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DoogieHowser
10-30-2011, 17:30
I know this is CopTalk and I've not posted much in the last year but I had to show off my little one and ask for prayers of strength as we go on this journey.

The full story is at http://elliana.coltfreeman.net

This is my baby girl Elliana born to us just a few short days ago. We found out around 26wks that she likely had a congenital heart defect called Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. We have spent the last week in the NICU and PICU at UVA. She has finished the first of 3 open heart surgeries; while she is still on a ventilator she has been breathing on her own today and we hope to get her off soon!

I had to come home today to take care of getting her added to our insurance and to keep myself sane while I am away I edited these few images. While many have missed focus and are not up to my normal standards they do tell a story. Those of you who pray I would covet those prayers, and those that do not warm wishes are also welcome. She has been a little fighter from the start and I can't wait till I can hold her again sometime this week.

Sarah got to hold her for just a second before they wisked Elli to the NICU.
http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/1.jpg

I got to follow Elli downstairs to the NICU.
http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/2.jpg

Day #2 they had to raise Elli's Prostaglandin to keep her Ductus Arteriousus open so it gave her sleep apnea and they entubated
http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/3.jpg

http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/4.jpg

Got to hold her a few hours before her surgery on Tue
http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/6.jpg

Elli recovering in the PICU after surgery
http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/7.jpg

http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/8.jpg

These are the machines and medication keeping Elli alive
http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/9.jpg

Grandma getting a finger squeeze.
http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/10.jpg

They wired her breastbone back together after the swelling post-op went down, the tubes are for drainage. Got rid of about half the meds Fri.
http://www.coltfreeman.net/elli/11.jpg
Still waiting for her to open those beautiful eyes to see what color they are.

trdvet
10-30-2011, 17:43
Couldn't imagine, good luck to you and I hope your little one makes a full and complete recovery.

nikerret
10-30-2011, 17:48
Best wishes with all things. It's tearjerking to see her connected to all the mchines. Keep us updated, please.


ETA: Can't believe I forgot this....


Congratulations!!!!!!!!

mikegun
10-30-2011, 17:51
Lot of prayers. God Bless you and your family...

Top_Shot_31
10-30-2011, 17:52
Congrats on the kid, so sorry that she is not doing so well. Sending good wishes your way. Hang in there, man.

wprebeck
10-30-2011, 18:51
Still waiting for her to open those beautiful eyes to see what color they are.

I'll spoil it for you - they're blue. They always are, at this age. They'll change later....but for now, big baby blue eyes are the order of the day.

My first two (girl then boy) kept their blues. Daughter has gorgeous eyes, almost gray at times. Son has lady killer bright blue ones.

My last two (again, girl then boy) have dark brown. They got those from me....but kept Mommy's dimples.


When your girl is OK, let me know. Got a story for you.

XDfense
10-30-2011, 18:54
Best wishes with all things. It's tearjerking to see her connected to all the mchines. Keep us updated, please.


ETA: Can't believe I forgot this....


Congratulations!!!!!!!!

My thoughts exactly.

siblueg
10-30-2011, 19:06
Congrats, everything will work out, spoil the hell out of her.

DaBigBR
10-30-2011, 19:07
Glad she's doing well, Colt. Reach out if you need anything.

Hack
10-30-2011, 19:12
Congratulations to y'all on the birth of your new one. Will definitely keep her in prayer, and y'all as well. I am sorry that she has to go through this kind of stuff, but somehow things will work out OK for her. Blessings on her and health to her are my wishes for her.

indigent
10-30-2011, 19:48
Congrats Brother, Have faith that everything will work out for the best.

My daughter spent 2 weeks in the NICU starting the day after she was born, which incidentally happened to be St. Patrick's Day. Just remember, they don't put the B-Team players in the NICU.

If you need anything, just hollar.

packsaddle
10-30-2011, 19:52
Congratulations!

janice6
10-30-2011, 19:54
Congratulations and God Bless Her.

k9medic
10-30-2011, 20:00
Just remember, they don't put the B-Team players in the NICU.

Very true. The neonatal team that I fly picks up the sickest kids in the world. I have literally watched them take a 30 week gestation baby in the palm of their hands to place it into my helicopter. That same baby was brought by our hangar 4 years later as a smiling pre-K kid even after weeks on the ecmo machine.


Best of luck, wishes and most importantly prayers to you Colt.

k9medic
10-30-2011, 20:01
Just remember, they don't put the B-Team players in the NICU.

Very true. The neonatal team that I fly picks up the sickest kids in the world. I have literally watched them take a 30 week gestation baby in the palm of their hands to place it into my helicopter. That same baby was brought by our hangar 4 years later as a smiling pre-K kid even after weeks on the ecmo machine.


Best of luck, wishes and most importantly prayers to you and your family, Colt.

maddog3241
10-30-2011, 21:36
Most definitely in my prayers. I do have to say, you are not alone. I had a nephew born a year ago this past August with the same problem. He is 4 surgeries in, with one more planned for February, he is still small at 17 pounds but he is the sweetest, happiest kid I have ever seen.

It sure is rough seeing people go thru this, but God is good, and he will take care of your little one. God Bless, and PM me if you would like to read my sister-in-laws blog about their experience. Prayers inbound.

collim1
10-30-2011, 21:41
Prayers sent...me and my wife are contemplating trying for our first child. We haven't even decided yet to start trying and I am already terrified.

msu_grad_121
10-30-2011, 22:25
Congratulations! Prayers and positive thoughts are inbound!

ranger1444
10-30-2011, 22:30
Congrats and prayers inbound! A friend of mine's son had HLHS. He received a heart transplant 6 months and 2 weeks ago, and now he is the happiest kid ever.

Hang in the man, God has a plan!

m2hmghb
10-30-2011, 23:04
Prayers sent! Good luck and congrats to you and your wife!

Cochese
10-30-2011, 23:21
:angel:

OfficerChris
10-31-2011, 04:13
congratulations and best wishes for the other surgeries

DoogieHowser
10-31-2011, 05:48
Thanks everyone! Sounds like today they might ex-tubate and take her off the ventilator.

DoogieHowser
10-31-2011, 06:26
DoubleTap

Kadetklapp
10-31-2011, 07:13
Prayers sent!

rookie1
10-31-2011, 07:41
Hang in there. Congrats on the new addition.

Vigilant
10-31-2011, 09:36
Prayers will be inbound tonight.

Godspeed to you and yours.

DoogieHowser
10-31-2011, 13:11
Thank's a bunch everyone! They decided to keep the vent in for another day, she passed the tests to be off but she just has a bit too much pulmonary edema to take it off just yet wouldn't be fair to her. They replaced the wound foam and the skin is closing over the breastbone nicely, about a 1/2 an inch left to grow. She's moving around a bunch today so she's obviously getting used to the dose of morphine they have her on but it's a good thing as she's starting to use her lungs a bit more.

