years it was just too much and I had to either shut it off completely or it would overrun me. I’ve gotten better at shutting it mostly off and letting a little out, it that makes sense. My new shrink told me that my thoughts and feelings about everything are actually pretty much normal now. He said he can tell the guilt doesn’t ‘own’ me anymore, although it’s still there. I’m working on doing what Skidoo’s sister called “finding a place in your heart that it can fit”. It’s not easy, and still hurts like hell. I guess falling asleep without my cocktail isn’t going to happen every night just yet, I couldn’t tonight. At least I feel like the cocktail is finally about to knock me out. The hugs are in the same place as every, but I’m at the smiley limit for this post, so you’ll have to know I’m hugging you anyway.

BobInTX

08-08-2011, 20:09

" Sounds like we need to ramp up the prayers for your FIL."

Yes, indeedy. He's being a real pain, even though he doesn't realize it. He is obsessing over little things, like comparing his food to the list of food they put on his tray. They have been taking the list off his tray but forgot tonight. He must have read the thing twenty times while I was there tonight. You have to actually walk out of the room while he is calling after you because he won't let you leave otherwise. It's really tough to do. My wife can't do it. And after all that he didn't eat squat today. This morning they were trying to draw blood and he actually slapped their hands so they couldn't do it. Please pray for his mind to get better.

ETA: Oh, and when I turn 80 would somebody please just shoot me? I have 26 years left.

23skidoo

08-08-2011, 20:54

Hi Sweetheart! No ma'am, you are not to listen to Giving Up and wish you would quit breathing permanently. You have come much too far to listen to the demons now! You are well on your way to giving those demons an eviction order and getting on with your life here in the U.S. The Miss Lone tour of America awaits. Friends and beer Babe.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou::grouphug:

BobInTX

08-09-2011, 08:49

Great pics, thanks for showing them to us! Now how about posting the full-size version of your avatar? :hearts:

Well, since you asked...

It's been a fast 6 months.

Lady Glock

08-09-2011, 11:26

Help, help, help...I have a message in Tech talk that nobody seems to be willing to help with. anyone with tech savvy...please help!! The keys are working fine here, I don't know what to do?!!!!

Silent_Runner

08-09-2011, 14:02

My doc told my terrorost to turn up the heat, he told me today. He said that this time around although I hurt like hell, I didn't undo much of my healing when I travelled. He compared this time to my records from my previous trips and how each time I'd lose a lot of my gains each time I traveled. He said he went all through my records and looked at the things my old doc said right before he left and he thinks I've gotten to the point that I can handle more therapy and stuff in general, that even though it hurts like hell it doesn't do any more harm like it did for a long time. We talked about things like the trouble I had driving when I was Stateside and other things I couldn't do or hurt really bad to try and he said a lot of things would probably always be painful for me, but I should be able to do more things than I can now.

He also said he thinks the pain meds I take aren't doing as well at releiving my pain as they should. He tested that theory a little by pinching and poking me some (with my permission) and watching my reaction and asking how it felt. He seemed to have a good point, because even though I'm on Oxy 24/7 it doesn't block out lesser pain completely. I think he's going to try switching out my pain meds, hopefully back to Fentanyl or something that does me more good. It may also be a case of me having to get used to being in this much pain all the time, but I hope not.

This sounds like some excellent news. I was very concerned about how much harm the coughing was doing but it sounds like it was less than we thought at the time. I know it was painful for you. You said you gave your doctor permission to pinch you so I wonder if he is good looking.:whistling:

Major traumatic injuries do take time to heal, longer for some.
Now that you're 26 the body needs a bit more time to heal than a 21 year old.

:hugs:
:rofl::rofl:

Nice pics, Bob
Thanks for sharing
Gives us all the opportunity to dream away for just a moment.
This is what I was thinking.

You mean I can't still wish sometimes that I WOULD just stop breathing permanently? .
No you may NOT think that! You put those thoughts out of your mind for good.

" Please pray for his mind to get better.

ETA: Oh, and when I turn 80 would somebody please just shoot me? I have 26 years left.
I will pray for your father but I refuse to shoot you. Deal?

Well, since you asked...

It's been a fast 6 months.
What a darling.:hearts:

BobInTX

08-09-2011, 14:24

I will pray for your father but I refuse to shoot you. Deal?

Father IN-LAW. My father died when I was 13.

Alright, don't shoot me. But if I still know you then will you be my nurse? :supergrin:
What a darling.:hearts:
Thank you.

Lone_Wolfe

08-09-2011, 18:43

............ Please pray for his mind to get better.

ETA: Oh, and when I turn 80 would somebody please just shoot me? I have 26 years left.

Prayers going up for his mind and body.

Shoot you??? Then who's going to shoot me and put me out of my misery?

Hi Sweetheart! No ma'am, you are not to listen to Giving Up and wish you would quit breathing permanently. You have come much too far to listen to the demons now! You are well on your way to giving those demons an eviction order and getting on with your life here in the U.S. The Miss Lone tour of America awaits. Friends and beer Babe.: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou::grouphug:

Beer is good. Friends are good. Beer is real good............ :drink:

I still wanted to listed to that demon tonight, I had a nasty breathing attack that started while I was getting ready to leave the DFAC. I started having spasms on one side of my chest and before I knew it I could hardly breathe. I went in and got gassed and doped up, but I'm feeling it still. My new doc was still there and he got to see a breathing attack first-hand. He didn't look very pleased.

Well, since you asked...

It's been a fast 6 months.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww!! :hearts:

She looks like she's saying "Come on world, here I am! :supergrin:

Help, help, help...I have a message in Tech talk that nobody seems to be willing to help with. anyone with tech savvy...please help!! The keys are working fine here, I don't know what to do?!!!!

I see you got it fixed OK, glad of that. :hugs: for you, my friend.

This sounds like some excellent news. I was very concerned about how much harm the coughing was doing but it sounds like it was less than we thought at the time. I know it was painful for you. You said you gave your doctor permission to pinch you so I wonder if he is good looking.: whistling:
He's OK looking, but not droolworthy. He would be better looking if he smiled more, which he doesn't do around me. I'm also relieved that I didn't tear the whole inside of my chest loose while I had that URI. It sure felt like I did, and I still feel pain from it sometimes. I think the residual problems from that might be what set off tonight's breathing attack.

No you may NOT think that! You put those thoughts out of your mind for good.

:couch:

Easier said than done......

Silent_Runner

08-10-2011, 09:41

Thank you.Father IN-LAW. My father died when I was 13.

Alright, don't shoot me. But if I still know you then will you be my nurse?
My apologies. I was trying to hurry back to work and missed the obvious. I'm so sorry about your father's early passing.

Shoot you??? Then who's going to shoot me and put me out of my misery?

I still wanted to listed to that demon tonight, I had a nasty breathing attack that started while I was getting ready to leave the DFAC. I started having spasms on one side of my chest and before I knew it I could hardly breathe. I went in and got gassed and doped up, but I'm feeling it still. My new doc was still there and he got to see a breathing attack first-hand. He didn't look very pleased.

:couch:
.
No one is going to shoot you if we can help it. You will just have to get better.

I had hope your breathing attacks were in the past. It does sound like they are happening a lot less than they were which is very good. I would not have been pleased either to see that. I just hope your new doctor can help you get past these attacks. Has he said anything more about changes to your treatment?

You will need something a lot stronger than that couch to hide behind if you keep thinking about giving up.:whip:

BobInTX

08-10-2011, 10:05

:wavey:

Wassup?

Lone_Wolfe

08-10-2011, 19:39

No one is going to shoot you if we can help it.
I was afraid of that.

You will just have to get better.
I'm trying.

I had hope your breathing attacks were in the past. It does sound like they are happening a lot less than they were which is very good. I would not have been pleased either to see that. I just hope your new doctor can help you get past these attacks. Has he said anything more about changes to your treatment?

You will need something a lot stronger than that couch to hide behind if you keep thinking about giving up.:whip:

You're right that they aren't as bad as they were. I still have them fairly often, but hadn't had a bad one like that in a bit. In fact the last really bad one was the one where I scared us both on your living room floor. I've had a few that were kind of bad after that, but was able to walk myself to the hospital or wait them out with meds on hand. Last night's was another story, it got bad.

If GT had a :bunker: smiley I'd hide in that after I say what I'm thinking at times.

:wavey:

Wassup?

:wavey:

Saw my shrink again today, we talked about several things. One thing he mentioned was you folks helping me. At first I thought he was going to disapprove, but he kind of chuckled and said this was far from the first time he'd seen something like it. He did say that it happening on a gun forum of all places made him do a double-take because of what happened to start it all, but that he's seen support groups form to help someone before and he thinks most of them do help the person they're intended to along with others in the group. He said he read my previous shrink's notes about it and even looked here himself and thinks you fall into that group.

He also commented that he's seen some of the groups do more harm than good, and he'd say it if he thought you folks did. He said many of you people here are really special, and he meant that in a good way. Not the way that I'm 'special'. :crazy:

He also was talking some more about how I made very little mental progress for almost 2 years, but have made a lot since then, even since I started being able to feel what was really in my head. He also credited a lot of that to what you folks have been writing all along, because I read it and it planted the ideas that are finally starting to sink in it not being my fault that Greg died although I still feel a lot of guilt about it. My shrink asked how often I go back and read this entire thread. My answer was "Never on this connection, I'd be there for a week trying to get the pages to load". :upeyes:

23skidoo

08-10-2011, 20:21

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<Wants to put hajjinet's head on a stick too. Your psychiatrist is quickly earning his own beer truck.:drink: May your Thursday be a great one!:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

BobInTX

08-10-2011, 21:20

Gee, maybe if someone was saving the thread he could put it on a cd or zip drive and send it to you. **cough**engineer**cough**cough :whistling:

engineer151515

08-10-2011, 22:13

Gee, maybe if someone was saving the thread he could put it on a cd or zip drive and send it to you. **cough**engineer**cough**cough :whistling:

Yup. Can do.

smokeross

08-10-2011, 22:55

When will you be back in the States? Next question. When are you coming to Alaska?

Lone_Wolfe

08-11-2011, 15:24

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<Wants to put hajjinet's head on a stick too. Your psychiatrist is quickly earning his own beer truck.:drink: May your Thursday be a great one!:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

So when can I expect the beer truck to arrive at my CHU :whistling: :supergrin:

But don't worry, I'll share with my new doc and shrink. But they may be wondering why I miss a few appointments.

Gee, maybe if someone was saving the thread he could put it on a cd or zip drive and send it to you. **cough**engineer**cough**cough :whistling:

Didn't even think of that, great idea! So are you glad my shrink didn't want to fire all of you, or were you hoping he would?

Yup. Can do.

:hearts:

When will you be back in the States? Next question. When are you coming to Alaska?

Should be in a couple months getting Stateside. With the drawdown in Iraq they won't be able to keep me here much longer. As to when I'm coming up there, it depends on when my friend/drinking buddy/ride can get free too. But it will have to be during the warmer months because I can't breathe cold air.

BobInTX

08-11-2011, 16:18

Didn't even think of that, great idea! So are you glad my shrink didn't want to fire all of you, or were you hoping he would?

He can't fire us. We're independent contractors! :rofl:

Nagging: Are you visualizing dreams?

gyfgyf

08-12-2011, 10:25

Hi LW,

See you soon at Stateside. Keep breathing!

Thanks,
Gyfgyf

Lone_Wolfe

08-12-2011, 18:19

He can't fire us. We're independent contractors! :rofl:

Nagging: Are you visualizing dreams?

He can still try to fire you! :rofl: He says he doesn't mind the help one bit because he can see you've helped. He just doesn't know how much.

Yes, I've been trying that, but so far it hasn't changed much. Those bastards still manage to shoot me most times that I go to sleep. :steamed:

Hi LW,

See you soon at Stateside. Keep breathing!

Thanks,
Gyfgyf

That's easier said that done at times. Tonight again. :yuck:

I definitely want to get to Vegas to meet you sometime. :wavey:

faawrenchbndr

08-12-2011, 18:22

If you're headed to Las Vegas,......Kansas is on the way!:whistling:

engineer151515

08-12-2011, 19:45

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This is the marker of where a complete set of the Lone_Wolfe thread is saved and forwarded to Ms. LW.

Everybody here hopes that a written record will bring her reflection, relief, and reminders of how cherished and loved she is.

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BobInTX

08-12-2011, 22:17

Good job!

Silent_Runner

08-13-2011, 11:37

You're right that they aren't as bad as they were. I still have them fairly often, but hadn't had a bad one like that in a bit. In fact the last really bad one was the one where I scared us both on your living room floor. I've had a few that were kind of bad after that, but was able to walk myself to the hospital or wait them out with meds on hand. Last night's was another story, it got bad.

He also commented that he's seen some of the groups do more harm than good, and he'd say it if he thought you folks did. He said many of you people here are really special, and he meant that in a good way. Not the way that I'm 'special'. :crazy:

He also was talking some more about how I made very little mental progress for almost 2 years, but have made a lot since then, even since I started being able to feel what was really in my head. He also credited a lot of that to what you folks have been writing all along, because I read it and it planted the ideas that are finally starting to sink in it not being my fault that Greg died although I still feel a lot of guilt about it. My shrink asked how often I go back and read this entire thread. My answer was "Never on this connection, I'd be there for a week trying to get the pages to load". :upeyes:
You did scare me with at one attack that was especially bad.

I like that your new shrink approves of outside support groups because we are here to stay no matter what he said. I hope being able to reread this entire thread does you even more good. I think you have made so much progress in the last few months that should have been made two years ago.
And you are not crazy!:psycho:

Hi LW,

See you soon at Stateside. Keep breathing!

Thanks,
Gyfgyf
Wolfe that is an order. Keep breathing!

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Thank you for keeping this engineer151515. I never realized how many people have been in here to help Wolfe in this struggle. I would like to thank everyone of them who has had a word of wisdom or encouragement for her.

Lone_Wolfe

08-13-2011, 18:38

If you're headed to Las Vegas,......Kansas is on the way!:whistling:

Hmmmmmmmm, you right, it is..... :whistling:

Got beer? :drink: :hugs:

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This is only a beginning. Like the odometer on your car, the miles behind you are just as important as the mile you are driving, which is just as important as the miles ahead of you.

I was just rereading what you wrote and realized this thread so far would have filled my first computer's hard drive more than 20 times over. :wow: How technology has changed.

Thank you again for doing this, you are really appreciated. :hearts:

You did scare me with at one attack that was especially bad.

I like that your new shrink approves of outside support groups because we are here to stay no matter what he said. I hope being able to reread this entire thread does you even more good. I think you have made so much progress in the last few months that should have been made two years ago.
And you are not crazy! psycho:

Wolfe that is an order. Keep breathing!
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Scared me, too. Not to mention how bad it hurt. Yeah, I know I'm way behind on the mental healing too, but not much I can do now. If I could go back in time and flush the anti-depressants I would. But if I could go back in time I'd say "No, thank you" when offered a convoy to me next base. Then I wouldn't have needed anything that came after that.

Keep breathing she says.... but she doesn't have my damn chest, and my physical terrorist making it worse! He seemed to delight in making me cry today, because he did a good job of it. Wait, my shrink did that too. Bastatds!

23skidoo

08-13-2011, 19:15

:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou: You won't have to worry about unloading a beer truck; that's for your terrorist while he's dressed in his chem gear in horrendous heat!

Silent_Runner

08-14-2011, 10:30

:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou: You won't have to worry about unloading a beer truck; that's for your terrorist while he's dressed in his chem gear in horrendous heat!
How do you plan to keep Wolfe from intercepting the truck and drinking all the beer?:wavey:

Wolfe how are you feeling today? Is your chest still in as much pain as yesterday?

Lone_Wolfe

08-14-2011, 19:14

:hugs::hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou: You won't have to worry about unloading a beer truck; that's for your terrorist while he's dressed in his chem gear in horrendous heat!

