I read your recent post about hating life, etc. I am not a Dr, but I am a pharmaceutical rep specializing in NeuroHealth. I call on Psychiatrist and talk about depression and other related things. The way you described your situation is almost a textbook description of depression. Please make an appointment ASAP with your family doctor and tell him exactly how you feel. Write it down before you go. Don't sugar coat it or gloss over your feelings. The feelings you have are not normal and it CAN be fixed. Please do this. Let me know whay happens. I care.