Patchman
10-31-2011, 15:53
First, congratulations.

Second, Everything happens for a reason. Best wishes for your daughter's continued improvement.

MrsKitty
10-31-2011, 19:14
:angel:

Newcop761
10-31-2011, 19:30
Prayers sent for your beautiful daughter and your family.

While you take care of your wife and daughter who is taking care of you?

Do you need anything?

My daughter spend the first week of her life in the NICU...in a different city than my wife was in. That was a challenging time. If I can help you and your family, please let me know.

x_out86
11-01-2011, 22:16
I feel your pain and understand completely Doogie. Right now my new baby boy is in the NICU too. He was born at 30 weeks (10 early), and has been in the NICU for 6 weeks now.

It has been the hardest thing ever to have to drive 75 minutes one way every day just to see him.

Just know that you are not in this alone. Should you need somebody to talk to about it, have questions, or just need to vent, let me know. It sounds like your baby has had a number of other problems that mine luckily did not, but I still am sure I know how you feel.

Prayers sent, and stay mentally tough.

volsbear
11-02-2011, 10:02
Congratulations and God bless her. She's beautiful.

DoogieHowser
11-02-2011, 11:51
Thanks everyone, my parents are with us now so they are watching me of course. At this point it's just a matter of watching docs and nurses and making sure things are correct. I love the staff here they have bent over backwords to make sure we are taken care of. We've been improving every day, though the last couple of days we havn't been making much progress which is getting hard. They pulled out the chest drainage tube today but that caused a small pneumo (air bubble) so they arn't pulling her off the vent like we'd hoped.

We got to hold her for about 30min each before the surgery but it's been over a week since then and it's really starting to be an issue for both of us but there isn't anything we can do till the vent is out... They pulled back on the morphine drip today since they thought the vent was coming out so she's had extra pain all day, watching her face grimace and try to cry though she can't because of the vent. She's awake enough to try and spit it out. Makes me sad, and it's not something that I can shoot, or maim to stop it from causing her pain too. Just have to sit here...

They just came back in and they are hoping the pnumo will go down some so they can take another x-ray at 4 est and try to extubate then...

RMolina628
11-02-2011, 11:57
thanks for the update, I will keep everyone in my prayers.

Mayhem like Me
11-02-2011, 12:34
Congrats and prayers sent for your little angel..............

PinkoCommie
11-02-2011, 13:17
She is gorgeous! My thoughts are with Elliana, you, your family, and the medical team. Events like this put life in perspective. All the stuff we all put so much thought and effort into, all the things we complain about, all that stuff... it matters not. This, right here, is important. Please keep us posted about Elliana's progress.

DoogieHowser
11-02-2011, 13:21
Little setback, attending came by and just told me they are going to wean her off the morphine first. So today is a methadone switch over from morphine and they are waiting on the vent till after that's done. Vent tomorrow hopefully...

Fireplug
11-03-2011, 02:21
Congrats and prayers sent. She's beautiful.

4949shooter
11-03-2011, 04:28
Congrats and prayers sent, Brother.

TKOFaith
11-03-2011, 09:13
She's a beautiful girl! You are all in my prayers.

Blessings,

Tim

Pinki
11-03-2011, 20:51
Congrats and good thoughts and prayers sent!

Lakeman
11-03-2011, 21:13
Congratulations and prayers sent for Elli and your family.

Hack
11-03-2011, 21:35
Sorry to hear about the things that hurt the poor girl. Will definitely keep her and y'all in prayer.

Naelbis
11-03-2011, 21:50
Congrats on our little girl! She is gorgeous! Glad to hear she is doing well. I know how hard it is seeing your child going through so much and being unable to do anything. I spent six weeks with my twins in NICU. Just remember to take some time to take care of yourself. The most important thing you can do is touch her and talk to her, trust me she knows who you are. And remember to thank the NICU staff, they are the best and do are hard job, lord knows they accrue tons of good karma putting up with pushy overly anxious parents like me...

DoogieHowser
11-04-2011, 08:40
Thanks everyone, I typically start my morning routine here by reading what you all have posted. Yesterday we had a bad chest x-ray and ultrasound they found two pockets of fluid and wouldn't let us extubate.

TODAY however chest x-ray was great and extubation should be soon!

She's off the morphine drip and on methadone to avoid withdrawal since she's been on it for over a week and a half. I'm getting stoked for the time when we get to hold her again! We've had 6 days of possible off vent predictions but it looks like everything is a go now.

RMolina628
11-04-2011, 08:57
more prayers, again, thanks for keeping us up to date.

Sgt127
11-04-2011, 14:13
Take a deep breath. (I know, easy for me to say, I freaked out when my babies had a nasty fever)

Realize how tough babies actually are.

Realize that you couldn't have had a baby with complicated medical issues at a better time in history. The advances in medical care, at this point in our lives, are truly staggering, and, they are better every day.

What was life threatening years ago, is now just a a problem that can usually be dealt with.

Best wishes to all of you.

Ducowti
11-04-2011, 17:31
Prayers sent. Godspeed.

PinkoCommie
11-04-2011, 18:19
Good update. Keep on keepin' on. She's a tough kid, from the sound of it!

DoogieHowser
11-05-2011, 12:19
No news is good news I guess, we're on a CPAP now and just waiting for I'm not sure exactly what we're waiting for right now other than for her to start breathing more easily and get some more of the meds and lines out.

Newcop761
11-05-2011, 12:38
Good to hear! The waiting and the feelings of powerlessness are tough.

nikerret
11-05-2011, 16:15
Just checking in......kind of thought there would be some update pics......just sayin' :wavey:

MedicOni
11-05-2011, 16:18
Best wishes man. I went through this with my late girlfriends daughter back in January. Not a fun thing. Hope everything gets better!

S.O.Interceptor
11-05-2011, 16:51
I don't know how I missed this thread before, but congratulations Doogie!!!

My son spent the first several weeks of his life in the NICU after we only got to hold him for a few seconds. He had some surgeries and we were losing our minds the whole time. Now a couple of years later he's in the hallway tearing up out house and harassing his sisters. Hang in there and she'll be in your arms soon enough. And once she is, you have a couple of weeks worth of hugs, snuggles, and love to make up for.

God Bless Baby Elli!!!

9L82
11-05-2011, 19:16
This won't be the last time she causes you sleepless nights, wait till she grows up. God bless you and your family, stay strong for your angel.