You sure you want to send my doc a beer truck? He cut back my Oxy and I been laying here hurting like you don't want to know. :crying: At least he didn't take my extras, I'm eating them like candy. :phew: He said he thinks the Oxy isn't doing as much for me as it should, and he's going to switch me to a different base pain meds, but he didn't say what. I'm hoping to go back to Fentanyl, it works much better then the Oxy ever did. He's been watching what effect the different add-ons I take have on me and he said that's what made him think the Oxy has lost effect on me. He said that happens sometimes, that the patient builds tolerances to some meds much faster than others.

He also had someone here go all through my records looking for any patterns to my breathing attacks, either based on when I have them and how bad. It seems I'm more likely to have them after a couple days of taking one of the sleep cocktails that has the muscle relaxer the caused me to have to be taken off Fentanyl. That's not the only time I have them, but I have more of them after I've been taking them for a couple days until about 2 days after I switch off them than any other time. I hadn't ever really put that together because of them happening even after I switch. Doc's going to pull that cocktail out of the rotation in hopes I have less attacks.

How do you plan to keep Wolfe from intercepting the truck and drinking all the beer?:wavey:

Wolfe how are you feeling today? Is your chest still in as much pain as yesterday?

It hurts even worse, all I been able to do is lay here and whimper. And he's not going to do anything to stop me from getting the beer if he know's what's good for him. :tbo: Right now I need all the pain relief I can get.

BobInTX

08-14-2011, 21:51

23skidoo

08-15-2011, 03:18

How do you plan to keep Wolfe from intercepting the truck and drinking all the beer?:wavey:

Wolfe how are you feeling today? Is your chest still in as much pain as yesterday?

There's still beer in the fridge from her last visit, relax she doesn't drink much. I eagerly await her next visit; I want her to try Anchor Steam, I'll even help her put a few of those away.:drink:

I hope your doc finds a cocktail soon to ease your pain and allow you to sleep without a respirator on standby. Have a great day Babe.:hugs::hearts::smotchie::iloveyou:

Bob,:grouphug: all the best my friend.

Lone_Wolfe

08-15-2011, 18:22

Well, this time I'm not sure if I need to hold your hand or you need to hold mine. We are having bad days with the father in-law and dementia. I guess since Mrs Bob is here to hold mine I'll be there in spirit to hold yours. Stay strong and say your prayers. I'm saying them for you still.

One thing to keep in mind is that when you're holding my hand I'm holding your's right back. I'm still praying for your family. My best friend just went through this with her uncle who was like a father to her.

It's hard to stay string right now, but I'm trying. Luckily I got my work stuff caught up before my doc decided to switch out my meds. I've been pretty much incapacitated again today from this. I took some Dilaudid and it brought the pain down some, but made me queasy as all hell like it often does. When I was Stateside I almost missed Skidoo's picnic because of that effect. :steamed:

I was talking to my shrink today and we got onto the subject of my stolen cats that I haven't seen in over 2 years now and I started to cry because the last time I saw them the older one had just had cancer to remove a cancerous tumor, and I don't know how she's doing today. Or if she's even still alive. :crying: We also got to talking about how for most of the last couple years that hurt, but like everything else, I couldn't feel it real clearly. Now I can, but sometimes wish I couldn't. He also said that the diagnosis that the psychosis was "almost gone" seemed a bit optimistic to him, but he can tell I've made a lot of headway in getting past it.

There's still beer in the fridge from her last visit, relax she doesn't drink much. I eagerly await her next visit; I want her to try Anchor Steam, I'll even help her put a few of those away.:drink:

If it wasn't for all these meds I'm on you'd have had to get even more beer and still ben out. I'm looking forwars to trying the Anchot Steam. :cheers:

I hope your doc finds a cocktail soon to ease your pain and allow you to sleep without a respirator on standby. Have a great day Babe.:hugs::hearts::smotchie:: iloveyou:

Bob,: grouphug: all the best my friend.

I hope so too. I'm still hoping doc puts me back on Fentanyl, but he didn't say what he has in mind. I know he better have something in mind, because I'm about to squeeze poor Bob's fingers off.

Silent_Runner

08-16-2011, 12:53

He also had someone here go all through my records looking for any patterns to my breathing attacks, either based on when I have them and how bad. It seems I'm more likely to have them after a couple days of taking one of the sleep cocktails that has the muscle relaxer the caused me to have to be taken off Fentanyl. That's not the only time I have them, but I have more of them after I've been taking them for a couple days until about 2 days after I switch off them than any other time. I hadn't ever really put that together because of them happening even after I switch. Doc's going to pull that cocktail out of the rotation in hopes I have less attacks.

It hurts even worse, all I been able to do is lay here and whimper. And he's not going to do anything to stop me from getting the beer if he know's what's good for him. :tbo: Right now I need all the pain relief I can get.
It sounds like your new doctor a pretty good idea of what you need to keep healing. Good for him for finding that connection to your breathing attacks. I hope he is right and they subside now. I know you are in a lot of pain right now but I hope net as bad as the last time you had to change your base pain meds.

Well, this time I'm not sure if I need to hold your hand or you need to hold mine. We are having bad days with the father in-law and dementia. I guess since Mrs Bob is here to hold mine I'll be there in spirit to hold yours. Stay strong and say your prayers. I'm saying them for you still.
Your father in law is in my prayers.

Notice I added the in law this time.:wavey:

There's still beer in the fridge from her last visit, relax she doesn't drink much. I eagerly await her next visit; I want her to try Anchor Steam, I'll even help her put a few of those away.:drink:

Are we talking about the same Lone_Wolfe?:wow:

It's hard to stay string right now, but I'm trying. Luckily I got my work stuff caught up before my doc decided to switch out my meds. I've been pretty much incapacitated again today from this. I took some Dilaudid and it brought the pain down some, but made me queasy as all hell like it often does. When I was Stateside I almost missed Skidoo's picnic because of that effect. :steamed:

I was talking to my shrink today and we got onto the subject of my stolen cats that I haven't seen in over 2 years now and I started to cry because the last time I saw them the older one had just had cancer to remove a cancerous tumor, and I don't know how she's doing today. Or if she's even still alive. :crying: We also got to talking about how for most of the last couple years that hurt, but like everything else, I couldn't feel it real clearly. Now I can, but sometimes wish I couldn't. He also said that the diagnosis that the psychosis was "almost gone" seemed a bit optimistic to him, but he can tell I've made a lot of headway in getting past it.

You made it to the picnic in spite of the pain so be glad of that much. Take it as easy as you can for right now and it should be over in a couple more days. I am holding your other hand. Please try not to break my fingers.

When you get back for good we will round up a group of GTers to find and retrieve your cats. I bet they will be so happy to see you. So will a lot of us.

BobInTX

08-16-2011, 13:10

My FIL has done better the last couple of days, so the prayers are working. He will probably be moved to a nursing home sometime this week. Here we go again.

I need to switch hands.

Ah, that's better. Here's a hug, too :hugs:

Tell me about your cats disappearing. I don't think I heard that story.

SR, how are you doing these days? Has your storm passed?

Lone_Wolfe

08-16-2011, 19:08

It sounds like your new doctor a pretty good idea of what you need to keep healing. Good for him for finding that connection to your breathing attacks. I hope he is right and they subside now. I know you are in a lot of pain right now but I hope net as bad as the last time you had to change your base pain meds.
No, it's not as bad as the previous time, but it still hurts like hell. This time my physical terrorist still made me do my stretches and exercises, but he did go real easy on the resistance today.

Are we talking about the same Lone_Wolfe?:wow:
The paim meds make me a cheap drunk these days.

You made it to the picnic in spite of the pain so be glad of that much. Take it as easy as you can for right now and it should be over in a couple more days. I am holding your other hand. Please try not to break my fingers.

When you get back for good we will round up a group of GTers to find and retrieve your cats. I bet they will be so happy to see you. So will a lot of us.

OK, I'm trying not to break your fingers. I been laying here trying to sleep for several hours now and have drifted off a few times only to have sharp pains wake me back up. :steamed: I asked my doc today how soon I'd get a new 24/7 pain med and he said a few more days. I reminded him that I have low pain tolerance and said he didn't blame me, and that he didn't like having to do it this way, and that he wants to talk to morrow about some of my options. I hope my options are where he wants to put the Fentanyl patch.

I'll be glad as hell to see them too. Same with meeting GT'ers.

My FIL has done better the last couple of days, so the prayers are working. He will probably be moved to a nursing home sometime this week. Here we go again.
Glad to hear some good news here. Hope he keeps getting better.

I need to switch hands.
Sorry, didn't mean to squeeze.

Ah, that's better. Here's a hug, too :hugs:
:hugs: back

Tell me about your cats disappearing. I don't think I heard that story.

SR, how are you doing these days? Has your storm passed?

I posted it when it happened, but I think it was in the Caturday thread. My EX-BF was taking care of my kitties when I deployed. When I went home in summer of 09 he brought them to me. That's when I found out the older one had a lump that turned out to be cancer. I had the treatment she needed done, then the EX took them back when I left to come back here. Shortly after that he disappeared. No contact and no kitties. :crying:

BobInTX

08-16-2011, 21:13

Wow. Nice guy. I was wondering how you were ever going to find them. Look for the human. Need some help? :psycho:

Siameses?

Glock26girl

08-17-2011, 15:19

Lone_Wolfe

08-17-2011, 18:13

Wow. Nice guy. I was wondering how you were ever going to find them. Look for the human. Need some help? :psycho:

I'll be glad for the help once I'm ready to hunt him down. I may need a posse of GT'ers there to help me retrieve them.

Siameses?

Nope, generics. They're both rescues.

My older son is a P.I. and cop. He can find nearly anyone, Wolfe...:). If you want some help, just send me his name and last known address.

Our precious cat has mammary tumors now and I am so sad. She is 13 and I don't want to put her through surgery, chemo, etc. We are just enjoying our time with her. She is still her funny self. Praying that she stays that way a long time.

I'll be glad to take you up on that as soon as I'm there to be able to take them when they're found. Right now I'm sure they're being taken care of, since he did love them both.

I'm sorry to hear about your kitty. :crying: Mine was 12 when she had her surgery. I hope your's stay healthy for a long time too. :cat:

My doc cut back my Oxy still more today and damn, it freaking hurts! It's as if I'd forgotten what pain really felt like, but an remembering it now. I'm taking my add-ons continuously now, but they just can't do it alone. I've been laying still as much as possible, and keeping myself from thrashing around. Poor Bob and S_R's hands are getting crunched, though. :crying: :crying:

I was thinking a little about how the pain I feel right now compares to the psychological pain I feel and how it changed a few months back. For a couple years the mental pain felt heavy, undefined, a little dull although bad. Then when the psychosis started to improve the pain was sharper, more intense and defined. That's a pretty good description of what the physical pain feel like right now without all the Oxy in me dulling it.

23skidoo

08-17-2011, 20:21

I'm standing at your bedside Babe, offering my hand. Squeeze to your hearts content.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou::grouphug:

23skidoo

08-17-2011, 20:21

Bob, how's your F I L today?:grouphug:

BobInTX

08-17-2011, 22:24

Bob, how's your F I L today?:grouphug:

He's had some pretty good days lately, compared to Sunday. Now we just have to get him in the nursing home and figure out how they're going to pay for it. Property rich, cash poor.

Hang in there, Wolfe.

Silent_Runner

08-18-2011, 10:52

My older son is a P.I. and cop. He can find nearly anyone, Wolfe...:). If you want some help, just send me his name and last known address.

Our precious cat has mammary tumors now and I am so sad. She is 13 and I don't want to put her through surgery, chemo, etc. We are just enjoying our time with her. She is still her funny self. Praying that she stays that way a long time.
Glock25Girl I will pray that your cat stays healthy for a long time to come. Your offer to help Wolfe is very kind and I know she will take you up on it if she has to. I miss her cats too. :crying:

My doc cut back my Oxy still more today and damn, it freaking hurts! It's as if I'd forgotten what pain really felt like, but an remembering it now. I'm taking my add-ons continuously now, but they just can't do it alone. I've been laying still as much as possible, and keeping myself from thrashing around. Poor Bob and S_R's hands are getting crunched, though. :crying: :crying:

I was thinking a little about how the pain I feel right now compares to the psychological pain I feel and how it changed a few months back. For a couple years the mental pain felt heavy, undefined, a little dull although bad. Then when the psychosis started to improve the pain was sharper, more intense and defined. That's a pretty good description of what the physical pain feel like right now without all the Oxy in me dulling it.
It sounds like you are almost off the Oxycontin by now to feel the pain as you described it. I hope that means you will be on something else soon. Although the pain is sharper and more intense now does it feel like you could learn to tolerate it? You mentioned trying to get off the Schedule II narcotics and I wonder if you are anywhere close to ready for that.

I'm standing at your bedside Babe, offering my hand. Squeeze to your hearts content.:hugs:::
Be careful what you wish for 23skidoo. She squeezes hard.

He's had some pretty good days lately, compared to Sunday. Now we just have to get him in the nursing home and figure out how they're going to pay for it. Property rich, cash poor.

Hang in there, Wolfe.
Do what he says Wolfe and hang in there.

BobInTX I will keep praying for your family's situation.

23skidoo

08-18-2011, 18:55

Be careful what you wish for 23skidoo. She squeezes hard.

My Sweetheart is in pain. If squeezing my hand helps alleviate that pain; squeeze my hand until you hear the bones crack Babe.

Lone_Wolfe

08-18-2011, 19:56

I'm standing at your bedside Babe, offering my hand. Squeeze to your hearts content.:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:: grouphug:

Squeezing, but not because I want to. :crying:

He's had some pretty good days lately, compared to Sunday. Now we just have to get him in the nursing home and figure out how they're going to pay for it. Property rich, cash poor.

Hang in there, Wolfe.

Glad to hear some good news on the home front. Just wish this was a better time to be holding property, though.

Hanging in, per your order.

It sounds like you are almost off the Oxycontin by now to feel the pain as you described it. I hope that means you will be on something else soon. Although the pain is sharper and more intense now does it feel like you could learn to tolerate it? You mentioned trying to get off the Schedule II narcotics and I wonder if you are anywhere close to ready for that.
.

Learn to tolerate this? Are you insane?!? And remember, Dilaudid is also Schedule II, and I'm on that right now. I did let it wear almost off for a bit today with my doc there just to see how bad it still is. I supposed some big tough guy might have been able to take it, but not me. I was shaking and cold sweating until my doc gave me a needleful of Dilaudid. It wasn't as bad as the time I tried this around 2 years ago, though. :phew:

My Sweetheart is in pain. If squeezing my hand helps alleviate that pain; squeeze my hand until you hear the bones crack Babe.

You really don't want me to squeeze THAT hard, do you? Then I'll have a screwed up chest and you'll have a screwed up hand. Besides, it doesn't help the pain to squeeze that hard. But thanks for the offer.

BobInTX

08-18-2011, 21:55

:wavey:

Silent_Runner

08-19-2011, 12:42

My Sweetheart is in pain. If squeezing my hand helps alleviate that pain; squeeze my hand until you hear the bones crack Babe.
You are a very sweet man. I do hope your hand bones are spared by Wolfe's grip.

Learn to tolerate this? Are you insane?!? And remember, Dilaudid is also Schedule II, and I'm on that right now. I did let it wear almost off for a bit today with my doc there just to see how bad it still is. I supposed some big tough guy might have been able to take it, but not me. I was shaking and cold sweating until my doc gave me a needleful of Dilaudid. It wasn't as bad as the time I tried this around 2 years ago, though. :phew:
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That may have been a poor choice of words on my part.:sorry: I understand you are not ready yet for anything mind enough to not be Schedule II. I was actually wondering if you and your doctor think you may be able to transition sometime in the future. The fact that this time is not so bad as before sounds like good progress and reason to hope you will continue to improve.

:wavey:
Hello to you too. Is that all you have to say today?:supergrin:

23skidoo

08-19-2011, 18:04

Hi Sweetheart! I hope you had a stellar day!:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

BobInTX

08-19-2011, 18:34

You are a very sweet man. I do hope your hand bones are spared by Wolfe's grip.

That may have been a poor choice of words on my part.:sorry: I understand you are not ready yet for anything mind enough to not be Schedule II. I was actually wondering if you and your doctor think you may be able to transition sometime in the future. The fact that this time is not so bad as before sounds like good progress and reason to hope you will continue to improve.