DoogieHowser
11-05-2011, 20:14
Pics!
Today
http://a3.img.mobypicture.com/47a53a788d242e4deaa5e35d84297b5b_view.jpg

Yesterday w/cpap
http://a1.img.mobypicture.com/75d2fe8c6dd3204ab19cf0f8ce211581_view.jpg

Yesterday Before CPAP
http://a0.img.mobypicture.com/28f349d31e286d3dbb4cc050ed7e02c3_view.jpg

I've got better ones but my netbook doesn't handle RAW files from my 5D

ArmaGlock
11-05-2011, 21:21
Prayers out.

Newcop761
11-05-2011, 21:33
Progress! She looks like a little fighter!

Keeping you in my thoughts.

stk10767
11-05-2011, 22:09
Anything you need brother, just PM me. Prayers sent and congrats!

DoogieHowser
11-05-2011, 22:19
PICU just called and told us that they had to re-intubate Elliana, they have also sent out some cultures to check for any infection. Apparently, with the canula she was starting to get pretty tired and wasn't breathing quite as well. Since it takes awhile for the cultures to come back they went ahead and started her on an antibiotic. For those of you going to church tomorrow please pass this along, thanks.

4949shooter
11-06-2011, 03:19
Saying a prayer for Elliana..

OldCurlyWolf
11-06-2011, 05:48
I have an inkling of what is happening. Hang in there.

January 22, 2007, Clear Lake Hospital, Clear Lake Texas. My daughter had a daughter, 12" Long, 1 lb. 12 Oz., Much Premature, due May 10, 2007. She was released from the NICU in April of that year.

Now a full of vinegar near 5 year old pretty little girl. Waiting for the next one which is also due in May.

Hack
11-06-2011, 08:14
Will be praying for her and y'all as well.

fran m
11-06-2011, 08:36
Best wishes and prayers for a great outcome. Hope that the above is just a small setback, if that. and that she gets stronger and breathes better.

maddog3241
11-06-2011, 17:23
This is Caleb, he is 14 months old, he was born with the same problems as your daughter. I was playing with him today, he is such a cool little guy. He has had 4 open heart surgeries, 3 by the time he was 3 weeks old, and the 4th at 6 months. He is facing one more this coming Feb. but then he is done he is my nephew. God be with you, you are still in my families prayers.

Edit to add: If you or your wife would like to read more about what my brother and sister in law went thru, she wrote a blog thru the ordeal, it seemed to help her deal with it all, as she was 120 miles from home, where her other 3 kids and husband were. Here is the link to the blog she wrote. http://www.doughertyupdate.blogspot.com/

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-jTEmyxgeoU0/Tp-Fqh79R9I/AAAAAAAAAV0/5_U9Ji_dpLs/s1600/Caleb%2B10-18-11%2B3.jpg

ranger1444
11-06-2011, 23:40
Me and my buddy Phoenix (2.5 years old):
http://glocktalk.com/forums/[IMG]http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d169/MRC5184/4c3d89ab.jpghttp://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d169/MRC5184/4c3d89ab.jpg
Had a heart transplant due to HLHS a little under 7 months ago. You would never know it with the energy that he has. When ever I am back home and I go out with his parents he is the one that always gets the girls...

Prayers still being sent your way!!

deadcalm4u
11-08-2011, 17:31
Damn man. Prayers Elli's way ASAP. Hell of a way to start life. Your daughter and your family are in my family's thoughts.:crying:May the good Lord take care of her in her time of need, and you and your family.

deadcalm4u
11-08-2011, 17:33
Very true. The neonatal team that I fly picks up the sickest kids in the world. I have literally watched them take a 30 week gestation baby in the palm of their hands to place it into my helicopter. That same baby was brought by our hangar 4 years later as a smiling pre-K kid even after weeks on the ecmo machine.


Best of luck, wishes and most importantly prayers to you Colt.

You are awesome, Sir.

glockbob
11-08-2011, 22:22
I will keep Elli, you, and your family in my thoughts and prayers. My wife and I just had our first child on 10-18-11. Holding my sleeping son in one arm right now, typing, and wiping tears with other.

Prayers that you soon will get to spend many nights holding and rocking Elli to sleep.

Bob

DoogieHowser
11-09-2011, 10:04
Thanks everyone for all your prayers and thoughts, it's good to see success stories! I'm back at home for the day trying to take care of some paperwork.

andy4731
11-09-2011, 20:03
Congratulations on your new child and prayers for her continued improvement!

PinkoCommie
11-09-2011, 21:49
Thanks everyone for all your prayers and thoughts, it's good to see success stories! I'm back at home for the day trying to take care of some paperwork.

Take a moment for yourself, too. Remember -- you are the engine that keeps your wife and daughter going now. If you don't do some basic maintenance (slow down, take a breath), you might just run into some "mechanical issues". Take a break, recharge, and get back to it.

Oh, and squeeze that little girl from us when you get a chance!

PuroMexicano
11-10-2011, 12:14
How's the little Elliana doing today?

Still wishing her the best!

DoogieHowser
11-20-2011, 12:40
http://fbcdn-sphotos-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/392846_10150949985610133_502730132_21648938_1069677555_n.jpg

Sorry it's been so long, many a long day at the hospital and I kept getting distracted when I meant to type things up.

Updates from my facebook in reverse order, the week has gotten better it was kind of rough for a bit. We have a lot longer stay than we had hoped.

Wendy Sergent Freeman
November 19, 2011

Our sweet little Elliana spent her day today resting under mommy’s hand; being comforted by patting her back and stroking her soft little head after being turned from her back to her side. She is beautiful and so brave. She had her eyes open and was listening to Sarah for about 15 minutes today which is a very rare occurrence…this was a cherished moment for Sarah. She and Colt have yet to hold her and every little moment of alertness brings joy and sometimes pain…pain from desiring to lift her up and cover her face with kisses and knowing she can’t until vent is out.

Today her daily I&O status is in the ‘negative range’…a term the medical staff uses to describe her output of fluids being more than her intake of fluids. Negative range is where Elli needs to be to improve her edema. The medical staff is in agreement that they do not want to ‘tap’ her (remove fluid from her chest cavity by needle aspiration) since the effusion is too near her posterior left lung. Continuing the use of diuretics and dobutamine appear to be achieving this negative range and the doctors will continue this treatment until it proves ineffective for her.

The addition of a morphine drip was added to her medications today to keep her calm. Because of her age she is becoming more alert and this morning was pulling at her ventilator tube and turning her head side to side. It is bothersome for Elli to have a tube down her throat and down her nose (Nasogastric tube). When they reposition her periodically, the NG tube probably tickles the back of her throat and the vent becomes aggravating. Her ability to pull at the tube and turn her head could dislodge the vent which is definitely a bad idea. The morphine will be discontinued after extubation of vent.

Her labs and blood gases were within normal limits today except for minor adjustments to potassium and magnesium levels which are related to diuretic use. She is tolerating her TPN nutrition and they are increasing the protein levels within this infusion to help her gain strength. She continues on medications same as yesterday.

Specific prayer same as yesterday:
1) Edema to subside and not continue to occur.
2) Blood clots to be absorbed by body and not travel and for no others to develop.
3) Remain infection free.
4) Lymphatic system to heal.
5) Wean off ventilator permanently.
6) No further complications to healing.

We are thankful for these moments with her and continue to thank you on her behalf for your support of and prayer for her. Every moment is a miracle. Bless you. Wendy, Larry, Colt, Sarah, and Elliana.

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Colt Freeman
So MRI is complete, I'll have a disk eventually that has all the images; essentially the lung vein is fine. The chylothorax has dumped a fair amount of fluid on the left chest, more than the x-rays showed so they are trying to figure out what to do with that. Doesn't look like we'll need a cath which is great, less risk of kidney toxicity especially after the gadolinium.

With the blood clot in her right venacava it's a chicken/egg problem. The clot could have been caused by the increased proteins and fats running around due to the lymphatic system disturbance OR the clot could have been caused by the catheters from surgery and the increased pressure caused the chylothorax.

We also learned most likely the reason she developed HLHS is due to the septum that divides the heart. It grew longer than it was supposed to and diverted some blood flow to the right side rather than allowing it all to the mitral.
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Wendy Sergent Freeman
Nov 18, 2011 10:30pm

Elliana had an MRI this afternoon to determine if there were any problems in her chest that could not be seen by the ultrasound. The report was “unremarkable with no surprises,” stated one of her physicians. Though this may seem frustrating because we still are not sure why she is so edematous and hoped to find it with this procedure, it is still apparent that the heart is continuing to work as it is supposed to after surgery…this is good.

She has one small, non-obstructive, blood clot in each subclavian vein which are being watched and also treated with Lovenox by subcutaneous injection daily. They do not seem to be overly concerned with these small clots.

The fluid in her posterior chest cavity is still being treated as a chylothorax. They have taken her off the special low fat enteral formula and have started her on total parenteral nutrition (TPN) for a couple of weeks to let her ‘gut’ rest. The hope for this treatment is that the lymphatic system will heal, reduce the dumping of lymph and chyle into her thorax; thereby reducing the fluid build-up. If after a couple of weeks her edema has lessened, they will reintroduce the special enteral formula for a couple of weeks and then possibly introduce breast-milk once again. It is a process of elimination and reintroduction, monitoring her edema and going with what she tolerates and doesn’t tolerate.

She continues on milrinone, dobutamine, lasix, diurel, fentanyl, ativan, protonix like medicine (can’t remember name tonight) and methadone. These medications are used to keep her calm and not fight the breathing tube, increase cardiac output, reduce edema, and protect her stomach from getting an ulcer.

The plan of care is to continue with these treatments to reduce edema and chylothorax, monitor progress, and get her off the ventilator as soon as possible. So we pray, wait, watch, laugh at her beautiful long fingers and toes, and be amazed at the beauty of this lovely creation :)

Specific prayer:

1) Edema to subside and not continue to occur.

2) Blood clots to be absorbed by body and not travel and for no others to develop.

3) Remain infection free.

4) Lymphatic system to heal.

5) Wean off ventilator permanently.

6) No further complications to healing.

Thank you all for your love, support, encouragement, and prayers…we appreciate you so much….Wendy, Larry, Colt and Sarah
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Wendy Sergent Freeman
November 17, 2011 6:00pm Update
Elliana continues to hold excess fluid: they are giving her diuretics; dobutamine; and millirone to combat this and improve heart function. The doctors have done blood chemistry's on Elli and are replacing all components that they find are low: IgG (immune antibodies); electrolytes; and yesterday some blood for low hct and rbc’s.

The plan is to continue treatment as listed above and tomorrow give her an MRI to get a better look inside of her where the ultrasound has been unable to pinpoint any problems. She will remain on the ventilator with just a little positive pressure to give her more volume as she takes her own breaths. This pressure will not harm her chances of getting off the ventilator, just gives her a little “push” with each breath so she doesn’t get too tired from breathing.

After the MRI tomorrow the team will again evaluate her status and most likely schedule a cardiac cath early next week for further investigation; especially looking at her pulmonary vein…which if too narrow can cause pressure to build and fluid to pool.

So much for a little one of 3 weeks old. We are well; but, as you can imagine are weary of wondering how long she must face procedures and pricks and prodding. Our faith provides ‘Hope, Endurance, and Strength that is not our own’ yet our bodies long for time to hold precious Ellie. A time to laugh and snuggle with her when she is not encumbered with tubes, lines, and telemetry. Yet, we are willing to wait as long as it takes.

Thank you again precious family and friends…our love and prayers for you all…Wendy Sergent Freeman
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Colt Freeman
Blog update sometime today if I can concentrate at some point. The doc's think Elliana Freeman has a Pnumo-Chylothorax, which is lymphatic fluid leaking essential fats into the plural cavity (lung/chest area). They have switched her to Infamil a special midlength (simple fats rather than long chain fats) for the time being to see if that will give the lymphatic system time to heal.
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PinkoCommie
11-20-2011, 12:54
I've got everything I need in my life. Sure, there are things I would like, but my needs are covered. The one thing I would really like for Christmas/birthday is for Elliana to kick ass and pull through. A year from now, I'd like to read a post from you that says something like "Remember last November? Yeah, that was some scary stuff. Glad it's behind us!".

My best to you you and your family. Keep us posted, as always.

:thumbsup:

use2b6L32
11-20-2011, 13:05
Congrats Colt! And prayers for Elliana's continued improvement. May she get well soon.

RLB
11-20-2011, 17:02
May you and your family find strength in each other. Prayers for Eli and your family.
She is a beautiful little lady

Agent6-3/8
11-20-2011, 20:51
More prayers on the way, sir! Keep us posted! :angel:

cowboywannabe
11-20-2011, 21:40
may God look over her.

PuroMexicano
11-20-2011, 22:35
Still praying for your little fighter!!!

CJStudent
11-20-2011, 23:16
Still praying, man! Thanks for the updates!

Drgnracin72
11-20-2011, 23:35
congrats on the new little one. definitely sending your prayers your way. could not imagine going through something like this.

DoogieHowser
11-21-2011, 11:40
Thanks everyone, she's looking a lot better today she's gotten a lot of the fluid off hoping to remove from vent soon.

Hack
11-21-2011, 12:06
Thanks everyone, she's looking a lot better today she's gotten a lot of the fluid off hoping to remove from vent soon.

Very good to hear.