Hello to you too. Is that all you have to say today?:supergrin:

Yeah. We're working on getting my FIL in a nursing home. Not fun.

I've still been holding somebody's hand and putting something in her inbox she can post here if she wants to.

Lone_Wolfe

08-19-2011, 19:25

:wavey:

Hiya. :wavey:

Yeah. We're working on getting my FIL in a nursing home. Not fun.

I've still been holding somebody's hand and putting something in her inbox she can post here if she wants to.

I'm still praying for your FIL, hope he's doing as well as can be. Do you need your hand back?

I got the pic, :hearts: but can't get to my photobucket account right now. If you have a chance before I can maybe you could post. Otherwise I'll try later. Thanks for my Emily fix, she's such a little cutie.

You are a very sweet man. I do hope your hand bones are spared by Wolfe's grip.
I'm not breaking the poor guy's hand.

That may have been a poor choice of words on my part.:sorry: I understand you are not ready yet for anything mind enough to not be Schedule II. I was actually wondering if you and your doctor think you may be able to transition sometime in the future. The fact that this time is not so bad as before sounds like good progress and reason to hope you will continue to improve.

OK, that makes more sense. One thing that made this hurt this bad was the timing. I just got done traveling and had a nasty URI that had me coughing for a solid week and I’m still feeling it some from that. My doc said he’d really have liked to have waited to switch me, but we both know he doesn’t have much time. He doesn’t want me to be shipped out before he can get me settled on pain meds that work better. That and he wants to give me one last round of steroid injections, but needs me to be on steady pain meds again before he can do that.

I’m completely off Oxy now, I didn’t take one today at all. I’ve stayed maxed out on Dilaudid most of the day and of course I got my sleep cocktail on me now too. I laid down earlier thinking I could doze off and made the mistake of trying to lay face down. I used to sleep that way and I really miss being able to. I positioned my arms so my chest didn’t have pressure on it, but that wasn’t enough. The pains got real bad and then I couldn’t roll back. I finally managed to get up, but that was the end of trying to sleep for a while. :steamed:

Hi Sweetheart! I hope you had a stellar day!:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

Define stellar. If that's defined by feeling like someone shot me, stomped me and ran me over with an MRAP then I had a real stellar day!

I saw my shrink today and the topic of the day was the pain in my chest being this bad from the lack of Oxy. We got into how it makes me feel and how it’s worn down my resistance to the point that Giving Up and his buds are saying all kinds of enticing things to me and I can’t help but listen. He asked how my thoughts compared to the last time I had to go through this and I told him that while the thoughts were there they didn’t seem as powerful. I mean the temptation to just give up is there and I can tell it to **** off in spite of hurting too bad to want to. I just hope it’s over soon because it’s getting real old real fast. And you folks have got to be sick of reading about my damn chest hurting again.

23skidoo

08-19-2011, 19:34

No Babe, we are not tired of hearing how bad your chest hurts. We are here for YOU.:grouphug:

okie

08-20-2011, 04:42

Love ya LW sweetheart, keep your chin up baby doll:smootchie::hugs:

Lone_Wolfe

08-20-2011, 16:32

Love ya LW sweetheart, keep your chin up baby doll:smootchie:: hugs:

Thank okie, love you too. :hearts: :smootchie:

No Babe, we are not tired of hearing how bad your chest hurts. We are here for YOU.:grouphug:

Thank you. :hugs:

My doc made the option of going into the hospital and getting knocked out available tonight, and I'm going to take him up on it. He says he thinks the Oxy is completely out of my system by now, so I think he'll start me on something new tomorrow. I sure as hell hope so.

Saw my physical terrorsit today, he still made me do all my stuff although not quite so hard as usual. He think I'm doing really well for not being on my usual pain meds. I told him I'd be OK if I didn't have to breathe.

Nite all, and thank you for being here for me. :wavey:

C'mon, Mandy..........

Silent_Runner

08-21-2011, 11:49

Yeah. We're working on getting my FIL in a nursing home. Not fun.

I've still been holding somebody's hand and putting something in her inbox she can post here if she wants to.
How is your father in law doing this weekend? Did you send Wolfe another picture of your darling granddaughter?

No Babe, we are not tired of hearing how bad your chest hurts. We are here for YOU.:grouphug:
This is the truth Wolfe. There is no reason for you to hide it if you are in pain.

Define stellar. If that's defined by feeling like someone shot me, stomped me and ran me over with an MRAP then I had a real stellar day!

I saw my shrink today and the topic of the day was the pain in my chest being this bad from the lack of Oxy. We got into how it makes me feel and how it’s worn down my resistance to the point that Giving Up and his buds are saying all kinds of enticing things to me and I can’t help but listen. He asked how my thoughts compared to the last time I had to go through this and I told him that while the thoughts were there they didn’t seem as powerful. I mean the temptation to just give up is there and I can tell it to **** off in spite of hurting too bad to want to. I just hope it’s over soon because it’s getting real old real fast. And you folks have got to be sick of reading about my damn chest hurting again.
Well Wolfe at least one of those things did happen.

It does sound like you have made great progress with the psychological issues in spite of your physical setbacks. You just keep on telling those particular demons to go away and eventually they will and we will all be glad.

My doc made the option of going into the hospital and getting knocked out available tonight, and I'm going to take him up on it. He says he thinks the Oxy is completely out of my system by now, so I think he'll start me on something new tomorrow. I sure as hell hope so.

Saw my physical terrorsit today, he still made me do all my stuff although not quite so hard as usual. He think I'm doing really well for not being on my usual pain meds. I told him I'd be OK if I didn't have to breathe.

Nite all, and thank you for being here for me. :wavey:

C'mon, Mandy..........
Your physical terrorist continuing to work you is a good sign. Your email earlier was hard to understand. Are you back on Fentanyl finally?

You are welcome for us being here and continuing to breathe is a requirement.

BobInTX

08-21-2011, 11:57

23skidoo

08-21-2011, 13:40

Hi Sweetheart! I hope you're getting knocked out again tonight so you can get some rest.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou::grouphug:

Lone_Wolfe

08-21-2011, 17:35

This is the truth Wolfe. There is no reason for you to hide it if you are in pain.
I know. I just get so sick of it myself that I can't imagine that you folks aren't sick of it too.

Well Wolfe at least one of those things did happen.
You had to remind me, didn't you? :yuck:

It does sound like you have made great progress with the psychological issues in spite of your physical setbacks. You just keep on telling those particular demons to go away and eventually they will and we will all be glad.
I was hoping you'd think my terrorist is a bastard and send a posse over here to beat his ass.

Your physical terrorist continuing to work you is a good sign. Your email earlier was hard to understand. Are you back on Fentanyl finally?

You are welcome for us being here and continuing to breathe is a requirement.

Yep, I woke up this morning and knew instantly I was on something. Blessed relief! Turns out he put me back on Fentanyl, but only half the strength as before. He thinks I may not need the maximum dose and he may be right. Either that or this is just so much better than the past week that I have more tolerance. Either way, I'll take it. I've been feeling crappy all day, but I think that's from just starting back on the meds and should pass soon.

Well, I'm not sure how he is this weekend. His evil son is here this weekend so we haven't been up there. He is moving to the nursing home Monday.

Yes I sent her a pic.

Wolfe, I hope your pain regimen is working better now.

Hope things go well getting him moved, Bob. Yep, the Fentanyl is doing what it's paid to do. I was lucky, someone slapped the patch on me a while before they let me wake up, so it was already working. :phew:

Hi Sweetheart! I hope you're getting knocked out again tonight so you can get some rest.:hugs::hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou::grouphug:

Nope, but hopefully I'll be able to sleep soon with my regular cocktail in me. Seems like it's starting to.

Silent_Runner

08-22-2011, 11:28

Well, I'm not sure how he is this weekend. His evil son is here this weekend so we haven't been up there. He is moving to the nursing home Monday.

Yes I sent her a pic.

Wolfe, I hope your pain regimen is working better now.
I also hope the move goes smoothly.

It soumds like Wolfe needs to post a picture before one of us comes after her.:impatient:

Yep, I woke up this morning and knew instantly I was on something. Blessed relief! Turns out he put me back on Fentanyl, but only half the strength as before. He thinks I may not need the maximum dose and he may be right. Either that or this is just so much better than the past week that I have more tolerance. Either way, I'll take it. I've been feeling crappy all day, but I think that's from just starting back on the meds and should pass soon.

Nope, but hopefully I'll be able to sleep soon with my regular cocktail in me. Seems like it's starting to.
Is the lower dosage giving you relief still today? This all sounds like excellent news lately. You can do more physical therapy and now can tolerate a lower dosage of pain meds. You have really made progress in your healing. Now w just need to get rid of the nightmares so you can sleep normally.

23skidoo

08-22-2011, 13:07

Miss S_R is right Sweetheart, things are looking up.:snoopy:

BobInTX

08-22-2011, 14:55

I also hope the move goes smoothly.

It sounds like Wolfe needs to post a picture before one of us comes after her.:impatient:

They just got him moved.

Oh, I'll save us all the trouble and post it myself.

Aloha!

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo-2.jpg

Lone_Wolfe

08-22-2011, 17:34

Miss S_R is right Sweetheart, things are looking up.:snoopy:

In her email to me earlier she asked me, "Where is that dancing mutt? He should have posted that by now". :rofl: :rofl:

They just got him moved.

Oh, I'll save us all the trouble and post it myself.

Aloha!

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo-2.jpg

Awwwwwwwww! :hearts:

Glad the FIL is moved, hope he's settling in OK.

Is the lower dosage giving you relief still today? This all sounds like excellent news lately. You can do more physical therapy and now can tolerate a lower dosage of pain meds. You have really made progress in your healing. Now w just need to get rid of the nightmares so you can sleep normally.

Yep, still working. But I didn't have to see my terrorist today, so we'll see how it holds tomorrow. I still have my add-ons if I need them for after he abuses me, so I should be GTG there. I hope, anyway. My doc was glad to see the results today too. He did say he wanted to try to cut back the pain meds still more, but now right away. I'm not in any hurry to do that. I'm still hurting quite a bit, but not as bad as when I wasn't taking a 24/7 pain med.

My shrink seemed happy to see I wasn't hurting so bad I couldn't move, in fact he cracked his knuckles, smiled, and said "Now we can get to work". Oh hell.... :faint:

BobInTX

08-22-2011, 21:36

I kind of like this guy.

:couch:

Lone_Wolfe

08-23-2011, 17:01

I kind of like this guy.

:couch:

I was afraid you would. :fist:

:scared: :couch:

Pain meds are still doing OK. I'm hurting kind of bad, but trying to stay off add-ons for at least a few days. I'd like to stay off them altogether, but I don't think I'll be able to when I'm doing more than staring at a computer screen and light, but very controlled, therapy. My terrorist did say we were going to get back into more task oriented stuff like driving, etc. :yuck:

BobInTX

08-23-2011, 18:24

Anything they can do to help you is good. Sounds like your PT wants to help you adapt.

Silent_Runner

08-24-2011, 15:05

They just got him moved.

Oh, I'll save us all the trouble and post it myself.

Aloha!

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/photo-2.jpg
That picture is just darling. She is growing so fast.:hearts:

I kind of like this guy.

:couch:
I do too. I hope he make Wolfe cry until she has no tears left.

Wolfe you know I mean that in a good way.

Pain meds are still doing OK. I'm hurting kind of bad, but trying to stay off add-ons for at least a few days. I'd like to stay off them altogether, but I don't think I'll be able to when I'm doing more than staring at a computer screen and light, but very controlled, therapy. My terrorist did say we were going to get back into more task oriented stuff like driving, etc. :yuck:
I hope the Fentanyl can give you relief by itself from now on but if you need additional meds you should not hesitate to take them. You could only make yourself worse if you are in too much pain.

I think your physical terrorist is wise to focus on getting you adapted to your physical limitations. You will still be able to do a lot of things although you may have to do them differently now. However you may have to accept that riding a motorcycle is an exception to that.

Lone_Wolfe

08-24-2011, 18:09

Anything they can do to help you is good. Sounds like your PT wants to help you adapt.
Yep, he said he knows now that I'll probably never be able to do a lot of things I could before that require any chest strength, so he wants to spend the little bit of time he has left with me working on me doing things differently to accomplish whatever I need to in daily life. For example I can't push anything hard to move, like a heavy door, so I have to put a shoulder against it and lean it a little. Of course I have to be careful doing that, because actually hitting with my shoulder would transmit the impact to you-know-where.

With the front being the injured area I can't push, but can pull in some ways, so I have to learn to use that when possible. A bit like if I'm sitting and someone wants to help me up they can't reach under my arm and lift, but I can take their hand or arm and pull toward myself. Another thing we talked a little about was how I would defend myself if that was ever needed, but since I can't fight or take a hit we didn't have any answers.

I do too. I hope he make Wolfe cry until she has no tears left.

Wolfe you know I mean that in a good way.
You just want to see me cry, right? :tongueout:

Actually I do get what you mean, although I was hoping my last shrink had gotten enough crying out of me. It seems like enough to last a lifetime

I hope the Fentanyl can give you relief by itself from now on but if you need additional meds you should not hesitate to take them. You could only make yourself worse if you are in too much pain.
Have no fear, if I get bad enough, I'll pop some pills.

I think your physical terrorist is wise to focus on getting you adapted to your physical limitations. You will still be able to do a lot of things although you may have to do them differently now. However you may have to accept that riding a motorcycle is an exception to that.

He knows he wouldn't be able to build my strength on the short time he has left with me, so he's being realistic. The more things I can learn different ways to do, the less disabling this injury will turn out to be. Yeah, I'll probably still end up collecting disability, but I'd like to be able to at least be independent.

He may have shifted away from doing as much strength exercises, but he's still doing stuff for my breathing. He says that's way behind where he thinks it should be and he's going to work on that until the day one of us gets on the bird to leave. I can somehow picture him at Flight Ops torturing me one last time. :yuck:

23skidoo

08-25-2011, 20:49

Sweetheart, if your terrorist makes you cry at flight ops may he be sucked into the engine!:scared:

Silent_Runner

08-26-2011, 10:35

Sweetheart, if your terrorist makes you cry at flight ops may he be sucked into the engine!:scared:
I would be worried that Wolfe would be sucked up too if he was with her.:wow:

Or are you trying to get rid of her?:whistling:

Yep, he said he knows now that I'll probably never be able to do a lot of things I could before that require any chest strength, so he wants to spend the little bit of time he has left with me working on me doing things differently to accomplish whatever I need to in daily life. For example I can't push anything hard to move, like a heavy door, so I have to put a shoulder against it and lean it a little. Of course I have to be careful doing that, because actually hitting with my shoulder would transmit the impact to you-know-where.

With the front being the injured area I can't push, but can pull in some ways, so I have to learn to use that when possible. A bit like if I'm sitting and someone wants to help me up they can't reach under my arm and lift, but I can take their hand or arm and pull toward myself. Another thing we talked a little about was how I would defend myself if that was ever needed, but since I can't fight or take a hit we didn't have any answers.

He knows he wouldn't be able to build my strength on the short time he has left with me, so he's being realistic. The more things I can learn different ways to do, the less disabling this injury will turn out to be. Yeah, I'll probably still end up collecting disability, but I'd like to be able to at least be independent.

He may have shifted away from doing as much strength exercises, but he's still doing stuff for my breathing. He says that's way behind where he thinks it should be and he's going to work on that until the day one of us gets on the bird to leave. I can somehow picture him at Flight Ops torturing me one last time. :yuck:
Wolfe we all expect you to collect disability and I doubt anyone would complain about paying their share to fund that. That is one use of my tax money that I make no complaints about.

I hope you will be able to continue physical therapy once you get home. Has anyone talked to you about that? Even if not you may be able to do special exercises on your own that your physical terrorist can plan for you. You say you were discussing self defense with your terrorist and I wonder if he suggested you consider carrying a small caliber gun. Do you think you would ever consider that again and would you be able to shoot one?