4949shooter
11-21-2011, 14:42
Thanks everyone, she's looking a lot better today she's gotten a lot of the fluid off hoping to remove from vent soon.

That's great news!

bophi
11-21-2011, 14:50
GOD BLESS, you have our prayers, she 'll pull thru.:wavey:

glockbob
11-21-2011, 18:17
Glad to hear Elli is looking better. Keep us posted on Elli's condition.

By the way your photos of Elli and family are very nice, keep posting those nice photos.

CJStudent
11-21-2011, 23:38
Glad to hear it, man!

DoogieHowser
11-22-2011, 11:08
Came in today and now she's on antibiotics as the blood culture they took last night showed she's got an infection. Shouldn't be a huge issue but it does delay things probably another week. Today marks the 1 month mark in about an hour. Asked about holding her and it's still a no go until they remove the arterial line which won't happen till we are almost ready for discharge. Moving forward albeit at a incredibly slow rate.

DaBigBR
11-22-2011, 15:02
Forward progress is forward progress.

packsaddle
11-22-2011, 16:03
Hang in there, bro.

Keep us advised.

DoogieHowser
11-28-2011, 12:58
Just wheeled her to the Cath lab, please pray that no interventions are needed and that they can figure out why she has stalled in her progression. They will also need to re-place her arterial line in her right leg due that it infiltrated.

m2hmghb
11-28-2011, 13:06
Prayers continue to be sent for her full and complete recovery. Hang in there man!

4949shooter
11-28-2011, 14:39
Yes, prayers daily..

OfficerChris
11-28-2011, 15:06
I wish you the best, prayers sent.. just might take a while, since I am in Europe:)

DoogieHowser
11-28-2011, 15:31
Just got her back from cath lab. Good News:She didn't have any complications. Bad News: Her left pulmonary veins and arteries are not doing much at all. She also clots really easily and still has some clots even on lovenox. Prognosis is sit and wait till she grows bigger... Hoping we don't have to trach her though we would be able to hold her more.

During the procedure they accidentally pulled out her periphial IV on her head. They put another in but it ended up in an artery. Made it easy to remove the A line that went bad in her right foot but now they left in the arterial and venous sheath in her right fem which they don't normally do.

Dr. Gyrokumar did the cath which is good since we knew her and she knew Elli well. She's supposed to come back in a bit. Dr. Kicker should pop by soon and give us an update of the plan.

Bad news is I'll probably have to go back to work here shortly, and it may be a month or more again till she gets a discharge. I'm patient but it's really starting to run out! :(

Thanks everyone it's always good to see peoples posts...

Doc8404
11-28-2011, 16:14
brother, hope and prayers for you and your family. How's the rest of the clan holding up?

ArmaGlock
11-28-2011, 17:39
Still praying for your daughter, your family, and YOU! Hang in there, keep the faith.

DoogieHowser
11-28-2011, 17:50
Sooo we heard from the Docs, They have to move the A line that the cath lab established as Arterial lines in the scalp have the habit of messing up the face if they have problems. So tonight she's getting a new A line in the left leg and a new periphial IV as she currently has the two venus and arterial sheaths leftover from the cath. Those have to go ASAP since it's not helping her right leg heal from the infiltrate.

Family meeting will be scheduled soon this week to get all the department heads together with us to discuss what the new plan is. I was hoping for boring...

As far as me; I was doing better before today and my primary focus is making sure the docs and nurses are caring for her in the best possible way along with keeping my wife as upbeat as possible. It's starting to wear pretty good on me which is odd since I'm normally pretty even keel but this is testing my limits pretty good. I'm just having to start thinking about going back to work which isn't a good thought in trying to keep my wife going. Thankfully my parents moved to VA from OR so they have been up here with us and would be with my wife even while I was working. I'm about to go crazy though, havn't had anything to do; went hunting all week last week and that helped some but got nothing which was irritating. I'm supposed to be doing some CE hours while I'm off but I'm so distracted at the hospital it's not getting done.

Newcop761
11-28-2011, 21:57
More prayers for Elli, your wife, and you.

Keep the faith.

janice6
11-28-2011, 22:18
I'm praying for you and your little girl. Hope you get to introduce Santa to a new follower soon.

Good luck and Keep the faith.

OfficerChris
11-29-2011, 06:21
Even more good luck from me.

windancr
11-29-2011, 19:45
Prayers for her, you, your family and baby's medical care team.
Keep us posted on her progress.
Almost fifty years ago, this month, at 22 weeks pregnant, I gave birth to
my daughter. She is a wonderful woman, person and my favorite daughter.
(only one)

Cochese
11-29-2011, 20:04
Still praying, buddy!

steveksux
11-29-2011, 21:47
Congrats, and know that we're all pulling for her, and you...

Randy

Hack
11-29-2011, 22:07
Definitely keeping you all in prayer. I know it's rough. I would not wish to go through it, nor do I envy you.

I would like to believe there is a purpose and a plan for all of this, regardless of how crazy it seems. But, regardless of a lack of answers and anything to tell you I would say that reading the book of Job if you want to learn more about patience could be educational. And, balance it out by knowing that God looks after His own and has a purpose for everything we all go through. In being thankful for her continued life on earth, even though she is weathering through those burdens on her young body. She is alive, and therefore there is expectation that with God's help, intervention, and the miracles of modern medicine she will some how pull through.

A passage of Scripture which I hope will minister to you all:
James 5:13-20
New International Version (NIV)
The Prayer of Faith

13 Is anyone among you in trouble? Let them pray. Is anyone happy? Let them sing songs of praise. 14 Is anyone among you sick? Let them call the elders of the church to pray over them and anoint them with oil in the name of the Lord. 15 And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up. If they have sinned, they will be forgiven. 16 Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
17 Elijah was a human being, even as we are. He prayed earnestly that it would not rain, and it did not rain on the land for three and a half years. 18 Again he prayed, and the heavens gave rain, and the earth produced its crops.

19 My brothers and sisters, if one of you should wander from the truth and someone should bring that person back, 20 remember this: Whoever turns a sinner from the error of their way will save them from death and cover over a multitude of sins.

DoogieHowser
11-30-2011, 10:14
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DoogieHowser
11-30-2011, 10:18
She was pretty photophobic and auditory sensitive while we were in the bay with three others.
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We've found it easier to update a facebook group, if you'd like to follow we are here (https://www.facebook.com/groups/243917102335217/). I'll still be posting mini updates here. (and whatever I don't want my wife to read)

DoogieHowser
11-30-2011, 10:31
Colt Freeman
Just wheeled her to the Cath lab, please pray that no interventions are needed and that they can figure out why she has stalled in her progression. They will also need to re-place her arterial line in her right leg due that it infiltrated.
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Colt Freeman
Just got her back from cath lab. Good News:She didn't have any complications. Bad News: Her left pulmonary veins and arteries are not doing much at all. She also clots really easily and still has some clots even on lovenox. Prognosis is sit and wait till she grows bigger... Hoping we don't have to trach her though we would be able to hold her more.