23skidoo

08-26-2011, 16:55

I would be worried that Wolfe would be sucked up too if he was with her.:wow:

Or are you trying to get rid of her?:whistling:

:okie: No!

Lone_Wolfe

08-26-2011, 19:40

Sweetheart, if your terrorist makes you cry at flight ops may he be sucked into the engine!: scared:

Oh yeah, He'll probably have ahold of me and take me with him. Silent_Runner is right, you're trying to get rid of me. :miff:

:okie: No!

You just threw a brick at Silent_Runner?!?!? :wow: You ARE in trouble now, it's been nice knowing you. :sad:

Wolfe we all expect you to collect disability and I doubt anyone would complain about paying their share to fund that. That is one use of my tax money that I make no complaints about.

I hope you will be able to continue physical therapy once you get home. Has anyone talked to you about that? Even if not you may be able to do special exercises on your own that your physical terrorist can plan for you. You say you were discussing self defense with your terrorist and I wonder if he suggested you consider carrying a small caliber gun. Do you think you would ever consider that again and would you be able to shoot one?

I'm not talking as much about collecting disability payments as I am about actually being disabled. I'm OK with collecting it now, and if I wasn't, a bunch of folks that reamed me before might again. I just want to get to the point that I can do enough myself to live where I want, not need someone there if I want to be by myself, and not have to spend my days laying on my back because I can't do a damn thing because of my chest.

My terrorist did say he'd give me some stuff I could keep on doing. Some of it I can do myself, some of it he said it would work best if someone helped me with. He mainly wants me to work on the breathing for probably the rest of my life. The other stuff I'll always have to pay attention to, but may not have structured exercises. We had another session today, he's trying to work out a way for me to get up off the floor without hurting myself. Not fun.

My shrink sunk his claws into me today, too. :crying: :steamed:

23skidoo

08-27-2011, 04:58

Oh yeah, He'll probably have ahold of me and take me with him. Silent_Runner is right, you're trying to get rid of me. :miff:

You just threw a brick at Silent_Runner?!?!? :wow: You ARE in trouble now, it's been nice knowing you. :sad:

Sweetheart, I am NOT trying to get rid of you!:hearts:
Miss S_R said the same thing and I chucked a brick at her! Beaned her right in the head too!:strong:

Silent_Runner

08-27-2011, 12:06

Sweetheart, I am NOT trying to get rid of you!:hearts:
Miss S_R said the same thing and I chucked a brick at her! Beaned her right in the head too!:strong:
23skidoo do you have any idea how much trouble you are in? Wolfe gave my your address and I have bats and guns. I also have syringes full of interesting drugs. Perhaps I will tie you up and inject you with truth serum and then ask you why you chase Wolfe.:supergrin: That would be after I teach you a lesson for throwing a brick at me.:whip:

I'm not talking as much about collecting disability payments as I am about actually being disabled. I'm OK with collecting it now, and if I wasn't, a bunch of folks that reamed me before might again. I just want to get to the point that I can do enough myself to live where I want, not need someone there if I want to be by myself, and not have to spend my days laying on my back because I can't do a damn thing because of my chest.

My terrorist did say he'd give me some stuff I could keep on doing. Some of it I can do myself, some of it he said it would work best if someone helped me with. He mainly wants me to work on the breathing for probably the rest of my life. The other stuff I'll always have to pay attention to, but may not have structured exercises. We had another session today, he's trying to work out a way for me to get up off the floor without hurting myself. Not fun.

My shrink sunk his claws into me today, too. :crying: :steamed:
Are you gong to tell us about your session with your shrink or are we going to have to come over there and pull the information out with force? You have been telling us very little lately and you know better. Stop clamming up and talk to us.

Zonny

08-27-2011, 12:19

BobInTX

08-27-2011, 16:15

23skidoo do you have any idea how much trouble you are in? Wolfe gave my your address and I have bats and guns. I also have syringes full of interesting drugs. Perhaps I will tie you up and inject you with truth serum and then ask you why you chase Wolfe.:supergrin: That would be after I teach you a lesson for throwing a brick at me.:whip:

Are you gong to tell us about your session with your shrink or are we going to have to come over there and pull the information out with force? You have been telling us very little lately and you know better. Stop clamming up and talk to us.

Duuuudddeeee!! :shocked:

:rofl:

Yeah, talk to us!

23skidoo

08-27-2011, 17:53

Lone_Wolfe

08-27-2011, 18:45

Sweetheart, I am NOT trying to get rid of you!: hearts:
Miss S_R said the same thing and I chucked a brick at her! Beaned her right in the head too!:strong:

Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure, you're not. :sigh:

Actually I think you're trying to commit suicide-by-Silent_Runner. :shocked:

Are you gong to tell us about your session with your shrink or are we going to have to come over there and pull the information out with force? You have been telling us very little lately and you know better. Stop clamming up and talk to us.

Do you really want to hear more about the crap in my head? Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know better than to ask that.....

:rofl: Sounds like you mean business.

Would YOU want to cross a nurse what bats and guns???

Here's a pic of a certain critter I thought you might enjoy. Seems she gives new meaning when she says she's 'keeping watch'.

http://i240.photobucket.com/albums/ff10/Lone_Wolfe_/Mandy/KeepingWatch.jpg

Duuuudddeeee!! :shocked:

: rofl:
We're going to miss Skidoo, aren't we?

Yeah, talk to us!

OK, my shrink decided to go the other way and start telling me all the reason Greg should have stayed behind cover. All the reason I've said, plus I thin he added a few more. Problem is, he didn't like it too well when I sat there and agreed with him. He was trying to piss me off the point that I started defending what Greg did, but it didn't work. I just ended up sitting there nodding my head and crying a little. It didn't go like he planned at all, and I don't think he was real happy today. Although I wonder if this might have been a set-up for something else. I hope not.

BobInTX

08-27-2011, 19:07

Well, duh, he should have just asked us.

If he really wants to make you mad he should just tell you that you can't drink beer ever again.

Silent_Runner

08-28-2011, 11:39

:hugs:
Do you really think that is going to get you out of trouble?:psycho:

OK, my shrink decided to go the other way and start telling me all the reason Greg should have stayed behind cover. All the reason I've said, plus I thin he added a few more. Problem is, he didn't like it too well when I sat there and agreed with him. He was trying to piss me off the point that I started defending what Greg did, but it didn't work. I just ended up sitting there nodding my head and crying a little. It didn't go like he planned at all, and I don't think he was real happy today. Although I wonder if this might have been a set-up for something else. I hope not.
I have no idea what your shrink is trying to accomplish with what he did but I have no doubt he has a plan. Just keep doing what he asks of you and keep talking to us.

Well, duh, he should have just asked us.

If he really wants to make you mad he should just tell you that you can't drink beer ever again.
Are you trying to cause that poor man to earn his own Purple Heart medal?:wow:

Lone_Wolfe

08-28-2011, 18:07

Well, duh, he should have just asked us.

If he really wants to make you mad he should just tell you that you can't drink beer ever again.

Asked you what, how to piss me off? Or why Greg should have stayed down?

Now about your suggestion that he tell me I can't have beer...... :psycho:

He told me he read some of this, so don't give him any ideas!

Do you really think that is going to get you out of trouble?:psycho:
He can dream....

I have no idea what your shrink is trying to accomplish with what he did but I have no doubt he has a plan. Just keep doing what he asks of you and keep talking to us.

I will. I didn't see him today and was glad of it because my chest decided to make up for the better days it's had the past week. I've been having breathing attacks off an on all day and have had to make up for lost time with taking extra pain meds. I spent a while in the phone with a GT friend today, and was glad the attack I was having then didn't get bad until I got to my physical terrorist's office. He had to start off real easy, then cut the session short so I could go see my doc for something to loosen me up and ease the pain. Not a good day for me at all, (except for time spent talking to friends) it's got me really down right now. I know it'll probably pass, but it just feels like a setback right now.

23skidoo

08-28-2011, 21:54

Hi Sweetheart! I hope your breathing attacks ease up soon. It's a new day there, I hope it's a great one for you.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

Silent_Runner

08-29-2011, 09:47

Hi Sweetheart! I hope your breathing attacks ease up soon. It's a new day there, I hope it's a great one for you.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:
I also hope your chest feels better today.

I will. I didn't see him today and was glad of it because my chest decided to make up for the better days it's had the past week. I've been having breathing attacks off an on all day and have had to make up for lost time with taking extra pain meds. I spent a while in the phone with a GT friend today, and was glad the attack I was having then didn't get bad until I got to my physical terrorist's office. He had to start off real easy, then cut the session short so I could go see my doc for something to loosen me up and ease the pain. Not a good day for me at all, (except for time spent talking to friends) it's got me really down right now. I know it'll probably pass, but it just feels like a setback right now.
Who did you talk to? It was not me.:miff:

I hate to hear your chest pain flared up like it did but I doubt it was really a setback. As you well know the pain comes and goes during your healing an that is probably what happened again here. I still hope your doctor checks you over good to be sure. Did you see your shrink again today? I wonder where he was going with what he said you during your last visit.

BobInTX

08-29-2011, 10:26

:wavey:

23skidoo

08-29-2011, 13:07

Hi Miss S_R! :tongueout::supergrin::hugs:

Lone_Wolfe

08-29-2011, 17:51

:wavey:

:wavey:

I also hope your chest feels better today.
It's better than last night, but still giving me a hard time. Oh well, that's what extra pain meds are for.

Who did you talk to? It was not me.:miff:
Nope, wasn't you. He'll spill the beans if he wants to. :supergrin: I'll give one hint.... GTDS :drink:

I hate to hear your chest pain flared up like it did but I doubt it was really a setback. As you well know the pain comes and goes during your healing an that is probably what happened again here. I still hope your doctor checks you over good to be sure. Did you see your shrink again today? I wonder where he was going with what he said you during your last visit.

Doc checked me over good and decided I didn't tear up anything or break anything, just that maybe my terrorist overdid it a little. He's been pushing me a bit lately. Maybe a bit too much. Yep, saw my shrink, too. Nice long session.

BobInTX

08-29-2011, 20:56

:wavey:

Doc checked me over good and decided I didn't tear up anything or break anything, just that maybe my terrorist overdid it a little. He's been pushing me a bit lately. Maybe a bit too much. Yep, saw my shrink, too. Nice long session.

And??

What's going on with the nightmares? Still visualizing alternate endings when you see the AK's?

Lone_Wolfe

08-30-2011, 19:16

And??

What's going on with the nightmares? Still visualizing alternate endings when you see the AK's?

I'm still trying to visualize alternate endings, but not having any luck doing that while I'm dreaming.

OK, I’ll spill it about my session yesterday. He started asking me questions about a whole lot of things, like what I hope to do once I get home, how I feel about leaving here, how I feel about having to pretty much start my life over, and of course about Greg and what happened. He asked me things like Was I scared to go home even after all this time? (Yes) Why? (several reasons. It’s not the world I know now, I won’t have a doc and shrink nearby, I may not be able to find work that I can do, etc.) Did my physical disabilities give me reason to worry about being able to take care of myself? (Yes) What would I do if I wasn’t able to do something I needed to do to take care of myself? (Try to find another way to get it done, otherwise I don’t know) Does the idea of collecting disability still bother me? (In a way, but I don’t feel like I don’t deserve it) Would I stay overseas if it could be arranged?(Yes) When do I think I’ll want to go home? (I have no idea)

Then he went onto asking me stuff about what happened and about Greg and all that stuff again. Did I still feel like Greg’s death was my fault? (In a way, but yes I know he made the choice himself) Do I still wish he’d stayed down? (Of course) If I’d been capable of making him stay down, would I have? (If I’d been conscious and able to do that I’d have able to get my own ass behind the rocks!) Do I still grieve for Greg (Some) What would I say if I ever met his grown kids? (Your father was a good man and he died a hero, and I’m sorry for your loss) Do I want to meet them? (No, not yet anyway) What would you say to Greg if you could? (Damnit, you were supposed to stay down!) Would I thank him? (I can’t get myself to say Thank You for doing something that got him killed) Would I have thanked him if he’d lived (I think so, but I’d probably have cussed him many times when my chest was really hurting) Would I have done the same thing for him? (I sure as hell hope I could have) What would I want him to do if I had and had died like he did? (Heal faster than I have, and don’t feel guilty for what I did. Oh, and don’t take anti-depressants!) Do I still have nightmares most nights? (Yes) Have they changed recently? (The most common nightmares is still the same, but I've been adding completely different dreams now too) Are all of those dreams bad? (Mostly, but some are kind of neutral)

The questions and answers went on, but I couldn’t type them all out, even if I could remember them all. Near the end of the session he said he’d come to the conclusion that I’m finally working through a lot of the crap in my head, but that I’m about 2 years where he might normally expect me to be. That’s the time I lost because of my reaction to the AD’s. He told me that it wouldn’t be realistic for me to expect to never feel any guilt about Greg’s death, of any sense of loss. He said in the few weeks he has left with me he’s going to keep working on that and try to help me with the PTSD. He mentioned that I have a pretty bad case of that, and treating it has been kind of the back burner because of the psychosis. He thinks he can help me with that a little, and that that’s one area the VA’s got experience in.

BobInTX

08-30-2011, 20:35

You gave some really good answers. Read back through the thread and youll see there was a long time where your answers were "I don't know". You've come a long way.

I hope he can help you with the PTSD and the nightmares.

engineer151515

08-30-2011, 20:55

23skidoo

08-30-2011, 22:07

Hi Sweetheart! He read your post and saw how far you've come then he got right up and danced!:snoopy:

You're making great progress Babe; good for you.

Lone_Wolfe

08-31-2011, 18:19

Hi Sweetheart! He read your post and saw how far you've come then he got right up and danced!: snoopy:

You're making great progress Babe; good for you.

That mutt looks like he's going to fall off the edge of the page. :rofl:

What are you going to do when Mitch sees him dancing and tackles his little ass? :tongueout:

You gave some really good answers. Read back through the thread and youll see there was a long time where your answers were "I don't know". You've come a long way.

I hope he can help you with the PTSD and the nightmares.

I hope he can too, the insomnia and the nightmares are driving me nuts. Oh wait, I'm already nuts. :crazy:

I'm hoping I can do some reading tonight, there's supposed to be a mail truck coming in tonight. There's still a lot of stuff where my answer is "I don't know", but at least now I can think at least a little bit to try to answer the question. Rememberm if I've really come a long way it's because of certain people showing me the way. :hugs:

Yes

and yes.

Those words could get you in trouble. :whistling:

:hearts:

engineer151515

08-31-2011, 18:58

Those words could get you in trouble. :whistling:

:hearts:

Bring it, Baby.

:cool::supergrin:

BobInTX

08-31-2011, 20:04

That mutt looks like he's going to fall off the edge of the page. :rofl:

What are you going to do when Mitch sees him dancing and tackles his little ass? :tongueout:

I hope he can too, the insomnia and the nightmares are driving me nuts. Oh wait, I'm already nuts. :crazy:

I'm hoping I can do some reading tonight, there's supposed to be a mail truck coming in tonight. There's still a lot of stuff where my answer is "I don't know", but at least now I can think at least a little bit to try to answer the question. Rememberm if I've really come a long way it's because of certain people showing me the way. :hugs:

Those words could get you in trouble. :whistling:

:hearts:

I remember the pic I posted of that long winding road going up the mountain. Look over your shoulder now. Do you think you are further along now than you were then?

Silent_Runner

09-01-2011, 13:22

I'm still trying to visualize alternate endings, but not having any luck doing that while I'm dreaming.

OK, I’ll spill it about my session yesterday.....
Wolfe I agree with the others. You have come a very long way in the past two years. You still have a long way to go but I know you can do it and we will be here to help.

Bring it, Baby.

:cool::supergrin:
Be careful what you dare her to do.:whistling::supergrin:

I remember the pic I posted of that long winding road going up the mountain. Look over your shoulder now. Do you think you are further along now than you were then?
If she says no I will fly over there and beat her senseless. Will you and 23skidoo and other care to go with me? I will supply the bats.:psycho:

okie

09-01-2011, 13:35

Keep your chin up sweetheart, love you:smootchie::hugs:

Lone_Wolfe

09-01-2011, 19:23

Keep your chin up sweetheart, love you: smootchie:: hugs:

Love you too, okie. :smootchie:

Wolfe I agree with the others. You have come a very long way in the past two years. You still have a long way to go but I know you can do it and we will be here to help.
Thank you

Be careful what you dare her to do.: whistling:: supergrin:
Are you trying to say something? :innocent:

If she says no I will fly over there and beat her senseless. Will you and 23skidoo and other care to go with me? I will supply the bats.: psycho:

<<< starts looking for a flight to Afghanistan. I'm safer there! :scared:

I remember the pic I posted of that long winding road going up the mountain. Look over your shoulder now. Do you think you are further along now than you were then?

A trip to the post office got me this,

http://i240.photobucket.com/albums/ff10/Lone_Wolfe_/Sandbox/CDinTray.jpg

and a really nice card from Engineer. I've gotten up to page 11 so far. It's pretty cool to see the avatars and siglines the people were using at the time that this was saved. I'm not sure when that was, I'll be able to tell when I start seeing post counts change. I haven't gotten up to that pic of the road, but I do remember it. I won't say I'm anywhere near the top of that mountain, but I'm farther up that road than I was 2 years ago, that's for sure. I'm far enough up that sliding back down would be really bad, and right now it scares the hell out of me. This job ends in a few weeks and I don't know what's going to happen from here. That's got me really worried right now. My chest was feeling a little better today, but it's making it up to me now. Damn. I slept for a couple hours earlier and must have thrashed really bad.

I meant to post this a couple days ago, but forgot to. I was talking privately to Lady Glock about some issues in her life and she could really use some prayers and good juju sent up on her behalf. Silent_Runner's need is still as much as ever, if not more, so could you add some for her too.

Bring it, Baby.

: cool:: supergrin:

:tempted:

:hearts:

smokeross

09-01-2011, 19:37

Yup. L_W you are sounding better. Give yourself a pat on the back. An easy one.

engineer151515

09-01-2011, 19:40

Be careful what you dare her to do.:whistling::supergrin:

Yes Ma'am.

A trip to the post office got me this . . .

and a really nice card from Engineer.

I should have printed up a nice CD cover.
But I hope the contents are useful to you. 300+ thread pages that you do not have to wait for the slow internet connection to load.
There are a few additional items we can include for the "bonus features" in the next DVD.

BobInTX

09-01-2011, 19:45

So glad you got the pages. Should be interesting reading for you. Please share if you see something we'd like to see again.

23skidoo

09-02-2011, 08:39

Miss Lady Glock, Miss S_R, y'all are in my prayers; I hope things get better for you quickly.:grouphug:

Lone_Wolfe

09-02-2011, 19:21

Miss Lady Glock, Miss S_R, y'all are in my prayers; I hope things get better for you quickly.:grouphug:

Thank you for that, they all help. Both of my friends, plus Bob's FIL and others in here need prayers from all who will.

So glad you got the pages. Should be interesting reading for you. Please share if you see something we'd like to see again.

It sure is. I read just a little more today, but just got in a couple pages. Work, appointments, and that damn demon called Chest Pain didn't want me to sit down and read much. :yuck:

As for what I'd like you to see again, I'm not sure what to choose there. There's so much that's so relevant that I don't know what you'd want to reread.

Yup. L_W you are sounding better. Give yourself a pat on the back. An easy one.

Oh, it'll be a gentle one, trust me. My chest is complaining WAYYYY too much to do anything else.

And do you mean to say that you've read this whole thread?!?! :faint:

Yes Ma'am.

Don't ler her scare you off, she's jealous. :supergrin:

I should have printed up a nice CD cover.
But I hope the contents are useful to you. 300+ thread pages that you do not have to wait for the slow internet connection to load.
There are a few additional items we can include for the "bonus features" in the next DVD.

The cover doesn't mean anything, it's the effort you've gone to for me that matters. I'll be curious to see when you started archiving this thread. Yes, I'll be able to use it to refer back much easier than before.

I'm real curious what those bonus items might be, but I hope they start with :hugs: since I intend to get the next one in person. :hearts:

engineer151515

09-02-2011, 20:14

I'll be curious to see when you started archiving this thread.

Okie's first post is date stamped 07-20-2009, 14:15

I started saving webpages and .pdf copies on 04-02-10, 9:38am

Looks like we were on thread page 129 at that time. I left a note on that page.

cocked and locked

09-02-2011, 22:00

Get better lone_wolf were all pullin for ya!!:cheerleader:

Silent_Runner

09-03-2011, 10:18

<<< starts looking for a flight to Afghanistan. I'm safer there! :scared:

I meant to post this a couple days ago, but forgot to. I was talking privately to Lady Glock about some issues in her life and she could really use some prayers and good juju sent up on her behalf. Silent_Runner's need is still as much as ever, if not more, so could you add some for her too.

I hope you are joking about going back to that place!:steamed:

Thank you for the prayers and I will pray for the others too.

Miss Lady Glock, Miss S_R, y'all are in my prayers; I hope things get better for you quickly.:grouphug:
Thank you 23skidoo.

How are you today? Has your chest started feeling any better? I hope your shrink is still pushing you hard because you still have things to work out.

23skidoo

09-03-2011, 10:37

Bob, I hope your FIL is well; prayers for him and his family as well as those taking care of him.

Lady Glock

09-03-2011, 19:41

Miss Lady Glock, Miss S_R, y'all are in my prayers; I hope things get better for you quickly.:grouphug:

Thank you so much. Just a little info if you care to have it. I need surgery on my back. I have a protruding disc and it's causing pressure on the nerves. They thought it might shrink back into place on it's own, but it hasn't...so they want to do surgery. I fell the other day from the pain, it took my legs out from under me.

I have to travel for the surgery and don't have the funds to do so...so prayers that funds come available is of extreme importance. Fuel is the only need as food can be taken care of by cans of pork and beans, PB and J sandwiches and crackers. The important part is getting there. My daughter has her permit and can drive me, but it's a long trip (2 days minimum...we WILL sleep in the van, so no need for motels either)! Please, keep this need in your prayers, as I have to have this resolved in the next couple days. God bless all, and I have been and will continue to keep all other's prayer needs going while I am praising God for his blessings!

23skidoo

09-03-2011, 20:48

Thank you so much. Just a little info if you care to have it. I need surgery on my back. I have a protruding disc and it's causing pressure on the nerves. They thought it might shrink back into place on it's own, but it hasn't...so they want to do surgery. I fell the other day from the pain, it took my legs out from under me.

I have to travel for the surgery and don't have the funds to do so...so prayers that funds come available is of extreme importance. Fuel is the only need as food can be taken care of by cans of pork and beans, PB and J sandwiches and crackers. The important part is getting there. My daughter has her permit and can drive me, but it's a long trip (2 days minimum...we WILL sleep in the van, so no need for motels either)! Please, keep this need in your prayers, as I have to have this resolved in the next couple days. God bless all, and I have been and will continue to keep all other's prayer needs going while I am praising God for his blessings!

Praying for a solution to your travel needs soonest and a safe smooth trip for you and your daughter as well as a positive outcome on your surgery.:hugs:

Lady Glock

09-03-2011, 21:16

Praying for a solution to your travel needs soonest and a safe smooth trip for you and your daughter as well as a positive outcome on your surgery.:hugs:

Thank you so much skidoo...I may not say it often enough, but you have been in my prayers since Lone first mentioned she couldn't reach you. I'm so pleased it all worked out as well as it did and you are recovering so well. I can't wait to hear that you are fishing, as well as any other joyful adventure you are waiting to get back to. God bless and keep you in his grasp.

23skidoo

09-03-2011, 23:20

Thank you so much skidoo...I may not say it often enough, but you have been in my prayers since Lone first mentioned she couldn't reach you. I'm so pleased it all worked out as well as it did and you are recovering so well. I can't wait to hear that you are fishing, as well as any other joyful adventure you are waiting to get back to. God bless and keep you in his grasp.

Thank you ma'am.

Silent_Runner

09-04-2011, 12:44

and a really nice card from Engineer. I've gotten up to page 11 so far. It's pretty cool to see the avatars and siglines the people were using at the time that this was saved. I'm not sure when that was, I'll be able to tell when I start seeing post counts change. I haven't gotten up to that pic of the road, but I do remember it. I won't say I'm anywhere near the top of that mountain, but I'm farther up that road than I was 2 years ago, that's for sure. I'm far enough up that sliding back down would be really bad, and right now it scares the hell out of me. This job ends in a few weeks and I don't know what's going to happen from here. That's got me really worried right now. My chest was feeling a little better today, but it's making it up to me now. Damn. I slept for a couple hours earlier and must have thrashed really bad.

Wolfe just remember that even if you have to rely on the VA once you get here you will be OK now. You have come far enough that I think you will be able to handle it. You need to rest and let yourself heal and finally just enjoy being home. I hope we can find your cats too.

Thank you so much. Just a little info if you care to have it. I need surgery on my back.
Lady Glock you are in my prayers.

Wolfe told me earlier that she just did not feel up to posting last night but she is OK. Wolfe I think you need to at least give us a quick hello on days like that. But what you really need to do is make yourself talk on days you feel that bad. I hope you feel better today.

Lady Glock

09-04-2011, 13:15

Lone_Wolfe

09-04-2011, 19:14

Okie's first post is date stamped 07-20-2009, 14:15

I started saving webpages and .pdf copies on 04-02-10, 9:38am

Looks like we were on thread page 129 at that time. I left a note on that page.

Of course now I'll have to skip to that page and see if I can tell what prompted you to start archiving. :supergrin: :hugs:

Get better lone_wolf were all pullin for ya!!:cheerleader:

Thank you, my new friend. :wavey:

I hope you are joking about going back to that place!:steamed:

How are you today? Has your chest started feeling any better? I hope your shrink is still pushing you hard because you still have things to work out.

My employer mentioned one job there like I'm doing here that I'd be able to do, but it's not open, plus I don't know if the Army medical would even be willing to keep treating me over there, so it aint gonna happen. Besides, you and Skidoo would probably be waiting for me at Bagram Air Field with bats in your hands.

My chest hurts, just like it always does, but today isn't quite as bad as yesterday.

Wolfe just remember that even if you have to rely on the VA once you get here you will be OK now. You have come far enough that I think you will be able to handle it. You need to rest and let yourself heal and finally just enjoy being home. I hope we can find your cats too.
I hope we can find and retrieve my kitties too. You going to join the posse to help me get them?

Wolfe told me earlier that she just did not feel up to posting last night but she is OK. Wolfe I think you need to at least give us a quick hello on days like that. But what you really need to do is make yourself talk on days you feel that bad. I hope you feel better today.

:sorry: I was online, I just felt down and didn't want to come in here saying that after making so much progress. Kind of feels like I'm slipping back a little. I'll be sure to at least wave Hi so you folks know the hajjis with rockets didn't get me.

Thank you S_R. I appreciate the prayers. Thank you Wolfe for helping me get the prayer need out. Please don't shut us out Wolfe...we need to hear from you and know you are doing ok. We need to know if things aren't ok so we can pray about them.

I fell again today. I'm afraid if I don't get the surgery done soon I won't be able to drive myself at all...not to mention, if I can even stay on my feet to walk. This is scary, and all because I was doing some yard work. I'm hopeful the trip will happen as I've gotten some help from friends on another site, just not enough yet...God is good and I have faith He will see me through this too.

You're welcome for the prayers and help. Please keep us up to date so we can keep praying for what you need.

As for me, I just started to get really down the last couple days because I haven't slept much and my chest has flared up some. I was talking to my shrink about it and we got into just how tired I feel right now, like it's gone on so long and I wonder hom much longer I can keep going, etc. Like I said, I've been pretty down for a couple days. He pointed out that it's because of progress, that's it's easier to move on level ground than it is to climb uphill. He's got a point there.

My terrorist has been pushing me in spite of my *****ing chest, we both know that's some thing I have to get used to. It's going to hurt, period. The only thing I could do would be to drug myself into oblivion, which isn't an option although the idea seems appealing at times.

My doc is going to do one last round of steroid injections, maybe tomorrow. We were talking some more about how my chest is healing and about the fact that it's going to hurt even though I'm a lot less likely to reinjure it unless I get stupid with it. It's a relief to know that even though something hurts like hell to do, I'm probably not making it worse like I was for a long time. A lot of what it means is I just have to get used to the pain if I'm going to be able to do much of anything. Not really what I want to hear, but not unexpected.

engineer151515

09-04-2011, 19:55

Foot rubs.

They make everything better.

You need foot rubs. Lots of them.

23skidoo

09-05-2011, 01:22

Please keep us up to date so we can keep praying for what you need.

Words of wisdom Sweetheart, it helps us when we pray for you to know what to ask for.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

Silent_Runner

09-05-2011, 12:43

Thank you S_R. I appreciate the prayers. Thank you Wolfe for helping me get the prayer need out. Please don't shut us out Wolfe...we need to hear from you and know you are doing ok. We need to know if things aren't ok so we can pray about them.

I fell again today. I'm afraid if I don't get the surgery done soon I won't be able to drive myself at all...not to mention, if I can even stay on my feet to walk. This is scary, and all because I was doing some yard work. I'm hopeful the trip will happen as I've gotten some help from friends on another site, just not enough yet...God is good and I have faith He will see me through this too.
I will pray that you have your surgery soon and it is a complete success,

You're welcome for the prayers and help. Please keep us up to date so we can keep praying for what you need.

As for me, I just started to get really down the last couple days because I haven't slept much and my chest has flared up some. I was talking to my shrink about it and we got into just how tired I feel right now, like it's gone on so long and I wonder hom much longer I can keep going, etc. Like I said, I've been pretty down for a couple days. He pointed out that it's because of progress, that's it's easier to move on level ground than it is to climb uphill. He's got a point there.

My terrorist has been pushing me in spite of my *****ing chest, we both know that's some thing I have to get used to. It's going to hurt, period. The only thing I could do would be to drug myself into oblivion, which isn't an option although the idea seems appealing at times.

My doc is going to do one last round of steroid injections, maybe tomorrow. We were talking some more about how my chest is healing and about the fact that it's going to hurt even though I'm a lot less likely to reinjure it unless I get stupid with it. It's a relief to know that even though something hurts like hell to do, I'm probably not making it worse like I was for a long time. A lot of what it means is I just have to get used to the pain if I'm going to be able to do much of anything. Not really what I want to hear, but not unexpected.
I think your new shrink is a wise man. Of course your journey is a tiring one. You have traveled far against obstacles that would have made others quit.

I suspected your doctor would move you toward pain management soon when I saw you last. If they get your pain reduced you will be able to do a lot more than you were able to the last two years.

Foot rubs.

They make everything better.

You need foot rubs. Lots of them.
If you do that you may never get her to leave. What will you do then?

Words of wisdom Sweetheart, it helps us when we pray for you to know what to ask for.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:
Wolfe I think he is telling you to take your own advice. I think you should too.

engineer151515

09-05-2011, 16:50

If you do that you may never get her to leave. What will you do then?

Probably give you foot rubs too.

Then the two of you can work it out.

Lone_Wolfe

09-05-2011, 21:06

Foot rubs.

They make everything better.

You need foot rubs. Lots of them.

You'll be the one to give them, right? :hugs: :hearts:

Words of wisdom Sweetheart, it helps us when we pray for you to know what to ask for.: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

Touche. :embarassed:

Guess that means I got to tell you about my session with my shrink today, don't I?

He was grilling me about Greg and guilt and that sort of stuff today. He was badgering me, pushing and upsetting me. The he asked for the umpteenth time why Greg came out to me while he was under fire. I kept telling him I didn't know, then I finally said "He was still pissed that I'd taken the last cup of coffee and wanted to make damn sure I was dead!"

I found out that my new shrink has a sense of humor....

I think your new shrink is a wise man. Of course your journey is a tiring one. You have traveled far against obstacles that would have made others quit.

I suspected your doctor would move you toward pain management soon when I saw you last. If they get your pain reduced you will be able to do a lot more than you were able to the last two years.