During the procedure they accidentally pulled out her periphial IV on her head. They put another in but it ended up in an artery. Made it easy to remove the A line that went bad in her right foot but now they left in the arterial and venous sheath in her right fem which they don't normally do.

Dr. Gyrokumar did the cath which is good since we knew her and she knew Elli well. She's supposed to come back in a bit. Dr. Kicker should pop by soon and give us an update of the plan.
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Colt Freeman
Sooo we heard from the Docs, They have to move the A line that the cath lab established as Arterial lines in the scalp have the habit of messing up the face if they have problems. So tonight she's getting a new A line in the left leg and a new periphial IV as she currently has the two venus and arterial sheaths leftover from the cath. Those have to go ASAP since it's not helping her right leg heal from the infiltrate.

Family meeting will be scheduled soon this week to get all the department heads together with us to discuss what the new plan is. I was hoping for boring...
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IGotIt
11-30-2011, 10:37
Doogie, she looks like a fighter. Keep your spirits up. Thoughts and prayers go to to the little sweetie, you and your family.

Some of us aren't on facebook, so keep us neanderthals updated please.

4949shooter
11-30-2011, 13:51
She has cute little eyes.

More prayers on the way!

Hunca Munca
11-30-2011, 14:04
One day at a time......

PuroMexicano
11-30-2011, 18:33
More prayers sent!

Hack
11-30-2011, 21:27
More prayer on the way brother.

PinkoCommie
12-01-2011, 10:03
Any updates? I'm hoping for an early Christmas miracle here... Please, Santa, I just want Elliana to kick some serious butt, get healthy quickly, and give her daddy hell for years to come ;)

DoogieHowser
12-01-2011, 10:34
Any updates? I'm hoping for an early Christmas miracle here... Please, Santa, I just want Elliana to kick some serious butt, get healthy quickly, and give her daddy hell for years to come ;)

Nothing today yet, I'm 1.5hrs away at the moment had to go home and to make sure things were good at the house, clean some and try and keep it from looking unoccupied. Leaving it for over a month empty isn't the best.

I'm waiting for a call back for my update, we've got a big meeting tomorrow afternoon that will hopefully paint a picture of what's upcoming. I've got the sinking feeling that likely they will tell us that the only thing they can do for now is to support her while she grows in hope that her pulmonary veins grow. That means they will likely give her a tracheotomy rather than leaving her with the tube.

Hunca Munca
12-01-2011, 14:55
Don't get too down over a tracheostomy. The ET tube can't stay in forever as it can cause problems on its own. The trach might actually make things easier in the interim, and you will be able to see her little face without that big tube in there!

Prayers inbound!

Dalton Wayne
12-01-2011, 15:42
I will say a prayer every day for her and your family
good luck and God speed on recovery

DoogieHowser
12-01-2011, 16:34
I know the trache will actually help (We first respond to all EMS calls so my primary role is medic) but it's a sure sign we arn't getting out anytime soon and I've got to get back to work in the near future. Can't afford to burn time that I'll need 5mo from now when she goes back for the Glen surgery...:faint:

dmjonez
12-01-2011, 16:55
I just spotted this thread, and I'll join in with my prayers. God be with you all.

glockbob
12-01-2011, 19:45
Elli is so cute. I hope she continues to fight, she looks like she is growing quite a lot.

Weight?

I really like your photos. I know its more the photographer than the camera, but what are you shooting with? Lense?

Keeping Elli and your family in my thoughts.

sdsnet
12-01-2011, 19:53
Congratulations on the birth of your daughter and prayers already sent ! My wife and I will both say prayers for her every evening when we check this thread for updates.

Steve

DoogieHowser
12-01-2011, 21:39
She's right around the 8lb mark right now but some of that is water, her nutrition has been mainly IV fluids and they are working up a special formula right now though my wife is pumping like a mad women for whenever she can switch over.

I do wedding photography on the side so I took up my favorite setup 5D and a 35L.

Thanks all!

use2b6L32
12-02-2011, 01:24
Continued prayers for your little girl, Colt. Seeing the pictures of her are heartbreaking to me. She seems like she's a little fighter and I hope she keeps fighting.

OfficerChris
12-02-2011, 04:56
very good photos, again good luck with everything

DoogieHowser
12-07-2011, 21:09
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She's had a MARKED improvement yesterday and today. Got the Trache in yesterday and she's been doing very well on the respiratory side, off the morphine today and has been getting rid of some fluid. We were surprised and very happy that the day before surgery she was -160ml down, day of the surgery she was -60 and today was +15 which is a huge improvement of last week where she was hovering around +50-200. Her liver has shrunk as well showing an improvement of her cardiac output!

PinkoCommie
12-07-2011, 21:16
You made my day. This is great news!

glockbob
12-07-2011, 22:55
Elli is looking so cute. Hope she continues to improve.

OfficerChris
12-08-2011, 01:30
great news!

CJStudent
12-08-2011, 07:34
Awesome! Glad to hear it man!

Hack
12-08-2011, 08:54
That is some good news. Praying for continued healing.

HeliGlock
12-08-2011, 09:41
Prayers being sent that your Daughter makes a full Recovery. Congratulations to you both. Tom.

PuroMexicano
12-08-2011, 10:52
Great news, hopefully we'll hear more good news from now on!!!

DoogieHowser
12-10-2011, 21:48
Wife and I went home afternoon Thur and we got a phone call Fri that things had a quick downturn and we rushed back up. I spent the night Fri and Sarah and my Mom were here during the day today and I'm back tonight. She's come close several times over the last two days and they are not entirely sure whats going on,

They are glad I'm here at night and the early mornings because they can talk to me without upsetting Sarah. They have started talking to me about the possibilities of just keeping her comfortable and letting us hold her if they can't keep her stable.

She had a mostly good day today and then had some difficulties after Sarah left and improved when I got here. I'm not liking this one bit, and feel a bit under the gun since I'm going back to work in 9 days. I could go longer but I don't want to drain our savings too much since I've been on the family medical leave act for the last two months now.

I was trying to get some time to just rest some and recover some with Sarah this week with her doing so well on the trache but now I can't really take the time to rest since she's in such fragile condition. Mine and her family are all medical and we are all just trying to ignore things and not talk about it... Prayers are appreciated, it does help to type some of this out.

Thanks all...

OfficerChris
12-11-2011, 04:12
Prayers sent, I wish you the best and a big christmas miracle for your daughter

4949shooter
12-11-2011, 04:26
More prayers en route..