If you do that you may never get her to leave. What will you do then?
Quit suggesting he try to get me to leave! :steamed:

Wolfe I think he is telling you to take your own advice. I think you should too.

OK, OK, I posted a little bit above.

Probably give you foot rubs too.

Then the two of you can work it out.

You mean I have to share you? :crying:

No! I won't! I won't I tell you, I won't! :supergrin:

engineer151515

09-05-2011, 22:17

You mean I have to share you? :crying:

No! I won't! I won't I tell you, I won't! :supergrin:

Yeah. I kept thinking that answer wasn't going to work.

BobInTX

09-06-2011, 09:08

:wavey:

To update everyone, my father in-law is in a nursing home on a secured wing for dementia and alzheimer's patients. He has good days and not so good days. He is really at a higher level than all the other patients. He doesn't remember being in the hospital now, even though he was there almost a month. But he knows everyone. Last time they weighed him, he was 98 pounds. He is 5'10'. My wife's mom is not able to take care of him, because she is not able to get around well herself.

Wolfe, I know you're trying to get as much help in with the time you have remaining there. Keep it up. :hugs:

Silent_Runner

09-06-2011, 10:47

He was grilling me about Greg and guilt and that sort of stuff today. He was badgering me, pushing and upsetting me. The he asked for the umpteenth time why Greg came out to me while he was under fire. I kept telling him I didn't know, then I finally said "He was still pissed that I'd taken the last cup of coffee and wanted to make damn sure I was dead!"

I found out that my new shrink has a sense of humor....

Wolfe that was hilarious!:rofl::rofl::rofl: From what you have said about Greg I can picture him up in Heaven laughing so hard his chest hurts too.

I knew you had not lost your sense of humor and I'm glad. You have an evil mind.:supergrin:

Yeah. I kept thinking that answer wasn't going to work.
You should have known better!:rofl:

:
To update everyone, my father in-law is in a nursing home on a secured wing for dementia and alzheimer's patients. He has good days and not so good days. He is really at a higher level than all the other patients. He doesn't remember being in the hospital now, even though he was there almost a month. But he knows everyone. Last time they weighed him, he was 98 pounds. He is 5'10'. My wife's mom is not able to take care of him, because she is not able to get around well herself.

Wolfe, I know you're trying to get as much help in with the time you have remaining there. Keep it up. :hugs:
I will continue to pray for you and your family. You have been a great help to Wolfe and she told me that again today.

BobInTX

09-06-2011, 10:58

Wolfe that was hilarious!:rofl::rofl::rofl: From what you have said about Greg I can picture him up in Heaven laughing so hard his chest hurts too.

I knew you had not lost your sense of humor and I'm glad. You have an evil mind.:supergrin:

You should have known better!:rofl:

I will continue to pray for you and your family. You have been a great help to Wolfe and she told me that again today.

Thank you for saying that. I really don't feel like I've been much help since she got back. I don't have any more ideas for writing assignments. But she can reread what she wrote and our responses to them. She's over the hump now. Aren't you, Wolfe?

That was a funny line.

Lone_Wolfe

09-06-2011, 20:03

Yeah. I kept thinking that answer wasn't going to work.

You make it sound like that's a bad thing. :sad:

:hugs:

:To update everyone, my father in-law is in a nursing home on a secured wing for dementia and alzheimer's patients. He has good days and not so good days. He is really at a higher level than all the other patients. He doesn't remember being in the hospital now, even though he was there almost a month. But he knows everyone. Last time they weighed him, he was 98 pounds. He is 5'10'. My wife's mom is not able to take care of him, because she is not able to get around well herself.
Sounds like we need to keep up the prayers for both of them.

Wolfe, I know you're trying to get as much help in with the time you have remaining there. Keep it up. :hugs:

I'm trying. Right now it looks like I've only got a few weeks left and that scares the crap out of me.

Wolfe that was hilarious!:rofl:: rofl:: rofl: From what you have said about Greg I can picture him up in Heaven laughing so hard his chest hurts too.

I knew you had not lost your sense of humor and I'm glad. You have an evil mind.:supergrin:

.

Me? Evil? :innocent:

I can picture Greg laughing at that too. And probably nodding his head!

Thank you for saying that. I really don't feel like I've been much help since she got back. I don't have any more ideas for writing assignments. But she can reread what she wrote and our responses to them. She's over the hump now. Aren't you, Wolfe?

That was a funny line.

I just had made the comment to her that I missed you in here, but knew your family issues have to take priority

I'm surprised you don't have any more ideas. Even my new shrink made a comment about that a couple weeks ago and wondered what you might pull out of your hat next. He meant it in a good way, he can tell me you were a huge help to me too. And it's much easier now to read old threads, thanks to a certain engineer.

I think I'm past the worst of it, my shrink agrees. He thinks I'm on the right track in dealing with what happened and the aftermath, just way behind. I was talking to him today about being scared of what's going to happen now and he admitted he'd concerned too. He thinks on the psychological side I should be OK, the VA does have shrinks used to dealing with PTSD, and that's a lot of what I still have to deal with. The physical side is going to be harder to deal with, but hopefully I can get physical therapy at home. Otherwise all they'll probably do for me is give me my pain meds every month. They'll have to do that anyway, but I want the chance to keep improving, too.

BobInTX

09-06-2011, 20:47

Well, I may just have to think of something. It may be after you get back to the states. It may have to be given in person, though. :whistling:

engineer151515

09-06-2011, 20:59

.....but I want the chance to keep improving, too.

I like how that sounds.

BobInTX

09-07-2011, 08:01

Cuteness Alert!!

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/Emily7mos-1.jpg

Silent_Runner

09-07-2011, 11:24

I'm trying. Right now it looks like I've only got a few weeks left and that scares the crap out of me.

Me? Evil? :innocent:

.
Yes you Wolfe.I have known you were evil for many years and that part of you did not change.:tongueout:

I understand why you are afraid but I hope you are also looking forward to being in your home again to stay. You are missing a lot of your life staying over there in that war.

I like how that sounds.
I do too.

Cuteness Alert!!
]
She is just darling! If that does not lure Wolfe there to visit then she is really wrong. I just may have to be the one to drive her there.

23skidoo

09-07-2011, 11:45

Me? Evil? :innocent:

Yes you Wolfe.I have known you were evil for many years and that part of you did not change.:tongueout:

Hey! My Sweetheart is not evil!:rant:

BobInTX

09-07-2011, 14:53

Yes you Wolfe.I have known you were evil for many years and that part of you did not change.:tongueout:

I understand why you are afraid but I hope you are also looking forward to being in your home again to stay. You are missing a lot of your life staying over there in that war.

I do too.

She is just darling! If that does not lure Wolfe there to visit then she is really wrong. I just may have to be the one to drive her there.
Promises, promises. :whistling:

Yeah, I'd really hate that. :rofl:

Lone_Wolfe

09-07-2011, 18:19

I like how that sounds.

I like the offers of footrubs, too. :supergrin:

Cuteness Alert!!

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/Emily7mos-1.jpg

Awwwwwwwwwww!!!! :hearts:

Yes you Wolfe.I have known you were evil for many years and that part of you did not change.: tongueout:

I understand why you are afraid but I hope you are also looking forward to being in your home again to stay. You are missing a lot of your life staying over there in that war.
.

Maybe, but it's a lot easier being over here. Plus all the reasons I've talked about before. Skidoo think I'm not evil, guess he's misled...

Hey! My Sweetheart is not evil!:rant:

More proof that she knows me better than you do.

Well, I may just have to think of something. It may be after you get back to the states. It may have to be given in person, though. :whistling:

Hmmmmmmm, methinks you're trying to tell me something.....

Promises, promises. : whistling:

Yeah, I'd really hate that. :rofl:

OK, so you'd have Crazy_Wolfe and the nurse with bats and guns at your house at the same time. Maybe I'm not the only one who's nuts.......

Saw my doc, shrink and physical terrorist today, made for a long day. I slept for a while a bit ago and just woke back up. Instead of talking much I'm going to try to go back to sleep. I'll talk more tomorrow.

engineer151515

09-07-2011, 18:40

I like the offers of footrubs, too. :supergrin:

:nsb:

Pumping up for foot rub duty.

smokeross

09-07-2011, 23:32

Sounds to me like L_W has come a long way. I'm digging it.

23skidoo

09-07-2011, 23:38

Saw my doc, shrink and physical terrorist today, made for a long day. I slept for a while a bit ago and just woke back up. Instead of talking much I'm going to try to go back to sleep. I'll talk more tomorrow.

Sleep well Sweetheart.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

BobInTX

09-08-2011, 08:30

Maybe, but it's a lot easier being over here. Plus all the reasons I've talked about before.
It's the medical care plus you're not having to face the fear of "What Now?"

Skidoo think I'm not evil, guess he's misled...
More proof that she knows me better than you do.

Probably not even close.

Hmmmmmmm, methinks you're trying to tell me something.....

Mmmmmm..... could be.:whistling:

OK, so you'd have Crazy_Wolfe and the nurse with bats and guns at your house at the same time. Maybe I'm not the only one who's nuts.......

Cool. We'll go to the gun range and then the batting cage. :noevil:

Saw my doc, shrink and physical terrorist today, made for a long day. I slept for a while a bit ago and just woke back up. Instead of talking much I'm going to try to go back to sleep. I'll talk more tomorrow.

I hope you got a little sleep, anyway. Maybe you can get a nap today, but please, please, please, don't forget the Xanax.

Lone_Wolfe

09-08-2011, 19:14

Sounds to me like L_W has come a long way. I'm digging it.

Don't know if you're read back much, but you should have been here a couple years ago. Reading back I can see how hard I tried to only come in here when I could write coherently, but I can still tell. I was :crazy:. Still am, but not so bad.

:nsb:

Pumping up for foot rub duty.

My Hero! :hearts: :hugs:

Sleep well Sweetheart.:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

Nice thought, but that wasn't meant to be. :fist:

It's the medical care plus you're not having to face the fear of "What Now?"
So true. Over here tha "What now?" is pertty much limited to what my shrink or physical terrorist might do today, and what size rockets are going to be thrown at the base this time

Probably not even close.
Not sure which way you mean it, but she's known me for 20 years and has spent a pretty good bit of time around me, she's got the advantage here.

Mmmmmm..... could be.
Guess I better make plans to get down your way then. That is, after those fires are put out. I sure hope you and your's are nowhere near that.

Cool. We'll go to the gun range and then the batting cage.
That would be a good time for me to stay at the house and keep little Emily company. Not that I need an excuse to want to see that little cutie!

I hope you got a little sleep, anyway. Maybe you can get a nap today, but please, please, please, don't forget the Xanax.

Mandy has forbidden me to so much as lay down in the same room with her without a Xanax in me, and she's got the claws to back that up. She gets launched enough even with it. A nap didn't happen today, but I've already slept a couple hours tonight and am going to try again. Wish me luck, I've got a lot on my mind and my chest is making it's usual fuss about everything.

23skidoo

09-08-2011, 19:46

Let's try this again Babe, the sleep of the just.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

BobInTX

09-09-2011, 11:02

Probably not even close.
Not sure which way you mean it, but she's known me for 20 years and has spent a pretty good bit of time around me, she's got the advantage here.

I meant she knows you a lot more and longer than he does.

Mmmmmm..... could be.
Guess I better make plans to get down your way then. That is, after those fires are put out. I sure hope you and your's are nowhere near that.

No, I'm not near the Bastrop fire, although our preacher's parents' house was destroyed in it. We are having cooler temperatures, but we need rain bad. That Bastrop fire is the worst I have ever heard about as far as losing property. Some people have lost their lives, as well.

Here are some pics of it:

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/image005roadfire.jpg

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/image001gatewaytohell.jpg

In this one you can see our state capitol building in the foreground.

http://i925.photobucket.com/albums/ad97/rwrcpa1/image007Capitol.jpg

Cool. We'll go to the gun range and then the batting cage.
That would be a good time for me to stay at the house and keep little Emily company. Not that I need an excuse to want to see that little cutie!

She actually lives about 2 1/2 hours from us. We get to see her this weekend, because it's her brother's fifth birthday. We haven't seen her in a month. Too long.

I hope you got a little sleep, anyway. Maybe you can get a nap today, but please, please, please, don't forget the Xanax.

Mandy has forbidden me to so much as lay down in the same room with her without a Xanax in me, and she's got the claws to back that up. She gets launched enough even with it. A nap didn't happen today, but I've already slept a couple hours tonight and am going to try again. Wish me luck, I've got a lot on my mind and my chest is making it's usual fuss about everything.
I hope you were successful getting sleep. Tell your chest I said to quit *****ing and moaning. I'm sure that will help. :cool:

Silent_Runner

09-09-2011, 13:29

:nsb:

Pumping up for foot rub duty.
Wolfe told me she plans to keep you busy so you had better get yourself in shape.:rofl:

Sounds to me like L_W has come a long way. I'm digging it.
Yes she has and I dig it as well.

Sleep well Sweetheart.::
I second this suggestion.

Don't know if you're read back much, but you should have been here a couple years ago. Reading back I can see how hard I tried to only come in here when I could write coherently, but I can still tell. I was :crazy:. Still am, but not so bad.

Mandy has forbidden me to so much as lay down in the same room with her without a Xanax in me, and she's got the claws to back that up. She gets launched enough even with it. A nap didn't happen today, but I've already slept a couple hours tonight and am going to try again. Wish me luck, I've got a lot on my mind and my chest is making it's usual fuss about everything.
Wolfe you are not crazy! You know the difference between psychotic and crazy.:steamed: You also know I'm the only person here allowed to call you crazy.:tongueout:

You have said very little for a few days. Why are you clamming up?

I hope you were successful getting sleep. Tell your chest I said to quit *****ing and moaning. I'm sure that will help. :cool:
It never hurts to try. Hopefully one of these days it will listen.

Those pictures of the fire look so awful. I will pray for everyone affected by it. I wish I could send some rain your way.

Silent_Runner

09-10-2011, 12:59

Wolfe?:impatient:

Please check in here and say hello at least. It would be even better if you would talk to us.

Lone_Wolfe

09-10-2011, 20:47

Let's try this again Babe, the sleep of the just.: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

Guess you'll have to try yet again.....

She actually lives about 2 1/2 hours from us. We get to see her this weekend, because it's her brother's fifth birthday. We haven't seen her in a month. Too long.
I agree, way too long.

I hope you were successful getting sleep. Tell your chest I said to quit *****ing and moaning. I'm sure that will help. :cool:

Sleep, what's that? My chest has a message for you, but it's not nice so I won't repeat it.

I tried again tonight, and had a nightmare, surprise surpise. :upeyes: This time was a little different though, I finally had at least a hint ot control. I've always had lucid dreams at times, some really interesting ones. I've even had ones where I dreamed that I knew I was dreaming. But when that dream is one of my nightmares it's like a switch is flipped and I have no control, awareness of it being a dream or anything.

Tonight's nightmare was pretty generic, it started out with me getting to relive running for the rocks and getting shot on the way, then going down in a heap as usual. But this time I was still moving and managed to get myself a lot closer to the rocks somehow.I think I must have gotten pretty close because Greg was able to drag me the rest of the way behind them wihtout getting shot himself. You'll love this part though.... Because I wasn't out in the open Greg didn't run out to try to save me, and didn't draw the third Afghnai out to be taken out, so the medic couldn't get to me and I died. OK, I can't win here. :faint:

Wolfe you are not crazy! You know the difference between psychotic and crazy.: steamed: You also know I'm the only person here allowed to call you crazy.: tongueout:
Then say it, so I don't have to.

<<< :crazy:

You have said very little for a few days. Why are you clamming up?
I just don't feel like talking.

It never hurts to try. Hopefully one of these days it will listen.
Hopefully

Those pictures of the fire look so awful. I will pray for everyone affected by it. I wish I could send some rain your way.

Same here, sending prayers up for everyone in the path of that. Bob, those pics are scary as hell!

Wolfe?:impatient:

Please check in here and say hello at least. It would be even better if you would talk to us.

OK, I'm here. I decided that with everything going on over the next several weeks with my job winding up I can't promise to get on here every day anymore. I'll try, and probably at least be able to poke my head in most days, but if I miss a day don't panic. That doesn't mean I don't want you folks to talk to me, I still do, and I'll answer all of you the next day if I miss. Also, don't get the impression I don't appreciate all of you, trust me I do.

It's early morming September 11th. What a sad day to remember what happened 10 years ago today. :patriot:

23skidoo

09-10-2011, 22:18

Please sleep well Babe; are you expecting extra rockets from the hajjis since it's the 11th? Have a great day Babe.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

BobInTX

09-11-2011, 12:05

Remembering your cousin on this 9/11. We'll never forget.

Also remembering you, Greg and all the others fighting this war that we didn't want but had to fight.

:patriot:

Even though you died that dream is exciting to me. Keep visualizing. I think you are making things happen. And Greg didn't die! Yea!

Lady Glock

09-11-2011, 13:01

Remembering all who were and still are affected by the actions of the terrorists 10 years ago. I WILL NEVER FORGET!

We are where the surgery will be done on my back. My appointment is Monday 9 am to SEE the surgeon and then they have to schedule the surgery. Hoping they will do it quickly as this pain is intense and I am so tired of it! Also, I need to get home and find a job...and get the kids enrolled in school (it's already very late). Praying the finances hold out. It's going to be tight, but I'm sure God will see us through. It was suggested we stop by the Police station and ask for salvation army vouchers for help...we tried it ONCE and was TOTALLY derided by how irresponsible it was of me to make the trip without making sure we had the money...so I don't guess I'll try THAT again.

Anyway...Wolfe, you know you are in my prayers...please, talk to us and don't ignore us. We WANT to be here for you, we WANT to talk to YOU even if you don't want to talk to US. You are important to us, don't forget that!
Hugs, though EXTREMELY gentle ones.

Silent_Runner

09-11-2011, 14:15

OK, I'm here. I decided that with everything going on over the next several weeks with my job winding up I can't promise to get on here every day anymore. I'll try, and probably at least be able to poke my head in most days, but if I miss a day don't panic. That doesn't mean I don't want you folks to talk to me, I still do, and I'll answer all of you the next day if I miss. Also, don't get the impression I don't appreciate all of you, trust me I do.

It's early morming September 11th. What a sad day to remember what happened 10 years ago today. :patriot:
Wolfe I understand you may have trouble getting on some days for a while but please don't disappear on us. We worry about you when you are not here to talk.

Please sleep well Babe; are you expecting extra rockets from the hajjis since it's the 11th? Have a great day Babe.::
23skidoo bite your tongue about rockets on her base!:psycho:

Remembering your cousin on this 9/11. We'll never forget.

Also remembering you, Greg and all the others fighting this war that we didn't want but had to fight.

:patriot:

Even though you died that dream is exciting to me. Keep visualizing. I think you are making things happen. And Greg didn't die! Yea!
Thank you for posting this. Today is the tenth anniversary of the day that caused everything we have talked about in this thread to happen. Wolfe do you remember the promise you made in here two years ago? You keep on fighting and never let them beat you!

I agree with BobInTX about your dream. I know Greg doesn't always die in them but this is the first time I have heard you talk of being able to try to help yourself after being shot.

Remembering all who were and still are affected by the actions of the terrorists 10 years ago. I WILL NEVER FORGET!

We are where the surgery will be done on my back. My appointment is Monday 9 am to SEE the surgeon and then they have to schedule the surgery. Hoping they will do it quickly as this pain is intense and I am so tired of it! Also, I need to get home and find a job...and get the kids enrolled in school (it's already very late). Praying the finances hold out. It's going to be tight, but I'm sure God will see us through. It was suggested we stop by the Police station and ask for salvation army vouchers for help...we tried it ONCE and was TOTALLY derided by how irresponsible it was of me to make the trip without making sure we had the money...so I don't guess I'll try THAT again.

Anyway...Wolfe, you know you are in my prayers...please, talk to us and don't ignore us. We WANT to be here for you, we WANT to talk to YOU even if you don't want to talk to US. You are important to us, don't forget that!
Hugs, though EXTREMELY gentle ones.
We will all never forget.

I pray that your surgery goes well and you are able to get back home safely.

Lone_Wolfe

09-11-2011, 20:07

Please sleep well Babe; are you expecting extra rockets from the hajjis since it's the 11th? Have a great day Babe.:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

Don't give the hajji's no damn ideas!!!!! :rant:

Actually it was quiet here today. :phew:

Remembering your cousin on this 9/11. We'll never forget.
Thank you for remembering. A now-distant memory of someone I barely knew, but didn't deserve to die that day. No one deserved to die like that, except maybe the hijackers themselves.

Also remembering you, Greg and all the others fighting this war that we didn't want but had to fight.
I went to a memorial ceremony today, and looked around at everyone there thinking about how different our lives are than they would have been if 9/11 had never happened. Greg would be alive, I wouldn't have gotten shot, all the civilians there would be working Stateside jobs, some of the military people too. Other military would be stationed in the States most likely, maybe Japan or Germany, but not in the middle of a war. Pretty sobering to think about how much the events of one day changed the world.

:patriot:

Even though you died that dream is exciting to me. Keep visualizing. I think you are making things happen. And Greg didn't die! Yea!

As Silent_Runner said, there's been other times when Greg didn't die, or at least I din't think he did. Most of the ones where I die quickly, like when the bullet gets through the armor I don't dream of him coming out to me very often. What was different about this dream is that it's the first time I had any ability at all to try to move and try to get to cover after getting hit. I still like the idea better of being able to dodge the bulllet altogether, but IRL I couldn't move at all and in last night's dream I could at first. By the time Greg reached out and dragged me the rest of the way behind the rocks all I could do was lay there and hurt. I also somehow got turned onto my back, but don't know how. I was watching Greg trying to cap that third Afghani until I died. Even then I was still watching....

Remembering all who were and still are affected by the actions of the terrorists 10 years ago. I WILL NEVER FORGET!
Good. Neither will I.

We are where the surgery will be done on my back.......

Anyway...Wolfe, you know you are in my prayers...please, talk to us and don't ignore us. We WANT to be here for you, we WANT to talk to YOU even if you don't want to talk to US. You are important to us, don't forget that!
Hugs, though EXTREMELY gentle ones.

Allright, glad to hear you've made it that far. Now we'll pray that the surgery happens quickly and goes well. Then we'll worry about getting you home and employed, and your girl in school.

I really appreciate you wanting to be here for me, it really means a lot. What I was trying to say yesterday was a couple of things. The first part is that things are going to get hectic at times with everyone trying to wrap up operations here in Iraq. There may be times over the next several weeks when I don't have a connection as some services change hands, when I don't have time to get on, or with all the stress, just don't have the energy. Not that I don't want to talk or hear from you folks, I do.

The other part I was thinking about recently is that fact that I'm doing better, and sometimes I think I don't need the help I'm getting here quite as much, although other times I think I still do. But the other side of that is some of you have stuck with me through a really dark time in my life that's gone on for over 2 years now. You've seen the pain, the setbacks, the times I've felt so hopeles all I wanted to do was give up. So I also think you, my friends, deserve to see me getting better and share in the reward. You're a big part of why, so you should have the chance to see.

There will come a time when I won't post in here daily, but I'll probably post updates and major happenings in my life for as long as I can see interest in here. I also hope the regulars who have shared their own trials will keep us all up to date, too.

Wolfe I understand you may have trouble getting on some days for a while but please don't disappear on us. We worry about you when you are not here to talk.

Thank you for posting this. Today is the tenth anniversary of the day that caused everything we have talked about in this thread to happen. Wolfe do you remember the promise you made in here two years ago? You keep on fighting and never let them beat you!

.

As I mentioned above, it may not always be possible for the next couple months. Besides, in the years I've known you I've disappeared for weeks or months at a time and you never got yourself all worked up about it. You just waited until I came back around, and kept a beer in the fridge for when I did.

Yes, I remember that post. In fact I looked it up yesterday, thanks to Engineer. :hearts: I said I wasn't going to let them terrorist bastards beat me and I haven't. I won't deny that my resolve hasn't slipped badly at times, but I'm still here and they're still in hell.

23skidoo

09-11-2011, 20:27

Hi Sweetheart! A certain beagle wants to say something afterhe read you're still here and they're still in Hell. :snoopy::hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

BobInTX

09-11-2011, 21:18

I understand why you can't post every day. My goal is for you not to need us anymore, although you'll always be my friend.

Lady Glock

09-12-2011, 11:20

Thank you for explaining that to me...now I understand!

Just got out of the appointment with the surgeon. He says something totally different than anyone else has said. EVERYONE else I've seen says that the MRI and the pain locations and symptoms all point to the need to remove the protrusion. He says my pain activity doesn't point to the protrusion as being the problem and that he wants to try the cortosone shot and if that doesn't work I have to see a neurologist. I am so angry, I don't know what to think. I'm going to be praying hard that the shot (under anethesia, so same day surgery still, just not what I was expecting) does what they expect it to and the pain is relieved. If not, I will be stuck with the pain as I can't stay here to see the neurologist. The procedure will be on Wednesday morning, 8 am.

BobInTX

09-12-2011, 12:26

LG, I've always heard that if you can avoid back surgery, do it. I know this is inconvenient for you but I think your surgeon just wants to try other alternatives before cutting on you. I'm praying that this will work for you.

Silent_Runner

09-12-2011, 13:59

As Silent_Runner said, there's been other times when Greg didn't die, or at least I din't think he did. Most of the ones where I die quickly, like when the bullet gets through the armor I don't dream of him coming out to me very often. What was different about this dream is that it's the first time I had any ability at all to try to move and try to get to cover after getting hit. I still like the idea better of being able to dodge the bulllet altogether, but IRL I couldn't move at all and in last night's dream I could at first. By the time Greg reached out and dragged me the rest of the way behind the rocks all I could do was lay there and hurt. I also somehow got turned onto my back, but don't know how. I was watching Greg trying to cap that third Afghani until I died. Even then I was still watching....

As I mentioned above, it may not always be possible for the next couple months. Besides, in the years I've known you I've disappeared for weeks or months at a time and you never got yourself all worked up about it. You just waited until I came back around, and kept a beer in the fridge for when I did.
l.
Wolfe just the fact that even a part of what you have been visualizing made it into your dream sounds like a great step. Have you told your shrink about this? I would be curious what he has to say. Did you have another similar dream last night?

I know you used to disappear for long periods of time without us worrying about each other bu that was before you got yourself shot in a war and almost died!:steamed:

Your timing is pretty good with your slow down in posting anticipated. As we have talked about privately I may not be able to be in here nearly as much for a while or possibly permanently. I will still get here when I can to keep prodding you since BobInTX is cutting you more slack than I would.:whistling:

Hi Sweetheart! A certain beagle wants to say something afterhe read you're still here and they're still in Hell. :snoopy::
Do you always let dogs speak for you?:rofl:

What do you think of what she wrote? I think she is making large steps forward at last and am happy that all of you will be able to see it too.

I understand why you can't post every day. My goal is for you not to need us anymore, although you'll always be my friend.
You are going easy on her but we do share the same goal. I will always think of you as a friend also for what you are doing for her.

Thank you for explaining that to me...now I understand!

Just got out of the appointment with the surgeon. He says something totally different than anyone else has said. EVERYONE else I've seen says that the MRI and the pain locations and symptoms all point to the need to remove the protrusion. He says my pain activity doesn't point to the protrusion as being the problem and that he wants to try the cortosone shot and if that doesn't work I have to see a neurologist. I am so angry, I don't know what to think. I'm going to be praying hard that the shot (under anethesia, so same day surgery still, just not what I was expecting) does what they expect it to and the pain is relieved. If not, I will be stuck with the pain as I can't stay here to see the neurologist. The procedure will be on Wednesday morning, 8 am.
I hope he is right and the cortisone gives you lasting relief. I will pray that it does.

LG, I've always heard that if you can avoid back surgery, do it. I know this is inconvenient for you but I think your surgeon just wants to try other alternatives before cutting on you. I'm praying that this will work for you.
That is correct. Back surgery is risky and best avoided if possible. But if it is what you need then nothing else will give real relief. I pray that Lady Glock's surgeon ir right about her.

BobInTX

09-12-2011, 14:33

Wolfe just the fact that even a part of what you have been visualizing made it into your dream sounds like a great step. Have you told your shrink about this? I would be curious what he has to say. Did you have another similar dream last night? Yes, do tell.

I know you used to disappear for long periods of time without us worrying about each other bu that was before you got yourself shot in a war and almost died!:steamed: I knew that was coming!

Your timing is pretty good with your slow down in posting anticipated. As we have talked about privately I may not be able to be in here nearly as much for a while or possibly permanently. I will still get here when I can to keep prodding you since BobInTX is cutting you more slack than I would.

What? So now I'm just going to be in here by myself and Snoopy? :wow:

SR, I hope you get your problems worked out. And please don't make your absence permanent.

What do you think of what she wrote? I think she is making large steps forward at last and am happy that all of you will be able to see it too.

I was very encouraged.

You are going easy on her but we do share the same goal. I will always think of you as a friend also for what you are doing for her.

Awww, thanks. :eyelashes:
I hope he is right and the cortisone gives you lasting relief. I will pray that it does.

That is correct. Back surgery is risky and best avoided if possible. But if it is what you need then nothing else will give real relief. I pray that Lady Glock's surgeon ir right about her.
Me too. Don't expect immediate results from the shot. The injection site will hurt for a few days.

Lone_Wolfe

09-12-2011, 20:58

Hi Sweetheart! A certain beagle wants to say something afterhe read you're still here and they're still in Hell. : snoopy:: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

I've been still here for over 40 years and they've been in hell for 10. That mutt just now decided to dance? :wow:

I understand why you can't post every day. My goal is for you not to need us anymore, although you'll always be my friend.

Once I reach the point that I don't need you I'll sure miss talking to you. Ironic right, after all the times I just don't feel like talking to you. But it's because of the subject matter, not who I'm talking to. I'll always think of you and several others in here as friends.

Got to admit you surprised me. I half expected you guys to dogpile me again for saying that I might not post every day for a while. :rofl:

Thank you for explaining that to me...now I understand!
Good, I didn't want you to take it the wrong way.

Just got out of the appointment with the surgeon. ....

Wow. Like everyone's said before me, I sure hope he's right.

Wolfe just the fact that even a part of what you have been visualizing made it into your dream sounds like a great step. Have you told your shrink about this? I would be curious what he has to say. Did you have another similar dream last night?

I know you used to disappear for long periods of time without us worrying about each other bu that was before you got yourself shot in a war and almost died!:steamed:

Oops... :embarassed:

Your timing is pretty good with your slow down in posting anticipated. As we have talked about privately I may not be able to be in here nearly as much for a while or possibly permanently. I will still get here when I can to keep prodding you since BobInTX is cutting you more slack than I would.: whistling:
.

Yes, I talked to my shrink today about it. He said it was a major breakthough, a sign that the psychosis is breaking. He's convinced (as was my last 2 shrinks) that the psychosis is what made the nightmares different, to include 'locking out' any input from me, such as the visualizations. For one to have happened, even a small change like that, he likened to the small crack in a dam. He said once that dam starts to give way it's just a matter of time.

Then he commented that he wished it had heppened while my previous shrink was here. When I looked surprised he said that he'd worked so hard with me and had mentioned looking something like this in his notes, so my new shrink thought he deserved to know it had finally happened. I thought that was really decent of him to say. The nightmares I've had since then are more of the same, no more breakdancing after being shot like the one. I still like the idea of dodging that damn bullet better!

I know Silent_Runner still insists that I don't post her issues here, and even thought I disagree, I have no choice but to respect her wishes. And she does post elsewhere. But I'm going to risk pissing her off by asking for a lot of prayers for her. Please, a lot.

.I knew that was coming!
And I should have known. :upeyes:

What? So now I'm just going to be in here by myself and Snoopy?
I hope not. I'm sure you can persuade Skidoo to speak for himself before that mutt gets him in trouble. :supergrin:

SR, I hope you get your problems worked out. And please don't make your absence permanent.

Amen to that!