Agent6-3/8
12-11-2011, 07:13
Prayers on the way, my friend.

Sam Spade
12-11-2011, 08:05
I can't believe I missed this before. I'm sorry.

Congratulations! And prayers sent for you and your family.

CJStudent
12-11-2011, 09:06
More prayers en route, my friend.

PinkoCommie
12-11-2011, 09:26
I think about Elli and your family every day. I keep hoping for the best. Make sure you hold her whenever you can. A parent's touch can do amazing things!

G27Chief
12-11-2011, 10:06
Prayers for baby Elli, and for you and Sarah.
Keep us updated.

Newcop761
12-11-2011, 11:32
More prayers en route for Elli, Sarah, and you.

PinkoCommie
12-11-2011, 13:17
Here:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-1306283/Miracle-premature-baby-declared-dead-doctors-revived-mothers-touch.html

DoogieHowser
12-12-2011, 05:17
She's survived the weekend and today will be a big Doc powow, she's blowing up like a balloon due to all the emergency meds they have to push to keep her BP up. She's on some very caustic drugs like bicarb and she keeps blowing her PIV's because of that.

The docs are starting to be less optomistic but I'm not ready for that, I'm trying to be here as much as possible.

As far as holding her I want to do that more than anything but I'm unable to do so because her IV's and her ventilator are so fragile. I held her once 2 days after birth and haven't been able to since. Sarah was able to last Monday but that was only her second time and I wasn't about to jump in and try and hold her then. I wanted her to have as much time as they would give her.

We're walking the razor edge, she essentially coded on Fri and came close Fri night. Her blood gasses are better this morning so she's rebounding some which is good. I'm beat though, went 48hrs with 7hrs of sleep due to the code on Fri got 12hrs last night so I'm good now but I'm hitting the wall.

OfficerChris
12-12-2011, 06:04
I wish I could help you somehow except sending you prayers.

PuroMexicano
12-12-2011, 09:56
I'm sorry I can't do more than pray, but believe me I'm doing it and hoping for a miracle. God bless the little Elliana.

ranger1444
12-12-2011, 10:43
Lots more prayers heading your way.

Have you looked into transferring to a different hospital? My friend's son who has HLHS was treated and received a heart transplant at Childrens Hospital Boston, and from what she says, "They saved a little hlhs boy who was on his deathbed in alabama" (a boy they met while her son was being treated). If you want to get in touch with her, she is more than willing to lend any help she can.

drider
12-12-2011, 11:08
Wish your baby nothing but the best in a strong recovery! But be at rest knowing she's in the best care!

PinkoCommie
12-12-2011, 11:40
Doogie, you've got more people standing by your side than you can imagine. I don't normally pray -- not much of a believer in any sort of higher power. But I pulled out all the stops this time. At the very worst, my prayers can't hurt the situation, and who knows, maybe they'll help.

I have everything I need in my life right now. The only thing I really want is for this one little girl I've never met to get better really soon. Please.

DoogieHowser
12-12-2011, 12:25
Thanks guys, she blew her other PIV and they tried to get another one and couldn't. An emergency central line is going in shortly, have a meeting at 3 with the docs.

Ranger unfortuantly she isn't anywhere near stable enough to survive transport, they don't want to even move her to the OR for the new central line.

It does help to hear from all of you, my family is here with us and some of hers but her parents have only come up once and her sister just had a new baby boy on Fri so most of her family has flocked there.

I'm trying not to get to the angry point where I just lash out at people but I'm tired of not being able to fix things, I'm always able to and this is out of my hands and into God's.

ranger1444
12-12-2011, 12:31
I figured as much. Praying for her, you, and the families.

Keep the faith brother...

GearGuru
12-12-2011, 12:36
My man, I understand, years ago my son was born with a birth defect and we found out about the same gestation time as you. We were scared as Hades. He is now a happy healthy 13 year old Fullback who can outshoot his old man. You and your family our in our prayers, God will take care of that pretty little girl, I know what its like living in the hospital for some time, make sure you get some time for you and your wife to recharge. God Bless brother.....

x_out86
12-12-2011, 13:49
Hang in there Doogie. All you can do is take it hour by hour, and day by day. I learned that with out little one when he was in the in NICU.

We thought things were going well when he was first born, only to have setbacks like a pneumothorax in one lung, a chest tube put it, partially collapsed lung on the other side, being intubated 2 different times, a central line being put in, jaundice, low blood gas numbers, and on and on.

All you can do is just let it ride and pray for the best. I did this for about 9 weeks before our little guy was able to come home. He still is on Oxygen, and has been home for 4 weeks now.

Should you need to talk, I am here for you man. Sounds like you little girl has had a few more bumps along the road then we dealt with, but I know what you are going through. Best of luck to you and you family.

DoogieHowser
12-12-2011, 14:10
Well the docs are thinking palliative care they don't see her surviving long term. Not sure how I am going to tell my wife.

drider
12-12-2011, 14:23
As much as docs know, please don't let their word be golden. The human body is strong!

4949shooter
12-12-2011, 14:39
Hang in there, Brother.

We are all pulling for the three of you.

Kadetklapp
12-12-2011, 14:48
Prayers to you guys. What a tough time...

glockbob
12-12-2011, 21:36
I will continue to pray for your daughter and your family. My only wish for the holidays is for your daughter to continue fighting.

G27Chief
12-12-2011, 21:41
I will continue to pray for all of you, we are here for you.

DoogieHowser
12-13-2011, 21:54
This morning we held our daughter one last time, this is what I posted to friends and family just moments ago. I saw a quote earlier today that I think is apt: “I have lost my child and a hole has been ripped in the universe. Neither I, nor the universe can be the same. We shall mourn our losses together.”

Thank you everyone for your warm wishes and prayers, please bear with us as we learn this process and make arrangements. It is likely that we will not be replying individually to you all though we would like to. Please don't feel that our withdrawal is anything personal we just need some time to rejoice the time we had with her and mourn the time we wished to have.

We are so proud of our little Elli, and the fighter that she continually proved to be. Elliana amazed the Doctors and Nurses daily with her resolve to breath on her own, through paralytics and sedation. To respond to her Mother's voice and to hold her hand when it should have been impossible. To capture our hearts forever.

To hold her in our arms today was a privilege and even in the midst of such sorrow we cherish every moment. Pastor Steven said to me today that we walked her to the gates. I can think of no higher honor.

maddog3241
12-13-2011, 21:57
Words can never be enough. YOU and your family are in my families prayers. God bless.

Agent6-3/8
12-13-2011, 22:01
I'm terribly sorry to be reading this, Doogie...:crying:


I'll continue to keep you and your entire family in my prayers. God bless, my friend. :angel:

G27Chief
12-13-2011, 22:07
I am so sorry. You and you family are in our thoughts and prayers.

ranger1444
12-13-2011, 22:16
Sorry to hear about this, words cannot describe the sorrow you must feel. You and your family will be in my prayers. Take time for yourself and to be with your wife in these next few days / weeks.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
-Matthew 6:34

Sidhe
12-13-2011, 22:41
My friend,

I am so sorry. I posted to FB as well, but saw this in the post lists. I'm crying for you and yours and hope that you and the Missus find solace.

:sadangel:

Sgt127
12-13-2011, 23:03
I am so sorry.

Cochese
12-13-2011, 23:19
I weep for you Colt, as I sit here.

I'm so sorry brother. I don't even know what to say.

m2hmghb
12-13-2011, 23:42
I'm sorry for your loss. Words fail me.

RMolina628
12-14-2011, 03:23
I am deeply sorry for your loss. May the angels welcome her to paradise...

CJStudent
12-14-2011, 03:43
I posted on fb, too, but I'll say the same on here. You and the missus are still in my prayers, and I'm still here for y'all, even if you just need someone to vent at.

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PinkoCommie
12-14-2011, 05:32
I never knew Elliana, and yet my heart is broken. Your family is in my thoughts.

TKOFaith
12-14-2011, 06:44
I'm so very sorry for your loss. I know that my words cannot begin to touch the deep grief that you and your wife now know. I'll be praying for you both.

Naelbis
12-14-2011, 06:54
I am so sorry for your loss...to lose a child is a terrible thing. Take comfort in knowing that you will see her again one day. May the peace of God be with you and your wife during this trying time.

OfficerChris
12-14-2011, 07:44
I am very sorry for your loss and really sad to hear this news. Prayers for you, your family and your little daugther.

Kadetklapp
12-14-2011, 07:47
Damn. So sorry for you and your wife. Prayers.

Horror
12-14-2011, 10:53
:sadangel:

I'm so sorry.

windancr
12-14-2011, 12:46
I am so very sorry. Our prayers are with you and yours.

BailRecoveryAgent
12-14-2011, 12:50
Wow, I am so sorry to hear this. My prayers are with you and your wife.

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4949shooter
12-14-2011, 13:03
May your little fighter rest peacefully.

:sadangel:

DVeng
12-14-2011, 14:36
Thoughts and prayers inbound. I am so sorry for your loss.

Pinki
12-14-2011, 18:08
I'm so sorry for your loss :sadangel: May she rest in peace..

DaBigBR
12-14-2011, 18:25
I'm sorry, dude. We all love you here. Reach out if you need anything.

Patchman
12-14-2011, 18:29
I can't think of anything to say, except sorry for you loss. And I know those words are inadequate.

9L82
12-14-2011, 19:38
I am so sorry my friend, your angel was lucky to have you as her daddy. Stay strong and let us know if you need anything.

glockbob
12-14-2011, 19:56
I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Elliana. I will keep you and your wife in my thoughts and prayers. The world has lost one tough little baby girl.

Stay strong. May Elliana always watch over her dad.

Don't cry for Me Daddy


Don't cry for me Daddy,
I'm right here.
Although you can't see me
I see your tears.
I visit you often,
I go to work with you each day,
And when it's time for you
to close your eyes ,
On your pillow is where I lay.
I hold your hand &
stroke your hair,
And whisper in your ear.
If you're sad today Daddy,
Remember, I am here.
God took me home.
This we know is true.
But you'll always be My Daddy
Even though I'm not with you.
We will never be apart,
For everytime you think of me,
Please know I'm in your Heart..........
~Author Unknown

SPG
12-14-2011, 19:56
My prayers and condolences Brother

Hack
12-14-2011, 21:25
My prayers for you and your wife, and family. Brother I know it's hard. I am glad for you that you have been able to look at it from the perspective of being able to be there for her, to walk her to Heaven. Yet, I am definitely sad for you all as well. I think you may know where I am at on Facebook. If not, get with Horror, CJ Student, Russ, or RMolina for that matter and they will point me out to you. Reach out for prayer, and know that we're with you.

Newcop761
12-14-2011, 21:33
I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers and condolences to you and your wife.
:sadangel:

PuroMexicano
12-29-2011, 19:45
My friend, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm praying for you to bear this pain.

Sam Spade
12-30-2011, 18:31
"Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." I pray for God's peace to be on you and your family.

Truckee
12-30-2011, 19:10
Prayers Doogie... my heart is heavy for you and your family.

dooga
12-30-2011, 19:20
God bless you. Godspeed and peace to you and yours.

Hunca Munca
12-31-2011, 15:44
Oh I am so very sorry.......

Vigilant
12-31-2011, 19:32
God bless you, sir. Prayers inbound tonight.

thinkfast
01-01-2012, 21:26
Your photography and updates were inspiring. In a classy and gentlemanly way you shared your peaks & valleys of optimism and doubt. I'm sure you and her mom will treasure those pics forever. May you and your family find peace.

When you've had time to sort this all out please post a charity or foundation of your choice that helps little babies like yours--many of us would love to donate in Elli's name in hopes that someday, no parents will ever have to go through this again.

Cochese
01-02-2012, 14:35
Your photography and updates were inspiring. In a classy and gentlemanly way you shared your peaks & valleys of optimism and doubt. I'm sure you and her mom will treasure those pics forever. May you and your family find peace.

When you've had time to sort this all out please post a charity or foundation of your choice that helps little babies like yours--many of us would love to donate in Elli's name in hopes that someday, no parents will ever have to go through this again.

What an excellent post.

Needs repeating.

G27Chief
01-02-2012, 22:57
What an excellent post.

Needs repeating.

Yes it is excellent, and very worthy of repeating.

CJStudent
01-03-2012, 05:51
Your photography and updates were inspiring. In a classy and gentlemanly way you shared your peaks & valleys of optimism and doubt. I'm sure you and her mom will treasure those pics forever. May you and your family find peace.

When you've had time to sort this all out please post a charity or foundation of your choice that helps little babies like yours--many of us would love to donate in Elli's name in hopes that someday, no parents will ever have to go through this again.

Amen.

DoogieHowser
01-04-2012, 10:26
I dropped off the internet map for awhile but am re-integrating now with restarting work again. I've been avoiding it but I'm going to write an update sometime this week, it will be good for me to write it.

OfficerChris
01-04-2012, 10:30
There are a lot of people here waiting for it and hoping to support you.

Ajon412
01-04-2012, 10:31
I am so very sorry for your loss, Brother....I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers......

CJStudent
01-04-2012, 10:52
As I told you on FB, man, we're here for you.

PuroMexicano
01-04-2012, 11:48
God bless you Doogie, you're in our thoughts and prayers.