BobInTX

09-12-2011, 23:05

Silent Runner, we love you, too.

23skidoo

09-13-2011, 06:08

What do I think of what she wrote? Boy howdy! I am ecstatic! See Miss S_R? The mutt doesn't always speak for me.:supergrin:

Bob, I doubt you and I will be the only ones cheering The Gorgeous One on.

Have a great day Babe.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

engineer151515

09-13-2011, 08:52

Lone_Wolfe :hugs::hugs:

Silent_Runner :hugs::hugs:

Lady Glock

09-13-2011, 14:42

Prayers, prayers and more prayers for S_R...not sure what the need is, but God knows and that is what is important. I will be praying for her!

Lone_Wolfe

09-13-2011, 21:44

Silent Runner, we love you, too.

Even when she's looking for you with bats and needles? :supergrin:

What do I think of what she wrote? Boy howdy! I am ecstatic! See Miss S_R? The mutt doesn't always speak for me.: supergrin:

It's about time you say something for yourself! I thought I was going to have to ask Mitch to swat that mutt a time or 2. :rofl:

Bob, I doubt you and I will be the only ones cheering The Gorgeous One on.

Have a great day Babe.: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

Heh, easier said than done.

Lone_Wolfe : hugs::hugs:

Silent_Runner : hugs::hugs:

:hugs: :hugs: back to you.

Prayers, prayers and more prayers for S_R...not sure what the need is, but God knows and that is what is important. I will be praying for her!

Thanks, thanks, and more thanks for that. She really does need it.

I'll tell about my visit to my doc later, right now you folks please pray some more for Silent_Runner if you would.

23skidoo

09-14-2011, 02:58

Prayers for Miss S_R, Miss Lady Glock, Bob's FIL, and of course, Miss Lone_:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

MB-G26

09-14-2011, 03:33

and add to THAT some really sloppy, sluppy, slubberly kisses to Skido!!!!!!!!

23skidoo

09-14-2011, 03:37

and add to THAT some really sloppy, sluppy, slubberly kisses to Skido!!!!!!!!

:embarassed: Thank you ma'am!:hugs:

MB-G26

09-14-2011, 03:38

Ok, so I am a bit catching up here, thread-wise.

SR is having issues, difficulties, troubles, too?

LEMME THE EFF 'AT EM!!!!!!!!!

BobInTX

09-14-2011, 08:08

Even when she's looking for you with bats and needles? :supergrin:

:shocked: She is?

Thanks, thanks, and more thanks for that. She really does need it.

I'll tell about my visit to my doc later, right now you folks please pray some more for Silent_Runner if you would.

Done.

:wavey:

Silent_Runner

09-14-2011, 12:05

Yes, I talked to my shrink today about it. He said it was a major breakthough, a sign that the psychosis is breaking. He's convinced (as was my last 2 shrinks) that the psychosis is what made the nightmares different, to include 'locking out' any input from me, such as the visualizations. For one to have happened, even a small change like that, he likened to the small crack in a dam. He said once that dam starts to give way it's just a matter of time.

Then he commented that he wished it had heppened while my previous shrink was here. When I looked surprised he said that he'd worked so hard with me and had mentioned looking something like this in his notes, so my new shrink thought he deserved to know it had finally happened. I thought that was really decent of him to say. The nightmares I've had since then are more of the same, no more breakdancing after being shot like the one. I still like the idea of dodging that damn bullet better!

I know Silent_Runner still insists that I don't post her issues here, and even thought I disagree, I have no choice but to respect her wishes. And she does post elsewhere. But I'm going to risk pissing her off by asking for a lot of prayers for her. Please, a lot.

I was truly hoping that would be your shrink's assessment of the variance in your dream. Now that changes have begun they should start happening faster and more often. Soon you will be stand there giving the finger to the ones trying to shoot you while bullets bounce off you. :rofl:

That your current shrink wished his predecessor could have seem your breakthrough shows that he is a good man. You are lucky to have him helping you.

I thank you for the prayer requests and for understanding my desire not to bring out the details on this forum.

Silent Runner, we love you, too.
Thank you.

What do I think of what she wrote? Boy howdy! I am ecstatic! See Miss S_R? The mutt doesn't always speak for me.::
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I was about to give up on you.:rofl:

Lone_Wolfe ::

Silent_Runner :::hugs:
Thank you and :hugs:

Prayers, prayers and more prayers for S_R...not sure what the need is, but God knows and that is what is important. I will be praying for her!
Yes he does and I do thank you and keep up my prayers for you.

Thanks, thanks, and more thanks for that. She really does need it.

I'll tell about my visit to my doc later, right now you folks please pray some more for Silent_Runner if you would.
Wolfe you know I'm grateful for all the prayer and really need God to listen but you are not going to use my problem as an excuse not to talk about yours. This is your thread on your home forum and we are here to help you.

Prayers for Miss S_R, Miss Lady Glock, Bob's FIL, and of course, Miss Lone_::
Thank you.

Is that before of after MB-G26 kisses you?:rofl:

and add to THAT some really sloppy, sluppy, slubberly kisses to Skido!!!!!!!!
I want to watch!:supergrin: He might really enjoy that.

Ok, so I am a bit catching up here, thread-wise.

SR is having issues, difficulties, troubles, too?

LEMME THE EFF 'AT EM!!!!!!!!!
I would love to. I could step back and you could take care of everything.

Done.

:
Thank you.

Lady Glock

09-14-2011, 13:25

Thank you all for your prayers. The procedure is done...I'm angry they wouldn't get rid of the bulge as was expected, but prayful that the shot will take care of it. I'm staying with a precious friend for one or two days to heal and then on the road by Friday early morning to get home. It's a 2 day trip, so that will be really rough.

Prayers continue for all the needs of my friends...God bless and keep you all in his embrace until you get through the issues you are facing. Hugs (always the most gentle) for all!

BobInTX

09-14-2011, 15:08

Yeah, LG, you probably need some gentle hugs yourself. :hugs:

23skidoo

09-14-2011, 15:19

Miss S_R, prayers continue for you for a quick, painless and permanent end to your difficulties my friend and thanks for not giving up on me.:hugs: Miss Lady Glock, may your surgery be an unqualified success and may your journey home be smooth and pain free:hugs:

Babe, may all your days be great!:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou: No disrespect to Miss MB-G26, but I want you to deliver those kisses.

Lone_Wolfe

09-14-2011, 18:48

Prayers for Miss S_R, Miss Lady Glock, Bob's FIL, and of course, Miss Lone_: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

Thanks, on behalf of all of us.

and add to THAT some really sloppy, sluppy, slubberly kisses to Skido!!!!!!!!

Oh good! This I want to watch! :supergrin:

:embarassed: Thank you ma'am! : hugs:

<<< puts fresh batteries in the videocamera...

Ok, so I am a bit catching up here, thread-wise.

SR is having issues, difficulties, troubles, too?

LEMME THE EFF 'AT EM!!!!!!!!!

Yep, she does. I wish you could have at 'em on her behalf. Somehow I think you'd win. I'd also like to let you have at my nightmares. I'll bet they'd run away screaming and never return.

I was truly hoping that would be your shrink's assessment of the variance in your dream. Now that changes have begun they should start happening faster and more often. Soon you will be stand there giving the finger to the ones trying to shoot you while bullets bounce off you. :rofl:
If I could do that I'd just stomp over there instead and shove their AK's up their asses. But I'd settle for just avoiding getting shot somehow. Of course I wish I coulf have done that in RL.

That your current shrink wished his predecessor could have seem your breakthrough shows that he is a good man. You are lucky to have him helping you.
I agree with you on that completely.

I thank you for the prayer requests and for understanding my desire not to bring out the details on this forum.
I really hope you'll change your mind soon.

Wolfe you know I'm grateful for all the prayer and really need God to listen but you are not going to use my problem as an excuse not to talk about yours. This is your thread on your home forum and we are here to help you.

I want to watch!: supergrin: He might really enjoy that.
If he's smart he'll kiss back. Or somebody might have something to say about it...... :psycho:
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I intend to keep it up until you get better, too.

OK, I'll talk. Just for you. Last night I had another nasty nightmare, but it had another small variant. The only difference this time was I was a little closer to the rocks when I got shot, and this was one of the ones where the bullet got through the armor so it didn't knock me back. I ended up falling just in front of or alongside the rocks. (I'm not sure which) Greg could tell easily that I was dead, so he stayed down. I was looking at myself and watching him cuss out the Afghani's. If words could kill..........

I told my shrink about it today and he said the levee is definitely breaking (his words), and it was only a matter of time before the psychosis lost it's grip. I asked him if he thought me visualizing the version I do was helping and he said he couldn't tell, but he was sure it wasn't hurting. Guess that means he wants me to keep it up.

My doc think I need more sleep to really beat these nightmares. Duh, like that's news. But he said he's thinking about having me come in at night for a little while for observation and possible stronger meds to make me sleep. He's also thinking about different options for my pain meds, because he doesn't want me to have to take add-ons as often as I do. He didn't say what he's got in mind, though.

Thank you all for your prayers. The procedure is done...I'm angry they wouldn't get rid of the bulge as was expected, but prayful that the shot will take care of it. I'm staying with a precious friend for one or two days to heal and then on the road by Friday early morning to get home. It's a 2 day trip, so that will be really rough.

Prayers continue for all the needs of my friends...God bless and keep you all in his embrace until you get through the issues you are facing. Hugs (always the most gentle) for all!

I'm praying that it doesn the trick too. How soon will you know? If it doesn't, will the surgeon work on you then?

Gentle hugs back, my friend. And keep us posted on the trip.

Yeah, LG, you probably need some gentle hugs yourself. : hugs:

I'd say she does. How's your FIL?

Babe, may all your days be great!:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou: No disrespect to Miss MB-G26, but I want you to deliver those kisses.

Are you kidding, I want good video of you and MB kissing to post on GT! :rofl:

23skidoo

09-14-2011, 18:57

Oh good! This I want to watch! :supergrin:

<<< puts fresh batteries in the videocamera...

Are you kidding, I want good video of you and MB kissing to post on GT! :rofl:

Behave Gorgeous One! The sleep of the just and good for you on the psychosis!:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

BobInTX

09-14-2011, 19:45

My FIL is doing okay. He has gained 7 pounds since he has been there. Thats very good. He is all skin and bones. His very short term memory is bad.

You're getting close to the rocks. One of these days you're gonna make it. Just don't start jumping up and down celebrating or you might get shot again.

Lady Glock

09-14-2011, 22:26

I should know in a week if this is going to work...though they said the steroid will be in my system for a month, if it doesn't work in a week they want me to see a neuro. I really wanted the surgery...I wanted the bulge to be removed because I didn't have this issue until I damaged this disc, so the fact this surgeon is saying it can't be the reason I hurt really makes me mad. Praying this works, anyone know if this pain tonight is usual? I really am praying I don't need anything more!

BobInTX

09-15-2011, 07:49

Every time my wife or I have had an injection somewhere it hurts for a few days where they injected it.

Lone_Wolfe

09-15-2011, 19:03

Behave Gorgeous One! The sleep of the just and good for you on the psychosis!:hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

Me? Misbehave? :whistling: :innocent:

My FIL is doing okay. He has gained 7 pounds since he has been there. Thats very good. He is all skin and bones. His very short term memory is bad.

You're getting close to the rocks. One of these days you're gonna make it. Just don't start jumping up and down celebrating or you might get shot again.

Glad to hear he's doing better. Hopefully that'll keep up.

Get shot again?!?!? You mean once wasn't enough? :faint: The main thing that was different about that one was that it kept going after I got shot. Usually when I have one where the bullet gets through the armor I scream or cry myself awake before anything else happens. Those are also the ones where I roll face-down a lot, and that really hurts. I don't know if the pain from rolling over causes the dreams to be the worst ones, or if the really bad dream causes my to move around enough to end up face-down.

I should know in a week if this is going to work...though they said the steroid will be in my system for a month, if it doesn't work in a week they want me to see a neuro. I really wanted the surgery...I wanted the bulge to be removed because I didn't have this issue until I damaged this disc, so the fact this surgeon is saying it can't be the reason I hurt really makes me mad. Praying this works, anyone know if this pain tonight is usual? I really am praying I don't need anything more!

Bob's right, it hurts after steroid injections for a few days. So can you stay there for a week and see him again if the steroids don't do it fo you? I'm just wondering what your options are right now. Praying for you, too. :hugs:

Every time my wife or I have had an injection somewhere it hurts for a few days where they injected it.

Yeah, don't remind me. I had what my doc said in my last series of injections for a while today, and damn, it hurts! :crying: I just hope the steroids don't make my chest go crazy like they have in the past. I got a lower dose again, according to my doc, so I shouldn't quit breathing or anything else like that.

Lady Glock

09-15-2011, 22:51

I can't stay a week...we are headed home tomorrow morning. I have a job interview next week...I can't miss it! The pain is less intense than it has been, I was on my feet for several minutes today before it started getting sore. I'm hoping and praying it will just work and I won't need anything more than this. My daughter will be doing most of the driving home, though I hope to be able to drive though the major cities since she is so inexperienced. We will DEFINITELY be stopping somewhere on the way. If we find we don't have the funds for a room, we will sleep in the van, but I am prayful we have the funds for a room.

My prayers continue for all the other needs here. S_R, bob's FIL, Skidoo and Wolfe. I will also pray that any I have forgotten, God knows the needs, and I will pray he meets them all. God Bless all my friends!

23skidoo

09-16-2011, 00:28

Ever so gentle hugs tonight, I hope your chest doesn't make you pay so dearly again for your steroid injections.:hugs::hearts::smootchie::iloveyou:

Glock26girl

09-16-2011, 01:19

Just wanted to pop in and say that I continue to pray for you Wolfe, as you recover...YES!! I'm also praying for SR and Lady Glock's concerns. I'm glad to hear that your FIL has gained weight, Bob. My FIL passed suddenly last week and it was a sad, busy week. At the same time, our lawyer son passed his Bar Exam. God is good. But, I always have to remember to "know in the dark what I knew to be true in the light." God will take care of all of us.

BobInTX

09-16-2011, 08:04

G26, I'm so sorry for your loss. Congrats to your son.

okie

09-16-2011, 08:18

Keep your chin up LW sweetheart, love you my dear:smootchie::hearts:

Lone_Wolfe

09-16-2011, 15:28

Keep your chin up LW sweetheart, love you my dear:smootchie::hearts:

Love you too, okie :smootchie:

I can't stay a week...we are headed home tomorrow morning. I have a job interview next week...I can't miss it! The pain is less intense than it has been, I was on my feet for several minutes today before it started getting sore. I'm hoping and praying it will just work and I won't need anything more than this. My daughter will be doing most of the driving home, though I hope to be able to drive though the major cities since she is so inexperienced. We will DEFINITELY be stopping somewhere on the way. If we find we don't have the funds for a room, we will sleep in the van, but I am prayful we have the funds for a room.

My prayers continue for all the other needs here. S_R, bob's FIL, Skidoo and Wolfe. I will also pray that any I have forgotten, God knows the needs, and I will pray he meets them all. God Bless all my friends!

I hope that interview goes well for you. I'd love to see you post that you got a great job with great medical insurance. Praying for you to make the trip back safely.

Just wanted to pop in and say that I continue to pray for you Wolfe, as you recover...YES!! I'm also praying for SR and Lady Glock's concerns. I'm glad to hear that your FIL has gained weight, Bob. My FIL passed suddenly last week and it was a sad, busy week. At the same time, our lawyer son passed his Bar Exam. God is good. But, I always have to remember to "know in the dark what I knew to be true in the light." God will take care of all of us.

Hi, good to see you again! I'm so sorry about your FIL. :sad: Congrats to your son! :thumbsup: Can we tell lawyer jokes now? :supergrin:

Ever so gentle hugs tonight, I hope your chest doesn't make you pay so dearly again for your steroid injections.: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:

You didn't get your wish, my chest is screaming. I don't know if it's the steroids or just the fact that it's been fairly calm for a couple days and decided "Break's over!", but it's giving me holy hell right now. I'm about to give in and go to the hospital in a couple minutes, I need some relief.